JUDE
"What are you doing here?"
I try smiling even though it fails me so I just walk further in and put the breakfast on the bedside table.
"You have been off for two days. I was getting worried "
"Why?"
Because I love you.
But I don't say that, choosing to meet his gaze. "I will get you some painkillers "
"I can do it-" he hisses when he leans back on his arms.
"Let me." I rush to what I can assume is the bathroom and not a walk in closet to compose myself and also to do something.
This is the first time we have been like this. We have fought before but we have made up in few days if not hours.
But this one, it's a big one. Stretching and scary and I am the fucking cause of it.
I won't lose him, I am going to fight for him.
I grab the painkillers after a few deep breathes and go back to him where he is laying back down, eyes closed but I know he hasn't fallen back asleep.
