Here, Wang Ruoxi, standing at the entrance door of the room, asked panickingly, "Are you ok, Zhao Shiza? You came here to see Xu Yuan's health but what happened? You yourself are lying on the hospital bed—what happened to you?"
I took a deep, slow breath and was just going to answer Wang Ruoxi, but Yang Lulu answered her first before me and said, "Don't worry, Zhao Shiza is absolutely fine. She just fainted due to low blood sugar level, but now she is doing good and completely healthy. Doctor just checked her, so no need to worry," she said in her calm voice.
Wang Ruoxi said, "Thank God, thankfully she is fine. You know, Shiza, how much I got scared. You just cut my call and I was calling you continuously after that, but you didn't pick up my call, so I called Miss Yang Lulu. Thankfully I had taken her number from your phone just in case of emergency, and see, that emergency came so fast."
"Don't worry, Miss Wang Ruoxi, your friend is absolutely fine, nothing to worry about," Yang Lulu said to Wang Ruoxi.
"Thanks, Miss Yang Lulu, for helping her and me as well. Because of you I was able to know this address and came here. If you were not there then—" Wang Ruoxi said this but stopped midway.
"Ok, you both talk. I'll leave then."
Yang Lulu went out of the room.
The moment Yang Lulu went out of the room, Wang Ruoxi immediately grabbed the chair and sat beside my bed and started looking at me continuously, carrying so many questions in her eyes. I took a deep and slow breath and asked her, "What, Wang Ruoxi? Say it loud. I can hear your questions from your eyes—now just spill the beans."
She started looking at me more closely, into my eyes, and then, after a pause of 3 seconds, she said, "I am your childhood friend, Shiza."
"So what?" I said casually.
She said, "Then stop hiding from me."
"I am not hiding from you. I am just sitting here right in front of you, how can I hide myself from you?" I said.
"Stop making confusing conversations. You exactly know what I am talking about. Do you really think that I didn't understand what's going on inside you? I know, Zhao Shiza. I know the way you ran away just at the moment after hearing about him, that he is in the hospital. I know the way you ran away barefoot on the roads of Shanghai in this cold winter night. I know the way you fainted and yourself got hospitalized due to low blood sugar level. I know the way you showed your other side about that person who is responsible for Xu Yuan's accident. I know. Do you really think I am that stupid? I just only want to say to you that stop running away from your feelings."
"I am not running away, Wang Ruoxi. You are getting me wrong," I said while looking away from her.
Wang Ruoxi said, "Look at yourself… how helplessly you are in love with Xu Yuan. How can I not recognize it? Not even me—if anyone saw you in this position right now, they all could easily tell this. But I am really not getting why you are hiding your feelings. Why you didn't go straight to him and say that you have feelings for him? And now it's become so simple for you. You both are working on the same drama series, shooting day and night together. So easy—you can tell him anytime."
I started crying immediately after hearing all this from Wang Ruoxi and hugged her tightly and said while crying, "You don't know, Wang Ruoxi… you really don't know what I am going through. It's not that simple to tell him about my feelings. The way you are thinking it—he… he…"
"Say, Shiza, say. I am hearing," Wang Ruoxi said while patting my back to console me.
Then I closed my eyes and, with a lot of pain in them, I said, "He… he has girlfriend. He even worked with her in one of his drama series where he played the role of volunteer Li Qingyan in that drama. That's why I stopped watching that drama after 15 episodes of it, because I can't watch him seeing that girl romantically and carrying so much love in his eyes for her. It hurts me. It feels like someone cuts my Mr. Heart into pieces. When I knew that he has girlfriend I backed off, because he is so happy with her. Even I saw few videos of them together on Weibo where she wears the teddy bear costume for him because he was feeling low that day and she wanted to make him smile, as she can't see him upset. And he even cried in that video when he knew his girlfriend wore that teddy bear costume for him to make him smile. Their love is so pure, Wang Ruoxi. How… how can I even come in between two people who are really made for each other, so happy together? I can't let myself destroy this beautiful and pure love of theirs. I can't… I can't. Listen, Wang Ruoxi, love is the most beautiful and purest feeling in this whole universe. There are very few people who get their love, but your friend is very unlucky in this because the person I loved with my whole soul is already and madly in love with his girlfriend. And you are asking me to tell him about my feelings? How can I destroy their beautiful love? I can't, I can't. If your friend is unlucky in love, that doesn't mean I spoil others' love. No, never. I was learning to live like this, but then suddenly this audition and this drama series shooting appeared and I met him… but we can't fight with destiny, Wang Ruoxi. We can't. Now I just want to complete this drama series project and want to go back to my old life and end this drama."
Wang Ruoxi looked at me continuously and said, "Xu Yuan is very unlucky. He can never know how much this poor mad girl loves him."
I smiled with my teary eyes and said, "No… he is the luckiest person because he got his love in his girlfriend."
She said, "You can't listen even one word against him, hm? Isn't it?"
"Yes, of course, because I'll always remain his little fan girl till my last breath, and it's in itself a unique thing," I said while forcing a fake smile on my face.
Then she said, "Now I get to know why you didn't watch any of his drama series."
I nodded my head and said, "Just pray for his speedy recovery."
Then she said, "Why should I pray for him when he already has such a hardcore fangirl of him? Then there is no need for me to pray for him. His fangirl's prayer is enough for him. I hope he wakes up soon, he already has many things lined up for him."
Then I suddenly remembered one of his recent videos that I had seen on Weibo, where he mistakenly sat in the wrong car and his team member came and told him that it was the wrong car. He was quite cute at that moment. Then I smiled a little while thinking this in my mind…
But the door opened suddenly and here Yang Lulu came in and said, "Xu Yuan woke up and came back to his senses. Doctor Qi is examining him."
The moment I heard this, I stepped down from my bed and…