We were silent, still in the same pose, but David was now calm, without crying, without tears running down his face, but even with a sadness reflected on his own face, he still looked sad, he did not like the sadness in his gaze, nor the trace of tears in them. So with the purest delicacy I could, I took one of his somewhat short locks and looked at him, I observed his hair, trying at the same time to give him a soft and intimate caress of affection, of compassion. His hair was a very beautiful color, a perfect chestnut, it was something I had never seen in the demonic muno; I began to go through his face, his nose, his lips, his babilla, even the mole under his eye, so small, but noticeable if you looked at him closely.
I looked at his lips, they were thick at the bottom and somewhat thin at the top, under this there was also a mole, and further down on his chin there was a small scar, almost imperceptible. I took my hand to that place, surprising David, that was clear because his honey-colored eyes focused on mine, his cheeks soon turned a light pink, he apparently did not expect my attention, nor my touch.
I observed his face better, his eyes shone when he saw me, he knew it, slowly he was falling in love, loving and accepting that feeling. I must go slowly, calmly, not scare him, I needed David to take everything, and hold him for him, those emotions that were put by himself, not by others, not by his opinion, or a duty.
His hand rose towards me touching lightly under my eye, he was pointing to a mole that he also had there, interesting to see him so focused on him, I watched him go through my face closer, as if he were completely recording my face, every detail of the, I wish he also recorded the look of love that I give him, the look of my open heart, how much love I have and I can give him. I need him to understand that the love I feel is so deep.
"No... You don't know how much I love you, David," I whispered softly as I leaned towards him.
I observed how his eyes shone between desire and surprise, but he did not push me, he did not push me away, on the contrary, he waited, with a calm that he felt that could be broken, with something that could be destroyed if he pounced on me, and with the delicacy as the respect I have for my destiny, the love and passion I have for him, I left a soft touch on his lips, without going deeper, without taking more of him.
It was an innocent, pure, calm touch, simply that he remembered my heat, my breath, my aroma, without wanting to press him, feel his warmth, feel his softness, made me want to devour him more, but I couldn't afford that. Not because he couldn't, it was because he deserved as much respect as delicacy. I separated carefully and at no time did I take my eyes off him, from the touch until I separated from him, in every second I looked at him.
"... Sael..." He whispered in surprise, and I smiled, I simply hid it in my chest, and he, without resisting, hid in my arms. It was pure shyness of both.
- Your majesty? - Lenx spoke gently touching the door of the library. I hate that with her soul, it made Lenx have more hours of reports. I didn't want her to interrupt them, but she has come, and she would only interrupt if it was really recorded. Take a breath and wait for him to finish talking.
- Can I pass your majesty? It's important, it's from heaven.— Lenx whispered anxiously.
- Come in, Lenx. - I said reluctantly, but I didn't turn away from David, who had wanted to separate a few moments ago, I wasn't going to allow that, he didn't have to feel ashamed for a hug.
- Oh, me! - Lenx quickly shut up and looked away. - My apologies, my lord, I also come with the Mack cavalry servant, I know he can't come to the castle, but I can't leave him alone for the moment, he doesn't understand any of the work, so I've been with him explaining. Without saying that the matter I bring is of utmost urgency, so I couldn't leave it out, and I didn't want to interrupt my lord either, least of all the meeting with the gentleman. - I took a breath and finally let go of what he had - The answer of the report from the heavens arrived. - Lenx whispered entering completely, and ignoring the trail of clothes on the floor, oh well trying to do it.
His cheeks noticed a slight color, he was sure that he thought something more than a simple lying down of the cushions happened. A good secretary who knows what to do, but Sack was something else. He looked with a very little disguised horror, and a little contained anger, his gaze towards a simple journey between the clothes. He watched David, then wrapped around my body, I slid my hand towards his waist, I didn't want that guy to see beyond, he felt disgusted when he saw that look on a young man who had helped him, he had gone through something hard, he didn't understand why he was corrupting himself.
With my other hand now free, I took the report that Lenx extended to me, and with a movement I levitated one of the tunics and covered our bodies, well, more than anything David's, I didn't want it to be mostly exposed.
"What did the birds say?" I asked to receive a blow from David. "Excuse me, the winged Angels." I mocked, but this time I didn't hit myself.
He began to read, the introduction, the same, naming all the commands. Blah, blah, blah, I threw the leaves towards Lenx who, already used to it, took them quickly, I didn't understand why they added so much filler to say something so simple.
"In conclusion, we request a review of the status of Mr. David Harrison, who due to his status in heaven was from an archangel-ranked servant, to a succession of seraphim.
We request that the third ruler of the underworld. The lord of the underworld and ruler of hell Sael Sadrac of Abezeth may have a visit to the heavens with the soul of Mr. David.
Sincerely; secondary executive Sardis Asalam.'
Should I tell David?
Shall I tell him that he has the opportunity to go to heaven?
Will he leave, will he leave us? Should I lie to him?
No, that, never, promised him that he would respect his decision.
What if I delay it a little? Maybe just a little?
His soul is already contaminated, but he does stay a little longer, just a little longer.
"Sael?" David asked. "Is it very bad?"
"No." Well, not for you, David. For me it's horrible. -I whispered through my teeth, looking at the pages with anger, took a breath and told him. - You have the opportunity to go to heaven, and become an angel. -
I watched as my words run into his mind. He opened his eyes excitedly, but suddenly stopped, as if he understood.
"Visit or leave?"
-A visit and if your soul is clean, or can be purified, you can go and become, no, attend to archangel. - I explained calmly, the calm of a ruler, and throw my emotions completely back. I should have a clear mind and not impose my desires on him.
"... Isn't that good for Mr. David?" Sack spoke out of nowhere.
I looked up and looked at him annoyed, I had never been angry before with a simple soul that I had saved. But this damn idiot wants to send my destiny away. Damn, asshole, idiot, I should keep the fucking fucking mouth shut, he's already fucked it up enough today with his stupid things, is he testing my patience? I couldn't help but let out a little growl, that fucking asshole.
Should I send you to the seventh floor to pick up corpses?
Maybe that's how it shuts that mouth? Why did I save him?
Oh, right, what he suffered, fuck.
Don't show him more!
Don't talk!
Just go out!
"No." I won't leave. -David said, but strangely he didn't look at me, but at Sack. - I'll be next to Sael, but I still want to see the sky. Accepts the visit, but rejects the evaluation. Tell him that I am your destiny, tell him that I will be your Shegal and I will be your husband. - He said now yes, looking at me. - Just... -
"Time." I said excitedly.
He was staying!
Damn, I have no idea what you did to him, Sack!
But I definitely hate you my little soul!
His eyes were like poisonous darts!
He was staying in the city Diel, in my home, with me!
I couldn't help myself, so I leaned towards him and left a quick kiss on his forehead. It was all he needed, that opportunity only, it was the one he needed, he had already rejected heaven, all that was left was the visit, and accept me as his partner, but above all, he was giving the opportunity to his home, next to him.
"I'm glad for your decision, Mr. David," Lenx said completely happy. "We will withdraw, I will write the answer, and send it." We left, Melej. -Lenx turned and took a Quito Sack by the arm. -Hurry up, Sack, I'll give you a piece of my chocolate for helping David stay here. -
Strangely, I felt that Lenx said that with some evil. As if he tried to provoke something more than a congratulation, and he definitely liked that.
"Sael... Can a soul be filled with hatred even after death?" Or can it become a calamity? How did the calamities come about? -David asked touching my hand. That question is curious, very curious.
"A soul that is filled with hatred here in hell is more likely to even lose part of human sanity. But it almost never happens, rarely, he must have a weak mind, or he must simply feel robbed or assaulted, which is strange, since this world deals with everything rather, well, as far as it fits.
A soul become a calamity I doubt it. No one knows who really created them, but it is said or rumored that they are the first god of several worlds, no one knows how the worlds were created, humans say that science, not even we ourselves know it, we do not know what we are, or who we are, or where we came from, we have the story that grandfather told us, but even he himself asked, is it really all true? No one knows, we just know that those things can die with the creator's soul fragment.
Therefore, both heaven and hell have one for their fight. The truth is, we only know that the creator was always there, although we only feel it as a command, no one has seen it. It's strange, but we've decided over the years, not to think beyond that, it doesn't matter... Why do you ask this? —
"Because I feel that Sack doesn't see you as his majesty." He said looking at the door now.
Curious, it seems that I finally notice something David.
"Sack, it's a soul that only helps, he looks at me with admiration David. Apart from that nothing more, my eyes will always be for you. - I said leaning towards him again and kissing his cheek this time, although I could see some uncertainty in his eyes.
"I think he doesn't know." I whisper, but I manage to hear it.
"Don't worry, I doubt he'll do anything." But I'll send him far away, he won't set foot in this tower again. - I lay down again in the nest. - Come, we still have to talk about biological demonic. - I smiled in a somewhat mischievous way, this was the best part of the whole class.
"It's late!" He said about to get up and escape as usual.
"Oh, no." Come, these classes yes or if you will have it with me. - I caught him in my arms, getting a laugh from an embarrassed David.
I would not miss the opportunity to explain such a sensual class gracefully.
To say that we spent hours talking would be the right thing to do, but for him and especially for myself only minutes were felt. Minutes of looking at each other and talking like teenagers knowing puberty. The class was interesting, very interesting, biology was an interesting class, clearly I didn't focus only on demonic genetic classes, if not also, I talked about all races. That was good, even animals and so on, but when we got to demonic biology, and then to that of the royal family, it was more difficult if I had it with my destiny. It wasn't because it was uncomfortable, if it wasn't the enormous excitement I felt, thinking about it, imagining it.
I knew it was graphic, especially the erogenous points of the demons, it was enough to say that my dear destiny could not look at me at all at this time. Although I knew that at that moment I look and imagine a lot. I tried to be as technical as possible, and without any insinuation, but it was difficult when I talked about demonic bodies, his gaze constantly traveled through my body, and I wouldn't lie; that excited him and me too. We wanted to explore a little more, but we had to stay in the center of the class.
Knowing that I could attract him, that his honey eyes ran all over my body, he was sitting almost at the edge of the huge nest, and he didn't stop looking at me between my eyes. Well, I didn't blame him, it's not like every day you tell him that you have a fucking knot at the upper base of your penis to get your destiny pregnant, not at all, he is very similar to werewolves, only that being from the royal family, he could have two knots, he was sure that David was too curious, he was a very curious soul.
Curious but shy, Oh, God, to say that part of the class, David almost ran away, and especially when he talked about male pregnancies and destiny, how his body would change, what would happen to him, he looked pale and in a state of almost panic.
Have I been very graphic?
I swallowed nervously, I tried to do it as my teacher taught me. It's not that complex, the demonic member is different in those parts, only to "hook" to the uterus and make sure. Well, and there is the lower knot that also helps, but nothing more. And it only happens in the mating stage, is that it? Or is it because I told him that I could get tails and horns if he overstimulated me? What do I do? Literally, right now I'm turning my back on him, because he told me not to look at him.
"Will it hurt?" his voice suddenly asked in a soft, almost shy tone.
"What will it hurt?" The first time? -I asked confused.
"Everything!" I mean, penetration, you're bigger than me, besides, you said a baby. Will it come out of my ass or what? How! - I ask all nervous, almost as if trying to imagine everything at once.
"Well, calm down." I carrased. "Let's go by question."
"How does the royal family give birth?" he asked firmly.
I didn't blame him, it was obvious that he would be the most curious thing on the whole list.
"If you are a woman, by traditional childbirth." Even if you don't believe it, it won't be easy for that person, besides women are scary. My dear mother didn't even scream when she gave birth to my brother, she said verbatim: "I wasn't going to spend energy just because I tore myself apart." - I trembled at that thought. - And well, men are more complex, since... -
"What, what Sael?" David said through his teeth.
-Inside your body will form a uterus, and a vagina, a woman's vulva, which will be connected between the junction of your anus, and your member. This is done to prevent him from being born by your anal part and avoid some accident. - I said something nervous, waiting for some explosion. Not only to avoid an accident, but to make it more comfortable for the carrier himself.
"Oh, God, I hoped I wouldn't shit my children, that would be traumatic!" David said, finally in a relieved voice.
"Why would you shit our children?" I asked confused. "You don't need to carry them, I can do it myself." Pregnancy is a bit difficult, I saw it with my mothers. But it's not impossible, if you want I can do it myself.—
"Would you have the children?" David asked surprised. "Wait!" Do you want, children? —
"Well, not a while ago." But if they are with you, yes. And if I had to take the children, I would do it with pride and pleasure. You know that pregnancy is difficult, they don't take everything well. I saw my mothers with different types of pregnancy, but it's hard for them. If you may have to be helped and everything, but carrying life inside you, and protecting it, taking care of it, loving it, feeding it is a lot of work. Apart from the body aches, you will have to breastfeed and many other changes. - I said to David, now the two of them looking at each other.
"Oh, now that I think about it." By being a ruler, you must have descendants. - He said in a soft whisper, as if he were thinking about the future, in descendant and much beyond. As if he was already thinking about marriage, which was the best for him, it excited him, but he shouldn't hurry.
—It's not necessary. But now, speaking of this, does it mean that you accept me? We are already thinking about having children, and from what I see - I said looking at his half-open Fu Ha, showing a little more of him. - Are you trying to seduce me? -
"Time!" And don't look! - I throw one of the nest cushions at me. Covering his body, he was so sweet, to the point that it made him want to bother him so much. He leaned towards him, but was quickly repelled by another cushion,
I was surprised, I had never been attacked that way, but I simply sighed and shook my head. Only him, he could even cut me a horn and I wouldn't care, if that's what I wanted, I would have it. He was sweet, aggressive and very cute.
"You're beautiful, and I can't help it, I want to have you to myself." To love you, pamper you, take care of you, protect you, eternally but... - I said without remorse, while looking at his body. - I will wait patiently, David. To your decision, but that didn't mean I won't try to fall in love and court you. -
"I know." Sael, you are very patient. Even with what I have investigated, I have discovered that couples quickly come together. Why are you so patient? —
"Because if I take you as I want, I would only be forcing you, and I refuse to hurt you in any way. I refuse to do that beast that hurts you, I refuse to commit the most disgusting sin that exists, which is abuse. I completely refuse that. And above all because I want you to love me by will, not by the bond, not by obligation of fate, I want to take care of you and that you love me by your own decision.. - I told him, looking at him lying on that nest of cushions.
"Do you feel so much?" I feel suffocated already with so little of this feeling, I feel strange, I have even hesitated to follow my vow of chastity. - He whispered looking at me with those beautiful honey-colored jewels.
"David... It's a raw emotion." Sometimes I have believed that the destined are a curse, because passion and love are so irrational, they border on the point of obsession. My brother Ramy is a clear example. Don't think he obeys me because he really wants to. He does it more by magical orders of the place, but he could easily relieve himself.—
"Sael... What would you do if I went with someone else?" that question put a tense atmosphere.
"I don't know, I said I would let you go, that you would be happy with someone else." But to be honest, maybe I'll end up killing every bastard without you noticing, or even kill myself. -I sighed. - Don't put pressure on yourself, it's just what I feel, and I don't know if it's done. But, David, I want you to choose with your heart, don't rush, the moment when you know it. You'll understand without saying much, you just need time. -
"And you?" he asked nervously. "Don't you have the right not to want that time?"
"No, I'd rather wait for you, than for you to leave and not see you anymore, that you look at me with hatred, or any evil in your eyes, I prefer eternal waiting, than the pain of your look."
"Wait, have you ever done something you like, or do you want to do it at will?" David asked.
"Of course."
"No, Sael." Something selfish, because now thinking about it, what your brothers have told me, what I have heard and read about you, also what you have told me, everything is based on your role as a ruler. And did I ever do something selfish? What did you think it was for you? —
—Mmmm.... No. But there was something I did... thinking about my selfish emotions. -
"May I know?" David looked at me curiously, but I simply shook my head. I moved my arm around his waist and attached him to me. David was a being who gave him calm, gave him peace, but also made him explore his emotions again. Which produced painful memories, but also new emotions, new with him.
It was a long time in silence. He thought a lot, it was not something he liked to talk about, it was not something that was spoken freely, so he could simply open up to this, he wanted him to see everything before he made his decision, the good, the bad, and the worst even.
He finally whispered.
"I want to see him again."
"Sael, who do you want to see?" he asked confused.
How do I tell you?
How do I tell him that the only time he guided me through my heart ended with the death of my younger brother?
How do I express that to you?
Would it be hated for it?
Would you hate it to the point of not wanting to see it anymore?
It's a scene he doesn't want to see, he never wanted to see again, but it's there, it's engraved in his mind, in his heart, it's completely covered in his mind, in his memory. Nailed like a curse, put forever in him, with that in his mind, in his being, and in his life. Every time he looks at that tower, he doesn't see a beautiful place, he sees the place where his brother lost his mind, his brother deteriorated, and devoured himself. He knows what's up, he knows what his younger brother did. He knows that removing his destinee was the worst. The feeling still hurts, his heart blames itself and trembles, when he remembered it. It was like a sickly fever that tormented him, but there was also anger, he refused to believe that that rotten soul, full of sins, was his brother's destiny, he refused to believe that someone so pure and innocent, born in that hell, lived next to that garbage.
Big brother, no! ¡
Brother Sael!
Don't do this to me!
Brother, it's my destiny, don't condemn me!
You killed him!
You didn't doubt even knowing that it would destroy me.
Why do you hate me?! My destiny was mine!
Remember this, remember my face! You took me to this, Sael!
You're perfect for governing! But you don't know how to love!
You don't know what it is to love!
Don't use me as an excuse!
You didn't want it!
The abyss is a better place than this damn place!
I can't take it anymore, brother!
You took everything from me, I don't want this, it's worthless!
You gave me my sentence! I'm broken, and it's your fault, Sael!
Remember this, big brother!
Remember that you led me to this!
"Sael?" David asked. He was worried, instead, I, I could notice that my body generates fever again. A disease that is easily activated with memories.
- It's not time, David. - I said. - Go to your bedroom, I'll go in a few moments, take a shower and eat something. I need to be alone. —
— Are you sure? —
- Yes. -
David got up from my lap, and even with a lot of doubt he left the huge library. I looked at the whole place, it was chaos. I adorned so many things for my destiny, but not for Lemuel's. A broken laugh came out of my throat. It was the same with Lemuel, his soul had arrived here, but his soul had another destiny, they could not blame him, he could not allow his young brother to suffer with that thing, but it ended badly.
He missed his younger brother, and blamed himself every day for what happened. It was his fault, it was his absolute fault for not seeing him, for doing the right thing according to his heart, and not his mind. He followed his feelings of cruelty, taking him away from his brother, because he believed that it was a good, the good of his brother, the care of his world, his home, his family. It was a curse, a bad listen to the angels, he shouldn't have thought about appearances, he shouldn't have thought that it was a stain, that it would damage everything about his young brother, because of him everything was fucked up. The soul of his partner needed to be exterminated, his sins were so much, to the point that he had no right to reincarnate.
His younger brother did not forgive him, he slowly destroyed himself, and finally, when he had him in front one last time, it was only to see him kill himself. Just for believing something stupid from his heart.
Ramy, will it be the same? Will Ramy end with that destiny?
For an angel?
And he..., Does he deserve to be with David?
After what he does to his brothers, does he deserve it?
Should I open the tower? Remember your sins?
Remember everything I destroy, damage and hurt for a stupid, or a decision that he didn't think well.
What would be the real truth of all this?
Is that why fate interposed David with him?
Will David stay?
Doubts came, but one thing is certain, he should open his brother Lemuel's home, at least have a memory, have him present there for any decision. Maybe there I can understand a little better. He missed his brother, but the memory of that space was still painful, he just had to ignore the heavens, and be with his brother, he had to allow even that damn imbecile in hell, to fight against the heavens for that piece of crap that called himself human; if only he had done it, his brother would be here.
Oh, possibly not, he doesn't know, because his decisions always end with someone suffering.
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