Dear Diary,
After dinner, I'm lying in bed scrolling through my phone when I receive a voice note from Maya: "Hey, just checking if you're okay." I feel my body relax, then tighten again. Maya is incredibly understanding and incredibly kind to me. She truly listens to me and shows me that while I can't run away from my past and make a fresh start, that fresh start will bring me new people.
I reply to her message, saying I'm okay, that it was difficult for me for a while, but that I'm already feeling much better. She replies that she completely understands, and before I know it, we're talking on the phone for an hour. Although I'm not ready to tell Maya about what actually happened at my old school, I tell her that I've been through something difficult. She then tells me that she's also been through something difficult, without revealing it too much.
We chatted for a bit longer, neither of us specifically, but we acknowledged each other's pain and listened to each other. Little by little, I felt myself calming down, my body relaxing again, and I realized that maybe it's okay not to have everything resolved just like that; everyone has their past.
After I put my phone down, my sister walks in without knocking. Before I know it, she gives me the reality check I needed. "Why are you always sad now?" are the words that silently leave my sister's mouth. Then I realize once again the consequences of the past.
- G