We have reached his car successfully. Then he asked his driver to open the back door of the car. Then he slightly, slowly, and very carefully puts me down from his back and places me on the seat of the car. My eyes are still closed. He bends down slightly to adjust me on the seat. He comes closer to me and I asked him again with my closed eyes, "You didn't tell me, Xu Yuan, how are you? Are you fine? Does that problem on your bone still hurt? Tell me."
He didn't answer me, he is busy adjusting me on the seat. Then I got frustrated because he isn't answering me. Then I start kicking my legs in the air. He immediately holds both my ankles with both his hands and looks at me and said, "You silly girl, behave. I am taking you home."
Then he makes space for himself and sits beside me in the car on the back seat. He closes the door and asks his driver to start the car and said, "Driver, take us towards Shanghai University dormitory." The driver nodded and the car starts moving.
My body is not in its balance, so as the car moves, I also move like a ride— from here to there, from there to here. My whole body is swaying. He notices and gently puts my head on his shoulder, and his other hand is around my back to make me stable.
My eyes are still closed but I asked him, "Xu Yuan."
He replies to me with his "hm," that usual "hm" he always does while slightly raising one of his eyebrows and eyes, which is my favourite one.
I continued and said, "Xu Yuan, I… I… I saw on Weibo yesterday that after your surgery you wore a hand plaster on your left hand to support your bone. But my Xu Yuan is so considerate about his fans that even in that state also you came to your fans who were standing there to see you— to see if you were fine or not. You came closer to them and showed them that nothing to worry, 'I am fine.' My Xu Yuan is best. He always thinks about everyone else before himself."
I said it louder, "My Xu Yuan is best, best, best!"
He puts one of his hands on my mouth and shuts it up and said while looking down at me on his shoulder, "Stop screaming, you silly girl, people on the road will listen to you clearly."
I opened one of my eyes and looked at him and said, "So what?"
He exhales sharply and said, "So this— that you are screaming so much that everyone will hear it."
I pout a little and smile and said, "So this is the fact only. My Xu Yuan is the best, best and best in this whole planet."
I open both my arms while saying this loudly in the car. The driver watches me through the glass and laughs a little at what I am saying, but he immediately hides his laugh as Xu Yuan sees him with his daring look.
Xu Yuan gently puts my hands down with his hands and said, "Ok, ok, your Xu Yuan is the best in the whole planet. Now happy?"
I rest myself on the back of the seat and smile a little and nod my head.
He chuckles a little, thinking in his mind: When did I become your Xu Yuan? When this happened? You know so much about me, then why didn't you ever tell me? Or is there something more that you are hiding from me? I don't know why but I… I'm really liking it— that you being my fan and screaming it loud, even if it is only because of this condition of yours, but still… still I'm liking it.
I start murmuring with my closed eyes and start saying, "Xu Yuan."
He doesn't answer me. I shake him slightly and say again, "Xu Yuan."
His head turns towards me and he replies, "Yes, now what, my little troublemaker?"
"Ooo, you have given me a new name," I said cutely while pouting a little.
"Hmm, of course. As you once again showed me a new trait of your personality that amazed me. How could you have so much variety of different personalities in this one little body? How do you carry it inside you, all this? Don't you feel heavy?" he asked while tilting my chin up with his one finger.
I open both my eyes and smile. I only see the blurred vision of him. I know it's him, but I can't see him properly as I am too high. I said while trying to open my eyes wider.
He smiles and said, "Don't try it. You are looking too cute while doing this."
I smile again and said, "Do you know, Xu Yuan, there was going to be some kind of awards show… the China TV Global Awards Show. I hope there you'll receive the award of Best Actor for playing volunteer Li Qingyan in that drama series. And also I hope you'll receive the Best Drama Series award for your current ongoing show, which becomes so hit nationwide— no wait let me correct myself— the global hit drama."
He observes me continuously and said while looking at me, "You like so much praising me, isn't it?"
"Hmm, of course. You deserve all that you have earned. After all, it becomes 12 years of you in this industry. You deserve all this, in fact more than that. I hope you'll achieve more success in future, every happiness lies at your feet, and you'll become more and more handsome as you grow with time."
"Such a well-wisher of mine," he said to me while smiling.
"And I also saw on Weibo that you just recently attended that jewellery exhibition also. My Xu Yuan is always so hardworking… so, so much…"
And after saying that, I faint completely and my body collapses. I was about to fall from the back seat of the car, but he again saved me. He wraps his protective arms around me and pulls me upward and makes me sit properly, and my head lies on his shoulder.
While patting my head he said to me, "That's enough for today, you silly girl. You have pushed yourself so hard today. Don't do it anymore, you won't be able to handle it. But tomorrow, when you wake up and your whole drunkness is gone, then you'll be answerable to me. You have to tell me if I am your Xu Yuan. If it is so, then why do you always deny it when I ask you about me? Why do you always say you didn't watch any of my dramas or series? But today, after listening to you, why do I feel you always watched all my dramas, but why didn't you accept it? Why did you fight with me on that day and say you are not my fan, you didn't know me, and everything? You have to answer too many questions of mine tomorrow. So please be prepared. My silly girl, tomorrow is a big day for you, so be strong enough to answer my questions tomorrow."
"And let me correct you— I have already received those awards. That's why you remembered it. But I think in this condition you slightly forgot it. But leave it. I get to know very surely that you are— if nothing— then definitely obsessed with me. Definitely. But somehow I am liking it."
"So prepare yourself well because tomorrow I won't be leaving you without answering my question. But I must say, you silly girl, you really have such a tight mouth that even in this drunk state of mind you didn't utter a single word that you are hiding from me since long. But I am also the Xu Yuan. I'll definitely figure it out and make you say it loud and clear from your mouth only. Definitely I'll solve your deepest puzzle secret. Since the day we met, I really found that you are something different from inside but showing completely different personality from outside to everyone— especially to me. But after listening to all these things today from you, I won't back off. I won't leave it. I really want to know the real reason behind all this— that why you are pulling yourself away from me. I'll find your secret."
Then the car stops outside the Shanghai University dormitory in the coldest late night here. Then…