Do you really think that you can hide this from me? he asked me.
I looked down and said what, I am not getting whatever you are asking me.
Stop acting, he said.
I am not acting, I am just telling the truth, I said it more confidently.
He exhaled sharply and said I know what you are feeling right now, he said it.
But I am really not jealous Yuan, I am really not, I said it.
But I didn't say that word, he said it.
It means you are, he said.
No no I mean I thought you think like that about me, I said it while getting a little panic after he caught my lie.
No, if you say that word it only means that it is going in your mind, he said it.
No Yuan it's not and why you bring me here, I wanna go back to the dorm. I am getting off from here, and after saying that I tried to open the car door and was about to step out of it but he locked my side of door.
Yuan what kind of childish thing is this, I asked him.
Open it right now, I said to him.
You are so stubborn, you are really not gonna listen to me right, he said.
No I am not stubborn, you are just overthinking everything, I said it.
He exhaled sharply and came closer to me, close enough to make my Mr heart flutter and beat faster than usual.
Yuan what are you doing, I asked him.
Looking closely that how a pretty liar looks like, he said it.
Then he moved back to his seat and started the car and headed towards my dormitory. But in that whole path we didn't say a word to each other after this. He was just focused on driving the car and I was just sitting quiet like a statue.
But there was a lot going inside my mind, the emotional changes for which I was not able to face or handle but I had left with no choice, I had to. There was no other option left for me.
And my thoughts didn't let me realize that we had reached my dorm so fast. This was the first time when I was with him and didn't even utter a single word from my mouth.
He stopped the car in front of my dorm's gate. I stepped out of the car the moment he opened the lock that he had done earlier.
And I really stepped out of the car without saying a word to him and closed the door of the car and started taking steps forward towards my dorm.
In that whole way I was just keep on thinking I think this will also end like this only. Maybe the journey of our love is till here but if it really was then the moments and memories I have created with him are enough for me to live with those for my whole life.
I entered the dorm and went to my room without looking back.
The only thing which came in my mind at that time was that today we didn't even say a proper goodbye to each other. We just got into our paths like this only.
I entered the room. The room was empty.
Thank god Wang Ruoxi must be attending some of her classes right now. Thank god she was not here because if she was here then she would definitely ask me after seeing my long face that what happened to me.
But it seems like luck was with me today on my side.
I didn't think much and just lay down straight on my bed without even changing my clothes and opened my Weibo account where I saw his post.
He posted about the event where he was wearing a black suit. I think black suits him, no he suits black, in fact he suits every colour that exists in the world.
I slid the photos and saw him in those looking so much fascinating and handsome as always in typical my Yuan's style.
Then I didn't even realize when I drifted off into deep sleep while watching his photos from that event he posted.
And hours had passed and a voice came to my ear which was none other than Wang Ruoxi's voice saying Zhao Shiza wake up look what he is doing tell him to go back just tell him I tried myself but he didn't ready to even hear me for a second but I think if you say something to him he'll definitely hear that I know he'll definitely will wake up Zhao Shiza just wake up and handle him.
Then I slowly opened my eyes and sat on the bed rubbing my eyes with both my hands and tried to open them. My face was a little swollen from sleep, eyes were a bit heavy, cheeks were puffed up and I asked her what are you saying.
I am saying just go and tell him to go away from here. If anyone notices him and even gets an idea that he is here then a huge mess and crowd will be gathered and created here which will also affect his career. What will people think what Xu Yuan is doing outside his female co actress dormitory standing there in the car for hours.
The moment she said that standing here in the car for hours it just hit me. Did he not go after dropping me here. It was evening at that time and now it's night. From evening to night he was here only.
But why, why didn't he go back?
I asked these questions to myself and got lost in them while standing numb there.
Wang Ruoxi shook me with both of her hands and said go Zhao Shiza what are you waiting for tell him to go.
I nodded my head and immediately I just ran, just ran towards outside the dormitory.
I ran as fast as I could. I didn't even run that much in any of my racing competitions.
The only thing which was going in my mind while running was why why you are here till now what exactly is going inside your mind.
Then I reached outside the gate of the dormitory and saw his car was at the same place where I left it.
He was resting his head on the steering wheel and I said Yuan.
The moment he heard his name from me he immediately lifted his head from that steering wheel and got outside the car immediately and without even a moment of realizing anything he bent down a little and just hugged me like I was going to disappear if he loosened his grip.
Yuan too tight, I said to him.
I know, he replied while hugging me more tightly.
Yuan why didn't you go after dropping me here why you are still here see how dark it has got you need to go back to your home, I said to him.
He broke the hug a little just to see my face and said I am standing right in front of my home while looking at my face.
This was a really big word for me.
He hugged me again. His body shook a little, I could sense it as he started crying.
His tears started falling down on my shoulders.
Each and every drop of his tears which are the most precious ones were falling down.
I broke that hug and cupped his face with both of my hands and asked him Yuan why are you crying.
He said I am crying because you didn't feel secure in our relationship because of me you feel insecure. Before when we didn't know each other your pain was not known by me but now when we have finally met and know each other this same feeling and pain that I am making you go through again is definitely my fault this time.
I think he got an idea about my feelings nowadays, I said it to myself.
Yuan it's nothing like that you don't need to think like that it's not your fault in this not even anyone else's fault so you don't need to blame yourself for something you didn't even, I said to him.
Why why I never knew anything why always, he said that.
No no don't blame yourself Yuan you have no right to blame my obedient boyfriend, I said.
He smiled a little through his teary eyes hearing that and said obedient boyfriend.
I nodded my head and he just kissed my cheek for a second which made my whole body shock and he smiled looking at me and said your face is looking like a puffed dumpling I couldn't even resist that.
I smiled shyly.
Did you wake up from deep sleep, he asked me.
I nodded my head and said ok bye I am heading back now and you should also go back tomorrow we have the last day of our shooting together on set so bye.
I was about to leave but he hugged me again and said you are not allowed to leave from here.
What, I asked him.
He just held my hand and got me inside the car and closed the door.
Where are you taking me Yuan at this time, I asked him.
Just stay quiet a little my silly girl, he said it while sitting on the driving seat beside me and settling his seat belt.
But my curiosity really couldn't leave me. I shook his hand a little and asked him again where we are heading to Yuan.
He smiled and started the car and said just somewhere where only you and I will be there in a dreamy land of ours.
It was exactly what I dreamt of, just him and me in a romantic dream that I always dreamt of as my most favourite thing to do.
Now I really don't know where we are heading but wherever my Yuan takes me his Zhao Shiza will go with him as wherever he goes I will trip on his soul, I said these things to myself while he was driving the car.
I looked outside the sky through the glass and closed my eyes while smiling as I felt like I was literally living the life with him that I always dreamt of since years.
Now I was able to breathe in this dream and live it fully.
I hope it lasts forever and ever.
This is the only wish I have in my Mr heart.
And the car stopped.
I didn't even realize that we had reached our destination as I was so lost in my own thoughts and then.....