Well let's get this over with I don't want you following me around like headless chicken."he took a deep breath as he started, "she called me as soon as she got into the accident she confessed and I remembered how she told me she was happy just being around me her was cheerful at the time I never expected that she was breathing her last at the time.
She was too Happy which was unnatural because we never saw her like that like she was letting go at the time. She said how she was happy to meet me and how just being around me made her happy he remembered her words.
" today I want to let go it might be the last time so I'm happy to have been your friend to have loved you secretly but I know you knew that is why you started avoiding me but I'm still happy we talked.
I've always been alone nobody ever helped or talked to me or asked about being friends. You gave me light that I never thought I'll ever get so thank you and if I don't make it please remember me I like you a lot. "The call ended just like that I never got the chance to reply or talk to her again but I tried really after the call ended but it was switched off so I called her brother but he said she was okay.
I tried urging him to search for her but he just brushed my words off so I went to Copper and we, searched for her until we found her in the hospital receiving treatment and after she woke up she called me to her ward but her words were like the last and well they were the last she told me that leaving was had so she wanted to rest that's all nothing more and those beeping machines were affirmation of her demise.
I called the doctors but it was too late anyway and from then Copper hated me so much that he spread rumors in the university that I may be the reason she died after all the last call was to me and so was I the last to see her. It was ironical because I never thought that him of all people would spread those rumors.
At that time it was had enough that I had lost both friends one dead and the other just hated me too much that he never wanted to see me. Adding to the weird looks the students were giving me at that time I told myself to be strong.
I held on and continued going to my lectures like always but inside I was braking little by little until I started blaming myself too. I should have realized that something was wrong when she was so happy and I should also have realised it through the way she was breathing. There were many factors, indicators bit I just realised it after the call was cut.
Days were hard at the university and that's when Barbara came she advised me all the way though she never knew anything. She just told me that she believed that I could never do such things and that guilt can never bring Chelsea back to life, after all it was planned and that was her fate. She was there all the time when Copper came with fake evidence about me sending people to beat him up. Copper came up with a lot of things throwing my name to the mud just for his satisfaction until we graduated.
It was hard holding on because I felt like ending it all or just by ending my own life but then Barbra's image comes to my mind and she became the reason I kept holding on no matter how hard it became I would hold up and let the tears flow only when there was water flowing over my body so no one would notice. I kept the smile through the pain until I graduated and started working.
Work became the only therapy that worked because it helped me forget everything it went on like that until I met her again Barbara we talked for hours and exchanged conacts and talked about nothing except our lives.
We wentbon dates but I knew she wanted something from me but she couldn't just say it. I knew she never wanted anything to do with love so I never had my hopes up even when I started having feeling for her. I hid it well so well that she never knew then one day she asked for the impossible she wanted a child and she wanted me to donate sperms to her and that's when she brought up the promise I made to her so I agreed but I had a condition which was that I'll be there during the pregnancy and the child's growth.
Because I never wanted my child to be born out of welock I also proposed marriage to her and she agreed. She never gave me the reason why she wanted a child so badly but I took care of her through everything that is until one of the check ups when I heard that she couldn't keep the children because her life will be shortened and there was a higher probability of death during labour.
That's when I confronted her about the truth and she told me that she wanted her child, to hold it and live together with she/he loving and caring for the child till her last breath. She promised she would survive and take care of the kids .
Well she did only a few hours she held them all that time singing lullabies until she died still holding them, well you haven't met his sister yet she is studying abroad for the moment and was raised by there maternal grandparents.
They are always together during the holidays she will return soon anyway we'll go to her graduation in about four months we will travel. "Well that was a surprise to everyone because they thought that Kevin was an only child.
One thing Sebastian kept in his heart and knew all along was that his wife never loved him romantically till she breathed her last maybe that was his karma because the one he loved never looked his way and the one who loved him was gone but he never looked her way.