Melancholy
is a drowning silence and a conflicting emotion. It pulls even the smilely-est person into its darkest depths, and it feels like there's no escape. The worst part? Nobody really comes out the other side. Maybe only the lucky ones do. And right now, it feels like I'm staring at a locked door with no key. It's got its grip around me, and I don't see it loosening anytime soon
"Nae it's time to go you don't want to be late now do you" a light, soft voice said. Tilting my head a bit towards the door, I spotted my sister, adjust the strap of her handbag, whilst looking at me. Keisha, my older sister, the one I once talked to alot,I love so much, she might not believe now if told,i felt bad for rarely speaking to her but i couldn't fully be blamed. i am going through a lot here, i can barely even focus on me with all i have been going through.
Keisha held ,my little brother, jake's,hand in hers, with he loss of my mother and the abuse of my father i just can't wait find enough in me to love them as i shoud.
happiness just isn't a feeling that dwells in my life anymore
"okay" i mumbled, completing the tying of my lace i stood up fand approched my siblings
Keisha climbed into the driver' s sit while i buckeled jake into the passenger seat in the back. Keisha smiled lightly at me but i could tell it was forced. i guess the death of my mom took a toll on all of us.oh, and of course my dad too.
with my slightly wavy blond hair and striking light blue eyes, i looked much like her, i think thats one of the reasons dad hates me, i have never hated him though its the tear in the soul werewolf feels when they lose a mate puls all the consumption of alcohol, when he's sober he treats them more like his child except me though but the nice treatment to the always only lasts for so long, our werewolf ability does help me heal faster physically but it can't heal all the emotional damage and scars he has been creating in me, if only she was still with us...
But that was years ago.
A honk blared,calling me from my thoughts.
Looking around, i realized i was already at school. i got down from the car and gave them a slight wave and approached the entrance, people were walking past me like i was invincible and i would loved nothing more right now.
mom died when i was 13, but i never fully got over it. . i was 17 now, turning 18 in a few month, that's one thing i was looking foward to, when i'd finally meet my mate, some one to always be there for me, some one to be there to wipe my tears away,some one who would always hug nd kiss me senseless till i'd smile again.
but sometimes i can't help but wonder if not for this wolf mating stuff if i'd actually meet someonee who'd truly love me one day
now approaching the main school entrance, The musk scent of woods, leaves, fresh dew, and human civilization floated up my nose, I almost lost myself in the breathtaking scenery. Shaking my head, I entered the school hallways.The school was quiet nice for a high school. The hallways weren't too murky and bland.
Looking down the hallway, I could already see the popular group sitting by the main stairs. which consisted of my mostly the people that make my life a living hell unfortunatelythey are my pack members and a few other humans. In the center of it stood the worst alpha ever Drayton with his arm draped around Tiffany, she was cuddling him like a lost but found panda except pandas don't scream slut all over, i almost can't believe those two aren't mates, i already feel sorry for who ever there mates will be.
I dropped my gaze and walked towards my locker. Grabbing my books, I walked off towards my Geo class. tiffany or her so called "friends" weren't in any of my classes. Partly the reason why I took seletedclasses, no tiffany in any of my classes, no drama.
But unfortunately that meant all star point guard, straight A student, Drayton hughes had to be in all of my classes.
I was the first one in class. I walked towards the third row by the window , seating myself furthest away from the desks where Drew and his gang sat.
Mr. Reg was busy writing on the board, acknowledging me as I walked in, i gave him a slight forced smile and nodded my head a bit.
this was my everyday routine: get into class early before the others to avoid anything they would do to me. Well, either way they were gonna do and say things to me, but at least it wasn't early in the morning.
Glancing at the clock, it read 7:32. 3 more minutes till class started.
Sighing, I got out my geo book and started reading the chapter for the day. I want to escape this hell hole I call my life, and if I was going to do that, I'd need to be smart enough to get into a ivy league university. Then I could move thousands of miles away from this place. i'd take jake with me and always go vist Keisha and her mate edward in their apartment, just the thought of that left a little smile on my face, but it faded just as quickly as it came when i heard the bell. sooner than later the class was filled with sesneless noise and loud gossip.
burying my face back into my book I waited for t Mr. Reg begin his lesson, talking about maps and graphs. I mindlessly took notes, trying to pay attention as my mind was having an internal battle with itself. one side wanted to pay attention and the other was trying to pay attention to a group of gossip girlies beside me talking about drayton and Tiffany, all of a sudden i felt irritated and prayed hardly for the class that just started to end, what the hell? eww
I took in a deep breath, trying to channel all my energy into paying attention to class. I looked back up to the board and began taking notes again.
Finally, the last bell rang for school to end. i slowly packed my stuff purposely stalling till every one was gone. I grabbed my things and shuffled out of class. I always stayed behind for 10 or so minutes. I didn't want to arrive at the same time as the others in the pack.
Making sure the coast was clear; I walked out towards the main doors. I turned a corner, only to bump into a wall-a human wall to be exact. I closed my eyes and braced my self for the fall, but it never came. Instead, warm arms encircled my petite waist. I looked up to my savior.