"Are you seriously talking behind people's backs? Are you that cheap?"
She asked me...
"Huh? What the hell do you even know about Sharon... that you'd say such a thing."
She was probably unaware of water droplets streaming down my eyes since she didn't even make eye contact with me.
"Huh? Is this what people teach you? Back bitching and Trapping women? Molesting and assaulting women?"
"Milia... what are you talking about?"
"This asshole... I've tried to keep it hidden because i wasn't completely unsure about it all but... he... created fake rumours about women, than assaulted some and even blackmailed some other women. I thought they were all made up... but, tell me! ARE THEY?"
She finally looked at me... as water droplets trickled down on my face as i was trying to hold them back.
Remembering mom and dad didn't help...
It also reminded me of the slap from way back than...
I cleaned my eyes from the water and walked back.
My step mom was looking at me with half suspecion and half curiosity.
I couldn't look them in the eye so i decided to run away.
"Hey! Tell me... are those damn rumours true or not... If you keep silent it'll just mean that they are true!!"
I glared at her...
"Not even my own childhood friend believed me... why the fuck would an outsider ever believe me?"
I said as i walked away, i didn't have time to waste on these lot...
If those words were enough to make even my stepmom question me...
I'm better off getting out of this house!
If only i had the money to run away...
If only i had the damn courage to kill myself...
if only my dad weren't a cheater...
if only i weren't such a worthless piece of crap...
"Wait!"
Before i could run away... someon ecaught my arm.
"... Stepmom!"
"If you don't tell me... how wil i get to know your whole story?"
"...Sharon was my childhood friend..."
"Bullshit!"
"... Milia, Shut up for a bit! If you can trust that sharon so muvh... why aren't you willing to listen to his explanation? Huh?"
"..."
"Continue Vade."
"He... Liked my mother, ever since he was a child."
I looked at Milia and she just stared at me in shock...
"In fact the only reason why he even became friends with me was so he could get closer to my mom. I told him... about the divorce and my father's cheating..."
"..."
"After... After knowing that he went to my hkuse and my mom was completely drunk due to the cheating. He tried to console her and get on the good side with her... My mother wasn't so gullible so the moment he started touching her everywhere... She slapped him in the face."
"... Are you seriously expecting me to belivee that? What about the women who testified about you assaulting, blackmailing and Manipulating women?"
"Ever since i was a child... there were 4 people i liked... 3 of them... rejected me in the worst possible manner and the 4th one...
your friend Olivia and my actual childhood friend... Slapped me so hard, i can still hear my ears ringing and i shake whenever she's even a cm closer to me."
"What the hell... what's going on here? They never mentioned you before."
"I see... So it really is over for us... I knew it was over between Sharon but... Olivia..."
"... Just 1 months after my rumours spread Sharon was in a relation ship wasnt he? With a girl named Simron?"
"... He was..."
"I heard him say it... if they testified against me doing such things... Than he'd date one of them. Which was their main reason for getting closer to me, so they coukd get closer to sharon."
"... Why would he-?"
"To exert revenge... These runours spread 1 year before... they dated 1 months after and broke up 10 days later saying they weren't compatable... It was all so he could get after that slap... He ruined my life."
"That's... that's Impossible."
"If anythibg they sajd was true... I wouldn't be in this college right now... would i?"
"... If you knew all this than why didn't you testify?"
"I... Gave up, I begged Olivia to trust me, I needed her on my side... I thought, that if she testified... everyone would take her side... But, she slapped me in the face... I realised there was no point! I gave up."
"..."
"I don't really care nor do i have any hope of you guys believing me... but, that is the truth. I had a fried who... became friends with me to get closer to my mother... i liked 3 women...
who were being unnecessarily nice to me, and confessed to them... and was later rejected! I confessed to my childhood crush who i thought i never shouud because that bastard instigated it by drilling delusions into me. In return... i got a slap in the face. I begged her to trust me... and got another one soon after..."
In the end... i gave up.
"Well, I have to practice for tomorrow, so I'll go now."
I started walking.
I mean... is there anything to wait for?
I told them everything i could, It's up to them to believe me and not kick me out or not believe me and kick me out.
I mean... they won't just kick me out without giving any money would they? Maybe i should contact my mother and ask for some momey...
but... she discarded me...
Like everyone else...
Where do i... even go now?
I started panicking visibly, unsure of what to do...
I even started imagining killing the bastard who ruined my life and living scott free.
But... than, i have to die anyway.
I opened the door to the outside and started walking.
A weird thought crept inside me.
I thought to myself...
What am i elev living for?
Who am i even living for?
What's the damn purpose?
If i die... will all my suffering end?
Would i find a better life in another world?
Will... i be happier?
In... that trail of thought, I'd already reached the bridge of a river.
I paused for a bit... hoping they came after me.
I desperately hoped... That someone would save me...
I waited and waited and waited...
but nobody arrived...
So i decided to do it!
With the courage i found, with the courage i begged for god to give me.
I decided to end it all...
And... I JUMPED!