He calmed me down and I took some courage to speak.
"I am heading for the shower. I will be right back!" I assured him.
"Fine, I will be waiting for you!" He said.
I smiled and went upstairs holding myself. I stripped myself and adjusted the temperature of the water.
Right now, all I need his a hot shower to calm myself down, then I stripped my clothes and stood below the shower.
It began to flow over my body and the tears also joined. I began to cry harder and couldn't stop, but sat down while hugging my body.
Why always me? Why am I always creating problems for everyone?
The pain hit harder, like being a magnet always attracting problems.
Just then, after gathering some courage, I walked out and wore something comfortable. I was in shorts.
Took the cloth to dry my hair and took out my hair dryer from the box then began to dry my hair. While I looked at myself in the mirror.
Applied cream and then walked out. While I took my step out, I looked in one last time to see if everything was clean and all the switches were off.
Then I got down and saw him sitting near the fireplace, with a mug of coffee. He looked at me and smiled.
I got down and sat beside him while he handed me hot chocolate. I looked at the window it was raining.
"Are you alright?" He asked me.
"Yeah, you can say!" I didn't deny or accept.
"Nowadays people have become such good actors!" He said.
"All thanks to you!"
"What do you mean?"
"You are also an actor!"
"So?"
"Sometimes when I look at you in screen acting, it looks fine, but when I see you off-screen, it feels like you are hiding multiple emotions.
Sometimes I don't understand how well actors and actresses manage to hide their sadness on stage and pretend like nothing happens."
"When you get into acting it sometimes becomes a habit!" He replied, and then he acted like something clicked in his mind while he turned towards me and asked me,
"How do you know I have lots of thinking hidden?"
"I feel like you are pretending to be happy but deep down you are not.
It feels like you are tired of fighting and you have multiple emotions you don't want the camera to see.
Sometimes it doesn't show any emotions but one glance in an eye is enough to identify!" I replied.
"Well, I do, but I cannot tell everyone about my life and things. It's better to stick a smile on your face while pretending that you are the happiest person in the world!"
"True, nowadays everyone has become a lonely type of person, busy in their own world and trying to figure out answers. Mostly teenagers!"
"Even adults are seeking answers!" He said.
"I think you are talking about yourself but may I have the liberty to know what questions you are seeking?"
"Of course my beloved!" He took the pillow, placing it in front of him, wrapping his arms, adjusting it, and then he looked at me.
"Sometimes I ask why I have chosen this line?
Why do I have this flaw?
Why can't I act better?
And the most important one that why we have such a huge age gap?" He looked at me.
"It's better if you choose this line, and secondly, you don't have any flaws, you are the most beautiful person in the whole world.
Thirdly, you act so awesome, it's sometimes that people never understand the meaning of the movies or the hidden message" Ignored last question.
I took a pause and then said, "I have written many novels and even deleted them because they were never interesting. Sometimes my parents were totally against it, and I had a plot and everything.
It had nice views, but the collection was not that great; still, it was satisfactory. I began to lose it because my parents were against it, and I was in high school, so studies and all got me"
"What was it about?" He asked me.
"It was all about a girl trying to adjust to her new husband!" I replied.
"Was that new husband referred to your stepmother?" He asked me.
"Yeah..wait how do you know?" I asked him.
"Likewise you said people never tend to understand the hidden message of the story or movies!" He replied.
"Well, yeah, but I can't do anything right! I had to move out because it was getting difficult for me to survive.
After getting a job, I moved out!" I looked at him.
"To be honest, since you told me about your one secret, I will tell you mine!" He told me.
"I was in one movie at that time, when I was a teen, where everything was going fine, and I was a side character, but still managed to be highlighted.
There was this one lady who used to touch me, and it was so weird that I decided to exit. Luckily, I didn't have to stay till the climax.
So I left and didn't come back until I decided to fight and survive in this industry!" He replied while sipping his coffee.
"Well, it's getting hard to survive anywhere and trust me, I knew it was from a school movie!" I looked at the window.
"Yeah... Wait what?" He was surprised that I predicted the right one.
"I just felt it you know, one glance is enough to identify!"
"I haven't told anyone except you!"
"Too bad, I will forget this because I easily forget everything!"
He smiled.
"I think you are a great fan of cooking, right?" I asked him.
"Cooking is the only thing where you can invent and be yourself", he took a long pause and turned towards me "I think you are a great fan of writing, right?"
"Page is the only thing which quietly listens to you!" I smiled at him, and then I looked, and it was raining.
"Is the window open?" I asked him.
"Yeah!" I got up and walked near the window feeling the smell of rain.
"You love rain?" He asked me.
"That's the only weather where you can enjoy and cry because it wipes your tears with its water!" I said, removing my dress, only wearing a bra and underwear, and walked out.
"Wanna join?" I asked him.
"Why not?" He said, removing his shirt, and came towards me.
We both jumped into the pool and began to play in the water. The rain continued to pour heavily but we didn't care.
Just then, they caught each other and stared deeply. It wasn't easy to judge if he was crying or what, but we knew what we needed.
A kiss
Then we came forward while floating, I wrapped my legs around him, and we moved our faces closer until our noses touched.
Then he looked at me and closed his eyes, bringing his lips closer to me, and I closed my eyes, allowing him to kiss me.
Even the rain didn't stop us from kissing. The kiss was to chase our pain away.