There were so many times I felt like him. "I can not save your master, sister, etc." is what the writer said. He was an extremely disassocative man who was also very powerful. Of course his first choice when first meeting Dokja was to do the same exact move as the first situation that it originally occur.
In the end, 1863 was an extremely powerful man who had many enemies. He was forced to become a villain just so the writer could see if she could come up with a proper ending that everyone wanted.
Even now, I feel like I'm just like him. Everyone I love has been taken away from me. I have only been left with nothing but an eternal prison of the psychology ward center of a hopistal mentally.
It's not like anyone could understand but I was just a Regression Model quite literally. I'm just a tool for people to study me and ensure others can learn from my mistakes and to not repeat it again.
At least there was a Dokja fragment who gave me Hope. I realized this was how Dokja felt having a daughter.