Jay's POV
I woke up in the morning early...as I was staying at base so the distance from my school to my base was quite far ...I got ready....
Everybody was asleep in the base....I didn't want them to wake up from their sound sleep..,,so I slipped silently...it was 5.30 am ,,,the sky was still dark ...
I walked towards my car .... After reaching school....I didn't got out immediately...
Last night I have thought about it ... Yes...yuri was right .... J6 gang was right...I have never truly loved myself... enough of looking away from my buried emotions.... it's not that I would stay quiet ....I would ofcourse protect my beloved....my family...but ....
I will fight for myself...I will fight for my right ...
I went to section E classroom with an experience less face ...as always section E looked away from me ,,.but this time I wasn't letting go of my pride ...it was lunch time ...I was lost in the thoughts of kaizer ...my team members are trying to track him but they failed .... suddenly a familiar voice made me come to the reality ....
Felix: wait ... before anyone starts eating...I want to ask something...like we are now going to treat our traitor also ? Because it seems like she is here ...she is breathing the smell of the pancakes...
It was Felix.. section E was making pancakes..the sweet smell hit me ...but felix's words hit me harder ....I don't know why but the emotions...the sadness I was burying deep came out ...,which had never happened before....I gave them a deathly glare and went outside....
I don't know how I reached the rooftop....the cold Breeze greeted my broken face ....a familiar ache rose on my chest ...why god ? This never happened before...I have never bothered about any humiliation but why this time it's breaking me ....why can't I just let go of it ? ...
Is it yuri 's words which brought this change ? Or ..... my mind couldn't take more of it ?
I shook my head ...I took a cigarette and lit it up ...the damn thing which I touched after a long year...after meeting section E and keifer I didn't need it ...but now ...
I was about to smoke when a firm hand took the cigarette from my hand and threw it ...I turned around,,,it was none other than the hurt less king with his ulupongs,..they were standing there eyes wide ... Jennie was glaring at me....
Keifer suddenly shouted...
Keifer: what the fuck jay ??? Why are you smoking???? Have you gone mad ?
I gave him a cold deathly stare... keeping my voice firm and cold I said ,..
Jay : Mr Watson...it's none of your business..what I do or not ....you yourself made it clear everyday throughout the week that I am nothing other than a slut girl like others
Jennie: ( angrily) I can't understand why are you smoking again? What problems are there in your life that made you smoke ?
I don't know why but something inside me stiffened....it was not guilty but a rage...an anger that I was faking everyday ...I shouted angrily making everyone flinch ...
Jay : shut the fuck up ...miss Jennie mariano.... don't come to boss me ...what I am ??? A toy ? With whom you can play as you wish ...you can throw as you wish...you can bark as you wish?
They all seemed surprised... because it was my first time I have ever talked like this and especially with Jennie...I have never shouted at my top voice ..
Jay : just please don't tell me what to do or not ...I am an adult...I can take care of myself.....and problems right ? Yeah ,..to you guys I was always a spoiled child...who never have any obstacles...have you ever tried to see my side ??? Have you ever looked at me when I cried???
Keifer: ( softly) Jay Jay...
Jay : stop it asshole..... don't think that I always smiles means I am weak...I will listen to every fucking nonsense of yours ...got to hell ....
I saw Jennie crying..but for the first time in my life ...I didn't feel bad ...I didn't feel guilty... instead I felt traumatized for not standing up for me before,,,,if I had done it then maybe ...I wouldn't be here in everyone 's mess....
Jennie 's POV
I can't believe Jay shouted at me ....it was her first time she talked with me in a top voice ...and the worst part I saw pain in her eyes ...it was like we never tried to understand her ...I don't know why but I feel like i actually failed as an elder sister..... everything seemed a mess ...if her pain was true then why did she planned that ?
Keifer's POV
I saw Jay smoking...my Jay...my love ...my sunshine...who gave everyone hope to live was smoking....it was like she tried to hide the pain ...she was carrying....I felt like today her mask broke ,,,and the anger ,,, sorrow... tears all broke all along...I wanted to hug her ...and kiss her for her damn profanities but ....after seeing Jay I feel like ...I was slowly losing her in all the possible ways ...I don't know why but my mind suddenly struck with a thought..
"May be I should have listened to Jay Jay for once ... because what I saw today was pure tears ..pain ....that she was holding ...well the plan is it really true or .....we all believed kaizer without listening her ..."
My blood Ran cold at this thought...if the plan turns out to be false ...if it comes out that we misunderstood Jay and treated her badly then .....how will we face jay ? The girl who has supported us in every situation without questioning us back ????