In the midst of this cruel world, I found a place that became my comfort. A place where judgment and criticism barely exist, and a place where we need to hide our true identity. We can freely express and become who we want to be without exposing our face and body, and meeting a stranger and becoming attached to them is something we cannot afford to miss. A world that became my solace and escape, the role-play world, also known as RPW.
Christmas is about to come, and what can I even do? Of course none, aside from scrolling in my RPW account. You know RPA? The role-play account? If not, then let me introduce it to you. Role play world or the role play account is a Facebook account without exposing your true identity. No use of your true name and no posting of pictures of yourself. In other words, the role-play account looks like a dummy account. I just discovered it by accident. I had used a photo of Byun Baekhyun--my bias in exo as my profile picture. Just pure fangirl vibes. Suddenly, someone asked me if this was a roleplay account and it sparked my curiosity. That's how I became an rpier.
So far so good. I was using this account for a year and during that time, I gained experiences that led me to be scared of being left behind. Despite it, I'm still glad to have obtained those without any regrets.
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"Hey, are you still awake?"
Nelrose chatted. She's a friend of mine in the real world--due to my influence, she also made her RP account. She is supposed to have a boyfriend here in rp but due to sickness, he's already in heaven. From then on, my friend used his account.
Before everything else, my name is April Jean Del Valle, a second-year student in Bacolod City College under the program of Bachelor of Science in Office Administration. My RPA is Andria Jay Del Valle, some call me Andria and some call me AJ while people in real-world called me April.
Andria Jay Del Valle
"I'm asleep"
I teased, planning to make her pissed. That's my cup of tea, teasing someone then cuddling. I remember when we cried after we receive a news that Nathan--her boyfriend in this role play world die. He's a nice guy and I can say my friend is lucky to have him. Sad to say, we can't meet him in person anymore. Nathan is from Bicol, a student of Secondary Education at Bicol University. All of us are the same age, yet everything happened.
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"HAHAHA funny. Who are you?"
I was shocked by what she responded. She only did it today, maybe she was teasing me back.
Andria Jay Del Valle
"Just wow, a gambler are we?😆"
I responded immediately as I read her rejoinder--acting as if I'm not affected. I wonder what's gotten into her mind that leads her to do that. It's so not her thing.
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"I just snatched this account. I didn't even know you"
Ow that explains why tsk.
Andria Jay Del Valle
"Why did you snatch it?"
Calmly, I responded. How stupid am I to ask this kind of question, what can I do? I already sent it. One thing is for sure that I learned that playing words with your enemy somehow helps you to get what you want.
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"Do you know hacking?"
I never thought that hackers really do exist. I was once planning to take up Information Technology as my degree, but due to some circumstances, I didn't get a chance and took Office Administration instead, and I'm slowly regretting it.
Andria Jay Del Valle
"So why did you hack that account?"
I asked. What a lame question🤦 though sometimes stupidity helps us live in reality. Sometimes pretending not to know something helps us not to get involved in any problem. You're just playing as if you're stupid just to get away from the pressure that your environment gives off. What a peace it is.
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"Infairness the owner had lots of chatmate"
My blood is racing faster inside my body as I read his rejoinder. He looks like a chess mastermind that plays along with his opponent and dang, that slowly makes me feel out of my league.
Andria Jay Del Valle
"Just give that account back to my friend"
Despite being out of my league, I still can't provide an assumption as to why I feel comfortable around him. It feels like I have known him for a long time.
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"But I want something to add to a cart"
He replied makes me confused. Cart? What cart?🙄cartoon? I rolled my eyes at that thought of mine. In this kind of situation, I still had time to joke around, like really?
Andria Jay Del Valle
"There are lots of accounts to hack, why that one? just give it back"
I'm eager to bring this account back. It is so important to my friend as well as to me. This is the only thing Nathan left for us. With this account, we can feel that any moment he's on our side looking and guiding us.
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"And I don't want"
Is it really possible that hackers don't have a life? If so, are they even human? I don't think it would be possible. They could only be lacking emotional quotient but I know they still have a conscience and emotions.
Andria Jay Del Valle
"How old are you?"
I curiously asked trying to make the situation in my favor. As the saying goes: dealing with the situation calmly could help you achieve your victory.
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"Guess?"
Andria Jay Del Valle
"I don't think you're 18 below,19?"
Is it really possible that he's still underage? I really don't think so.
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"Higher"
Andria Jay Del Valle
"20?21?"
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"None of the above"
Seriously? I'm slowly losing my patience. I don't usually lose my control especially when emotions are involve but there's something about this man that makes my emotions uncontrollable and I don't understand why. It's like he had this aura that could hypnotize someone.
Andria Jay Del Valle
"Why don't you want to tell me the answer? Why?"
I don't think I'm still on myself. I'm supposed to be calm, but why can't I control it? My childish personality is rising. This man is really different. Some people only see my childish personality after knowing each other for more than a month I guess?
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"Because I don't want you noisy woman"
What the fudge. Did he just call me noisy? The hell is he? How could he say I'm noisy although we were just chatting? Seriously? Is he dumb?
Andria Jay Del Valle
"And what are you an arrogant jerk?"
I replied that made me regret.
"Like wwwaaahhh can't you just not push me into my limits"
I added. Sometimes I wish I were just a robot. Human emotions and conscience are sometimes hard to handle. Battling with yourself inside your head is not easy just as easy it is to be stuck in the midst of traffic.
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"Wooh I like that name, you childish creature"
Is he a psycho? Seriously? He likes the name arrogant jerk? Who would even like to be called like that?
Andria Jay Del Valle
"And what are you? An arrogant monster, just give that account back. You can't even get anything from that"
Having these kinds of words isn't really that good but despite everything, why can't I feel we hurt each other? That was weird.
Minutes passed into hours, and we still maintained our conversation but not in a good way. We still fought and threw harsh words at each other.
Andria Jay Del Valle
"You look defensive didn't you know it?"
I replied trying to make him feel embarrassed but his next reply stunned me a little.
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"And you are offensive"
Those words hit my conscience. Damn. I'm eager to get back the account of my friend but knowing I did an offensive attack is a different kind of topic.
Andria Jay Del Valle
"Hands up, am I really that offensive?"
I ask sincerely.
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"And you foul"
His honest reply helped me to calm down. Hays. I guess I'm really below the belt. I never thought my words would have such an impact on him. I regret it but knowing that he started it first makes my ego rise.
Andria Jay Del Valle
"You're the one who started it first. I told you, don't push me into my limits...I'm sorry^3^"
I sincerely apologize while puckering my lips. Maybe I said too much. Excusing my wrong action just because he started it first wasn't enough reason not to apologize.
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"But I like it"
He acts up nonchalantly. Seriously? He likes it? Is he human? Who the hell on this earth will go like being offended? He's driving me crazy. Is his life too cruel for him to be like this? He's acting too tough.
Andria Jay Del Valle
"Sorry"
I apologized once again. The world is cruel and we can't run from the fact that some of us might seek softness, and I'm one of them. This man got my curiosity. I wonder if he is alright.
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"Yeah whatever"
This man is somehow annoying. I'm almost there. I'm almost calm but then he will just act like this gosh. I can't help but be pissed off at how he acts as if my words are just nothing. Does his environment always ignore his emotions and opinions? How the hell is he good at invalidating himself?
Andria Jay Del Valle
"Whatever too. Just make your own account and leave that account hmp"
I think I'm being moody right now. Some minutes I'm calm and the other minutes I'm pissed off tsk.
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"'If I make an account, would you still chat with me?"
I wonder why he asked those things🤔 he looked like asking for an assurance that it won't be our last conversation.
Andria Jay Del Valle
"You like chatting with me don't you?"
Sometimes being a curious person so suck up. I need to battle with myself after this, how thick my face is.
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"Yeah your not that stupid, just a little bit"
What the hell? Do I look like a stupid? Well, maybe yes maybe not.
Andria Jay Del Valle
"Don't worry I will still chat with you if you chat with me-,-"
I replied giving him some reassurance. I think talking to him isn't a bad idea--after all, it's good to have a conversation with him. I don't know but he is good to talk with. It's also an advantage since the vacation is near, less boredom, and less anxiety. I bite my lips to suppress my smile when I read his response.
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"I don't want a childish bulldog"
Andria Jay Del Valle
"Lol, you just said earlier that you like talking to me. Whatever you say ignorant frog"
I replied while rolling my eyes. What an indenial man😪. So far so good. He returned my friend's account. Well, honestly speaking I enjoy this night because of him.
Kuyang Eros Jjbels
"Goodnight tarsier nice talking to you childish child with special needs"
He bid. I just missed having a late night talks. I can't deny the fact that despite everything, he still got me. The feeling is unexplainable. He looked like I had known him for a long time already.
Andria Jay Del Valle
"Yeah, whatever arrogant monster jerk. Good night-,-"
It's my first time throwing harsh words at someone just to be fair. I turned off my internet and closed my eyes. Again, in this world full of people that come and go--I hope he will not be like them. A person who will leave me alone in the midst of the grievance from the memories we had built.