Honestly I just wish I could take it all back now. If I had never met you, and I never talked to you, I wouldn't have to feel like this right now. Why do things always go wrong after I tell someone how I feel about them? I wish I hadn't told you how I felt because at least then it wouldn't hurt as much when you left. Even though I'm trying to be here for you, you keep me at a distance and I'm unable to do anything for you. I don't want you to feel like that, I want you to know there's somebody around who genuinely cares about you. I want to be your shoulder to cry on when you're going through something, I want to be your support when you feel you can't go on anymore, but more than anything I want to be yours. I guess I'll never get to be happy since things always happen like this. I wish we could've at least fucked around first, but I guess I'm glad we didn't because it would've hurt that much more when you left me... It's like you don't even understand, and I don't even see how that's possible when everything's right there in front of you. It doesn't make sense how you sit here and check on me and things work out perfectly, but as soon as I check on you things don't work out. Why is it that when I check on you I get short responses or blown off? Why can't you just talk to me about what's going on? Is it because you don't trust me> Is it because you don't want me to help you? Or is it because you're hiding something from me> Either way it goes the reason doesn't matter, I just want to make sure you're alright, but I guess you'd prefer somebody else to check on you instead of me... Honestly I don't want you to leave, but at the same time I guess it what I want doesn't matter to you, seeing as how you already have your mind made up. I guess there's no reason to talk then if you plan on leaving already, because all I want to do is change your mind. Its like I want to help you, but I want to help myself more. The more we talk, the closer I feel to you and that's why if you're stuck on leaving it's better we don't see each other again. I don't know what it is you're going through, but I want you to know I'm here for you...
