Yuan stepped out of the car first, then he came to my side and opened the door on my side of the car. Then I stepped out of the car and saw the place, and the place is none other than the place where we have met before. Yes, it's the place where we both met each other on the first day of our shoot together.
"Yuan this is—" I was about to ask him, but he stopped me in the middle of the sentence and came closer to me and said, "Yes, it is the same place where we have met before on the day of our shooting together. When you came to do a mock shoot with me," he said.
I smiled and said, "Look, this place is near our shooting location and we have met first on the set, so why did you take me here? Why didn't we go to the set despite coming to a place near that?" I asked him.
He smiled and said, "My little silly girl, I was expecting this silliness from you and really waiting for you to come up with this question, and as expected you have asked me this."
"Are you making fun of me?" I asked him a little more dramatically.
He chuckled and said, "Stop pouting."
"I am not pouting," I said.
"Don't lie," he said, "you are."
"No I am not," I said it while folding my arms.
"Ok ok, let's just not waste our precious time that we have left in these silly fights. Just come with me," he said and held my hand and took me towards the place where there is a lot of open area and most importantly the open sky that we can see. And this sky gives me the place to breathe. This open sky has just literally made me forget all the tensions and stress that I was having.
Then he looked at me and said, "Breathe."
And I did as he said. The moment I breathed in that fresh air, I felt like everything will be fine. Nothing is going to go wrong anywhere. I just need to be more calm and handle the situation, whatever is coming to me in the future.
And this theory literally helps me. It really did.
Then I looked at him and said, "I really feel good breathing in this air."
"That's why I brought you here," he said.
I got a little shocked hearing that from him.
And he continued and said, "I know these days you are going through so many emotional ups and downs and you are really not stable enough to handle these things when you are so little, my silly girl. I know you are not made to handle these things, I really do know. But then I realized it's all because of me, so it's my responsibility to make you feel secure and help you in this. So whatever I have, I will do that for you," he said to me.
Then he said, "Close your eyes and slowly and deeply breathe in and out in this open sky and make all your worries vanish away in this fresh air."
And yes, it really did work. Of course, whatever my Yuan says always works for me.
While I closed my eyes for a while to just feel that air and freshness, it made me think that I am living in another world which just has him and me in it and a beautiful dream.
He whispered in my ear, "Silly girl, wait for me. I'll be back right after five minutes."
I nodded my head while closing my eyes.
Then when he left from there, I opened my eyes as a notification popped up on my phone on Weibo. I opened it and again it's information from one of his fan pages where there is news that directors are considering him and an actress that I have seen in her drama, that they'll be paired in a modern romantic drama together, which really breaks my heart.
I know it seems like I am becoming a hurdle in his career, but no it's not that. It's just… what should I do? Maybe I am not mature enough to understand, but whenever I see him with any other actresses I feel jealous—jealous to the core.
And I accept it boldly that yes I do feel jealous.
But yes, I never tell him about that because I can't let my foolishness ruin his career. I know it will hurt me, I know, but it won't hurt me more than my Yuan's career which is more important to me.
Yes, I am a jealous girlfriend.
But tell me, my heart, how could I not get jealous when I have gone through so much pain in the past?
But Màma used to tell me one thing since my childhood: "Zhao Shiza, whatever you have right now you should always cherish that thing and those moments or memories because we really don't know what is going to happen next."
But at least until then, whatever I have I'll cherish it.
I celebrate you, Yuan. I celebrate every day of mine which has you in it as it becomes a wonderful occasion for me.
You just came into my life and conquered the whole life of me, just like you own it, and you really ruled it like a king who rules his fallen kingdom and makes it stable.
Yes, my world was a fallen kingdom, but you didn't let it fall.
Your light, your brightness gave me the ray of hope in the darkness of my life.
I had already decided to be the friend of the darkness, but you dragged me to the bright side of life and made me realize that this world is not always hopeless. It sometimes has a really beautiful and bright side.
Just you have given me your eyes to see through it.
And in the world which has you in it, then tell me how could I not fall on my knees?
Yes, you made me do that.
And while I was confessing my inner thoughts to myself, he came back holding two ice cream cones in his hands and said,
"Here silly girl, your favorite choco vanilla ice cream. Eat it fast otherwise it will get melted. The Shanghai weather is changing, the days are becoming a little hotter. Eat it," he said while handing over the ice cream cone to me.
I smiled and grabbed it and started eating it while looking up at the sky.
And we just didn't even realize how fast the time passed away, and the dark night in Shanghai changed into the early sunrise morning as the sky started becoming orange.
I just realized that we have spent the whole night like this.
And I looked at him and said, "Yuan it's morning."
He smiled and said, "Yes I know. Let's see a sunrise together then."
And he made me look at the sun.
It doesn't mean that I haven't seen sunrises in my life. I have seen many sunrises and many sunsets in my whole life, but those never had him in them.
But this one will be my most favorite one as it has you in it.
I said it to myself in my heart as I am still too shy. I can't confess all my feelings to him. What will he think? That I am such a foolish, over-obsessed girl.
Then we saw it together as the sun rose and its bright orange-yellow light reflected on us.
Then after that I turned around to him and asked, "Yuan, if we go back to our homes right now then it will take time and we'll get late for the shoot as today is the last day of our shoot together," I said.
He smiled and said, "Silly girl, your boyfriend has already prepared everything. Your new clothes are in the car. Grab them from there and change and freshen up yourself in your makeup room," he said.
"Ooo you have really prepared everything so well. You never disappoint me," I said while folding my arms.
He chuckled and said, "Now let's go inside the set otherwise the crew members will start coming here, then they'll definitely get fishy about us."
I nodded my head and said, "Ok, whatever my Yuan says."
He patted my head and said, "Silly girl, why so mine?"
"Always yours," I said.
And then we both went inside the shooting set...