Chapter 15
Rose
Waking up I feel warm and safe. I don't want to get up just yet. I want to keep this feeling for just a little long. Laying there all the memories come rushing back. Me telling my secret, me crying. There's no way he doesn't think I'm weird now. If he stops talking to me right now it wouldn't surprise me. I smell food groaning. I get out of bed and walk into the front room. He has the kitchen table decked out with food, there is waffles, chicken fruits, sausages, and a can of whipped cream. My mouth starts to water. I quickly went to the bathroom. When I walk in and I freeze . There is an extra tooth brush by his. Does he have someone else staying here? It's only been 4 days. He yelled through the door.
"I put you a toothbrush in there, it's the pink one. There is a towel and other toiletries for you too, but if it's mine and you want to use that instead that's fine. I don't mind. Use whatever you want in there." I hear him walk away from the door. My heart starts to beat so hard like it's going to come out. I look in the mirror. I hate that I'm so white that you can see my blush from the moon. Why does he have all this? I only stayed over once before this. Does he want me to stay over more? My face gets even hotter. I quickly wash my face and freshen up before going back out. He's at the table waiting for me.
"That looks really good," I say as I sit down.
"Eat as much as you want. I have your lunch packed over there. O i talked to ted this morning they will be stopping by your work later to talk to you for a minute they already talked to you boss about it and she gave them the ok."
"Why are the cops coming to talk to me?"
"When I found the cameras I called them. They are trying to find out who bought them so they might be able to catch the guy."
"O ok that's good i hope they are coming to tell me they got him."
"I hope so but I have a bad feeling that it's not going to be so easy"
"Sadly i'm thinking that same but hey they might get something that can help"
"Ya lets look at the bright side of it. O by the way will i ever get to know where you work?" I choke on my waffle. That's right I still haven't told him where I work.
"Ya i work at the river bay wildlife reservation. I take care of the animes that wander out and get hurt or just have to be brought back. Sometimes I have to go out and help get people out. Some just get lost, some go to hunt. I don't really help getting the hunters out. More the ones who go hiking or camping. We ask them to leave or we have to send out a search party to go find them. I will help with that."
"O i like that job sounds nice. I would love that I'm not too good with people."
"I like it but I don't like having to work so much."
"How much do you work?"
"6 days a week from 8 to 5."
"That's a lot.your working over your 40 hours Why is that."
"There aren't enough workers so we need to work more for the last 3 years we have been under staff. If we could get more people to work there then our hours can be cut. But I have a nice nest egg from all the overtime and no time to spend it."
"That's good but its not good to over work your self"
"I'm not and this year's going to be our lucky year. We will get more people. I just know it."
"then you're going to get more people" the way he says that gives me butterflies like he wholly trusts my feelings. I smile and finish my food.
"Make sure you take the main road and not the trail." he tells me when im walking out.
"I won't and I promise to text you when I get there and I won't forget this time. And thanks for the food. I will bring the lunch stuff back Saturday. That's my new day off."
"I will be looking forward to it." I wave and ride off. I just left. Why can't I wait to see him again. I can't be falling for someone. I promised myself that after what happened with Jim. I would never fall for someone again. I was hurt so bad. I still have the scares from when I left him. I don't think I can survive something like that again. At first I thought it was him outside my house. I called people that still keep up with him. He's still living in another country with his wife. There has been no news of him coming back to the states. After he got out of jail he moved to France and married a woman there 3 months later. His parents moved after he was convicted. He only spent 8 mounts for what he did. I know I shouldn't still be keeping track of him. I just can't help the fear I feel towards him. Sometimes I wish i just moved too so he wouldn't know where i live but i just cant leave this is where i was raised. I have so many memories here with my parents. I lost them both when I was 17 from a car accident.
Luckily they had life insurance so I didn't lose the house and I could stay there. I was able to go to the local college before it got closed down. They didn't have enough people going to it so they closed it down. I still had a little left but he took that too. I shake my head trying to drive away the bad thoughts. I need to keep a look out. wait if he has cameras out this way to see if i come this way . I started paying attention. I don't see or feel anything. I keep a close eye out all the way to town. I get to work just in time. Katie is there waiting for me when I park. I just remembered I didn't call her last night. I'm in so much trouble.
"I can see that look on your face you know you did something wrong." she crosses her arms over her chest.
"I know I'm so sorry you must have been so worried."
"Not to worried because Blake seemed to care more about me worrying then my own best friend." i looked at her so confused what did Blake have to do with this?
"O he didn't tell you last night i blew up your phone worried that guy got you because you weren't home yet. Blake saw I kept calling and answered the phone so I wouldn't be up all night worrying. He told me you were ok that you just fell asleep, and yes i faced timed him so he could show me you were ok. He's hot by the way even if you don't date you have to at least hit that once."
"I have no idea what you are talking about." I hurry past her to try to run away. We don't work in the same area. She works patrolling the woods to make sure people aren't fishing or hunting. She's the one who got me this job. I used to be a vet. That's how I met Jim, he was a doctor. We had some classes in college together. Now I get nervous around a lot of people. I couldn't go back to work after everything i tried for about a week but I had a nervous breakdown. I hid in the house for months till she finally talked me into coming to work here. I really owe her so much. However, I'm still not ready to go into it with her about how I'm feeling about him. I just want to enjoy these nice feelings I have for him. Without her trying to push me into marrying him. Is it so bad I just want to keep him and what's going on between him to myself for just a little while longer. I get in and head straight to Tiffany's office to put my food up.
"What are you doing?" I hear behind me as I put the food up. I stand up and look Tiffany is leaning against the door frame.
"I don't feel safe leaving my food in the main fridge. I hope this is ok?"
"That's fine and when I'm not in here I will keep the door locked so no one but me can come in here. When you're ready for lunch, if I'm not in here, come find me and I will open it for you.
"Thank you so much just with everything going on I'm a little paranoid."
"I completely understand. I would be to." he walks all the way in towards her desk. I head out to feed the animals. stepping out i feel eyes on me again