I was saddened by my fling being betrothed already. Then they did the omaguro. And bit him. Hard. In front of me on the street. I beat his fiance nearly to death over it.
Or I thought I did. Cause for the first, but certainly not the last according to my Oracle senses, time travel happened. To correct that moment across space and time. Cause that woman is just so important, she doesn't die.
Liu Bei moves his son out of the village. And I'm so paranoid I stalk him. Cause I don't trust his wife. And I want him to live.
It's easy to follow my man thanks to the love of Mother Gaea. And the constant machinations of time travelers. Following their trail is easy and ridiculously hard. If I ever get too close, time warps on the spot. I have walked through entire cycles of the sun going around the planet because a time traveler accelerates time to get Sasuke and his wife further and further away from me.
It doesn't matter, because I find them anyway. In the capital of China. Because apparently the Emperor's Daughter is marrying my man. And being allowed to abuse him. I won't allow it. Ever.
I'm already tortured by the faintest whisper of my mind saying she's abusing mentally. Only mentally. Cause she knows she dies if a bruise appears now.
A squad of men approach me as I reach the capital. There is enough malice generated from them where I just fire first. There's enough corruption, I just don't care. I shoot poison darts from my eyes, and walk past them as they die from poison.
I don't get much farther before a woman appears. A black woman in China wearing a black and red kimono. I snort, amused at this ridiculous sight.
"Aren't you supposed to be on another continent?" I ask angrily.
She pulls out a wakizashi and a wand. I snort with amused disdain.
"So you're a black witch from Britain then?" I taunt smugly.
She thrusts her wand forward, and a small firebolt shoots out it. I exhale my breath hard, putting out the firebolt with ease. Then I fire 12 poison darts at her in quick succession. Surprisingly, her hand is fast enough to block all 12 darts. I keep firing darts as I cockily approach her. She keeps blocking, and begins backstepping.
I snap my fingers, and summon roots to entangle her feet. And sweep her off her feet. Then I reach her, and make the roots spread her arms and legs out. Then I rub poison on her throat. And walk away as she chokes to death from poison and her throat closing on her.
The town fluctuates at this point, hard. Several realities play out in front of me. Where we all kill each other. Until it's a ghost town.
And we skip to that point. As the capital burns, and I'm in front of Sasuke again. Who is crying. And begging for reality to have mercy.
"Why did you love me so much to ruin China over me?!" Sasuke asks miserably. "They're all dead! Everyone is dead because of you needing me so much! I didn't need saved! I was fine!"
"They were hurting you." I say, quiet and sad.
"I could handle it." Sasuke says bitterly.
"You shouldn't have to be hurt! You're a good man!" I snap angrily.
"Kobra. I'm not worth this." Sasuke says miserably.
Reality fluctuates again as Sasuke prays. And tells the wind to change everything.
"Lord of Time Cronos. Please do what's necessary for China to prosper. Change the flow of time by any means necessary. I will suffer for China to thrive." Sasuke says with solemn, tragic heroism.
It's maddening. As we both watch what his reality is. He's going to be a joke. His wife paints her teeth permanently black to be ugly to him. While she cheats on him. And makes fun of him. And ruins his clothes. Isolates him with ruining his reputation. Just so she can torture him to keep Liu Bei in line and loyal to the Emperor.
I hold Sasuke illegally to us both. He tries pushing me away, but I keep holding him with love. Desperate love that blooms with madness just so he won't let this reality exist. Cause he's making it happen the hardest. He's making time travel work by going back in time to where we met.
And not being outside that day. No one is.
I refuse to allow it. I solidify the reality we are supposed to be in with my pure malice. Forcing his body back against me. And he just sobs.
"We can't let them die like this." Sasuke says miserably.
"Why not? They're just going to torture you." I say, angry and miserable.
Sasuke sighs, seeing the rage and love in my eyes.
"If I love you again, please let it go." Sasuke begs, loving and solemn. "You can't hold onto me illegally. You're a good woman."
Reality fluctuates again. As we go back to the first time we met. And it's a full day now. Liu Bei never interrupted us. We're back in the bed. Both of us crying. We both know what's to come.
"Please run away with me. Don't be their punching bag." I ask desperately.
"I need to do it to stabilize relations with their family. It's necessary for China, love." Sasuke says, solemn and sad.
I pull him against me, crying and making sobbing sounds.
"They won't hurt me because of you. Your malice alone changes all that." Sasuke says sadly.
"I should protect you from all of it. You can't keep me away forever. I'll sneak into your life whenever I want." I say angrily.
Sasuke wraps an arm around me, and sighs again.
"You shouldn't ruin this society because of me. I'm a Noble. A tool of society. We aren't meant to be loved in a way that's nice. We don't get to be normal like you." Sasuke says sadly.
I can feel his betrothed glaring at me in the Oracle part of my mind. Showing me how nice his reality will be. Because she's scared of me coming to kill her over even a bruise on my man's body. But I see how isolating it will. Because she won't love him genuinely. He's a trophy husband that will barely be satiated so he can keep the country running as a Noble.
A simulation plays in our minds. Of the secret wars that would be waged for me to see Sasuke in the middle of the night. His wife would die eventually. I would love it. I would just replace his wife, and ruin reality overnight.
I massage Sasuke again. While I'm naked. I give Sasuke as much love as he can bare. We have sex again. I kiss him dozens of times. He's disgusted with himself and me. I feel it as I hold myself against him in this moment.
"Don't make me leave. You'll never be loved like this again." I say miserably.
Nor will I. Not by this man at least. Who I know I will imagine till the end of time. Being alone in an apathetic, empty world with an evil woman. Who just watches him work and laughs at him behind his back. In an empty home.
"Please leave. I don't deserve this. You're ruining my marriage." Sasuke says miserably.
How I leave doesn't make sense. It's just like… magic. I feel and see reality become a strange image as I'm seemingly phased away. Out of the building. Suddenly at my shop. With my clothes. And it's… still the same day as I met Sasuke.
Time travelers are… destroying the time I had with Sasuke. Literally. I walk over to where that fort was, wondering if it was all real. There is a flower garden. And Artemis.
Artemis stares at me, as I stare at this spot. Traumatized. Crying. She approaches me, a stern look on her face.
"Are you satisfied? You ruined a good man." Artemis says angrily.
"He deserves better than her." I say sadly.
"It never happened. We un-invented it. Literally. You know it." Artemis says angrily.
My emotions pour out of me. I take an instinctive battle stance, surging my fist towards Artemis's throat. She flashes love through her eyes at me to make me hesitate.
"Please. It wasn't my choice. It's just what they wanted to be done." Artemis says sadly.
"Why did you help?" I ask angrily.
"... I didn't. I just… let it happen. Cause she owns him. She owns that man. And that's all there is to it sadly. She's the Emperor's Daughter. You're just a Merchant." Artemis says sadly.
"Why couldn't I even have the day with him?" I ask miserably.
"Because it was embarrassing. It ruins their marriage." Artemis says sternly.
Artemis's gaze softens as she sees me trembling. I lower my fists, cover my face with my hands, and begin sobbing.
Artemis just stares at me stoically. With some regret. And walks away. Showing loyalty to a group beyond my understanding.
"WHO ARE THEY!? WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE THAT CONTROL TIME JUST FOR THAT WHORE TO OWN SASUKE LIKE THIS!? SHE'S MAKING HIS LIFE MISERABLE FOR HIS WHOLE LIFE!" I yell furiously.
Artemis sighs bitterly.
"They're just the women of China. We're all united under God. Just give up. It's God's Will. Just be patient and keep trying. You'll get another man. Probably." Artemis says, bitter and serious.
She runs away from me. While I fall to my knees, sobbing. I crawl around that stupid flower garden, trying to figure out the spot I first saw Sasuke. Then I lay there, eventually crying myself to sleep in that spot.
I dream a terrible and wonderful dream. Which I just keep believing is fake. It's his betrothed wife, sending me a dream of how wonderful his life will be as that evil woman's husband. He will be wealthy. She will apparently love him better than I ever did. But her love is fake. It's just poses and cuddles. They don't speak.
It's just a barrage of images of his quality of life. Of what he can possess. His work will be bureaucracy. He is a Noble that will help lead civil projects and improve China.
I just don't trust her to love him. Cause my nightmares creep in. Of him just being so lonely. Because he will watch the Emperor be loved by his wife and all his concubines. While his wife will be distant. Only loving him occasionally. And it will sustain him. Barely.
I wake up in the early morning, just stunned. I make my way home, and it just gets worse.
My workers betray me, and all quit at once. Leaving a note saying they all got married. Blah. Whatever, It's the women betraying me in unison.
It just fuels the war in my head. A war I'm not sure I should even pursue. Cause if I do it too hard, Sasuke or some dumbass hero will pray to the Time God Cronos apparently to save reality from my wrath.
The mere threat of time travel is enough to put a stop to almost every plan I even want to make. Cause I keep imagining them un-inventing my date with Sasuke.
It's just an endless cycle in my head of war being invented and un-invented. And I still want to win it. If not for Sasuke, for the next man or woman I want to love.