Nothing, I said it in the most casual way I can so that he can believe me, but how can I even forget that he is Yuan, the Yuan, and hiding anything from him is really not so possible for me.
How's your university life going on? he asked me while still looking straight at the road while driving.
I smiled and said it's ok ok.
He laughed a little hearing that and asked me what's that ok ok?
I smiled again and said it means everything is going well.
Ooo so that's what your ok ok really means, he said.
Hmm, I said and then again I got lost in my thoughts that after two days I have to say goodbye to our daily meetings with each other, our daily seeing each other. No doubt it has become my routine to see him daily like a person does his prayer daily, it's just like that for me. His love is a prayer to me and tell me how can I not pray daily, but I know no one is going to understand this feeling of mine. But will he, will he understand it if I ever tell him about the deepness of my love for him? But I can't, I really can't. I can't make him confused and stuck over me. He has a life in which he loves his career, his acting so much that he even feels all the characters by himself. And also this March month is quite busy for him, he needs to go to some brand promotions and then he has to shoot for the variety show as well and then he has to do the dubbing part of his dramas that he previously shot which are about to release within few months.
He is a big star Zhao Shiza don't stop his growth, I said it to myself. But then my Mr heart asked me a question which scared me a little and the question was did his glamorous world, did his busy schedules really ever have a space for me, will it or will it not? I don't know its answer but yes I even get afraid to get the answer for it, because what if it doesn't have space for me, what if he thinks that a girl from the acting field suits him better. It's not that I don't trust him, it's that I don't trust my life. I don't even trust it a little bit that will my life ever be that grateful to me that it will give me Xu Yuan, will it really be?
I don't know but happiness doesn't last forever. I really don't know whether my life has him in it or not but I am really glad that I met him, I am really really glad that I am able to make my imaginary world with Yuan into my real world with Yuan. And I cherish all those memories and moments whatever we have created together in past few months. I don't know what future holds for me, for you, for us but the Zhao Shiza's theory of life says live in the present, don't waste your present in the tension of thinking what the future holds for you. Whatever it is I'll face it, I definitely will but not at this moment. Right now I am having him sitting beside me driving me back to my dormitory like a responsible boyfriend, what else I could ask for than this?
Then the brake hit, he stopped the car and said while breaking my self thoughts and self thinking about everything, he said we have reached your dorm.
I smiled and said thank you for the lift and I opened the car door and was about to get out from it but before my feet touched the ground from the car he held my hand. I turned my head towards him and asked him did I forget anything?
He smiled while looking into my eyes, why Yuan Yuan why you do this, I said it to myself in my mind, when you look at me like this with your affectionate eyes which are quite infectious as well for me to handle, my Mr heart just dropped a beat.
Then he said to me in his most calm and composing voice which makes my Mr heart flutter, he said didn't you hug me before going out?
I blushed a little but I immediately hid it, as if he caught me then he'll definitely tease me to the core which I can't handle.
I caught you, he said.
Did he really? I murmured this to myself but he heard that too.
He said I caught you again and again and I'll always catch you, you can't hide it from me but tell me one thing didn't you know hiding anything from your boyfriend is not a good thing, he said to me.
I am not hiding anything from you, I said it but my voice didn't support me, it got stuck a little while saying it to him.
He smiled and said don't lie silly girl your quality of lying is getting down as nowadays I am able to catch your lies a lot, he said it.
Now this is enough, my Mr heart can't handle this much teasing from him, this is really enough for me and I just got down from the car and closed the door. I started moving towards inside my dormitory.
Then he opened his side car window and said to me in a bit louder tone that you silly girl you didn't give me what I asked you for.
I turned around and said it's pending on me, I know he is talking about that hug that he asked me to give just now.
Now you have two pending things on you, I'll ask you to give it to me whenever I want, he said.
Oooo my Yuan Yuan I think you didn't even let me sleep tonight if you talk like this, I'll only think about you all day, you are really making me blush too much and he caught that too and said blush inside your blanket that you usually do, he said it.
He quite knows me very well now but then I said ok bye bye.
Bye bye, he said while waving his hand to me and then he went from here.
I went inside the dorm and entered the room where Wang Ruoxi is sitting in the middle of the bed and throwing all her clothes in the room, the whole room is filled with her clothes. I am not even able to walk on the floor, wait there is no floor here, the whole floor is filled with her clothes.
What's this Wang Ruoxi? I asked her.
She looked at me and said you came Zhao Shiza let's go shopping immediately I don't have anything to wear on farewell, see I have searched my whole wardrobe.
But didn't we already decide that we will go shopping then why did you search your wardrobe for?
Ooo actually I was trying that I mean if I got something in my wardrobe to wear on farewell then you didn't have to go with me to shopping and your time didn't get wasted but I got completely failed, Wang Ruoxi said it.
I exhaled sharply and said while looking at her yes I can see that you really tried hard to help me but ended up messing up everything so first we need to assemble your clothes back into your wardrobe then we will go shopping, I said it to her and then I moved forward a little to grab one of her clothes that she threw here and there in the room to fold it but she held my hand and said we'll do it later first let's go shopping. Then she just dragged me outside the dorm like this and I just didn't get a chance to say anything. Ooo now I have to go shopping first, after coming back from there then only I'll be able to clean that mess.
Then we went to a mall. Wang Ruoxi got inside the changing room to try the dresses, meanwhile I was seeing the collection here and there in the showroom. Then a notification popped up on my phone's screen from Weibo, it's from one of the fan pages of him that I follow and when I opened it I saw him in that black suit with black shirt with a chain locket on his neck and yes he is doing that brand promotion, it's some kind of specs brand which sells aviators and many different types of specs. He wore a few, first he wore specs which suited him really well then he wore those black aviators which also suited him well. Everything suits my Yuan, even anything he does or wears becomes best just because he wears it. Oooo my Yuan is just looking jaw dropping gorgeous. Ooo I am his girlfriend now but still his fan girl era inside me really didn't end in me.
Then Wang Ruoxi came out of the changing room and said I am done I am buying this dress did you like anything here to wear on farewell? she asked me.
I said no I'll wear something from my wardrobe only.
Are you sure? she asked me.
Yes I am, now let's go we need to reach our dorm on time otherwise the gate will get closed and we need to clean up the mess you have created, I said it to her while holding her hand and walking outside the showroom after buying her dress.
Then the moment we reached the dorm inside our room Wang Ruoxi got tired and just lay down on the bed and said I am done for today.
I know that's coming. She drifted off into sleep within few seconds. Now I have to clean up that mess alone. Then while cleaning that a thought came into my mind the moment I saw the time which hit 12 am that now only two days left, just two days more to go…..