Void's origins

"what's freedom like?" "What's the world like in the outside, no training, to torture, no Hellish punishment for failure?" "and last but not least. What's family like if i had been with my parents and had watched my younger brother grow up before it was too late, too soon?" Being an assassin from childhood is rather rough. Trying to be human after making you a machine is worse. Being a perfect creation of god is something else.... Was there really a reason for any of those people to keep living huh? Sound edgy but at the same time ever wondered what it's like to be that person's perspective, always quiet, always greedy and always wanting complex and unreadable goals that you question... 'does it run really that deep to go this far, is it really worth it?. It's not worth it if it costs you your life" "it doesn't really matter of who I am or who are close to me in due time. Sooner or later they will hate me and eventually they will abondon me. If you want to be my ally and friend then please don't hate me or abondon me..." "in all honesty if I was to make a choice for all of us. I'd rather have you as an enemy rather than a friend. I'd rather have the world be honest with me by being an enemy rather than lying to me being a friend and lie more, lie, lie, lie. Truly what a disgusting world we live in with disgusting people. Their stories are understandable yes, I don't know them or their history yes and I won't pry into their life unless they want me to and I have no right to say that or judge them. But you have no right to defend them based on their actions alone, especially your actions. We are humans and you of all people should know humans are one of mankind's and the worlds most cruel and disgusting things god has created. Because no matter what if you don't see it like that then what are you or... What were you?" "i truly hate this world yet love it too. God really is a blessing and also a curse. If there's one thing I've come to realize and the greatest lesson I've learned through out my life, not from that organization, not from the academy, and not from God but from myself and my own experience. Don't trust anyone fully. Even if it's your family or close friend. If a person never had a fight or argument with you nor did they ever had negative feelings then stay away from them. A enemy is a better friend than a fake one even if they'll kill you atleast you know they would. But also atleast you know that they will never leave you alone."