I froze and began to follow him, leaving River's hand gently. Trying to figure out what's going on and why everything is so complicated.
He walked to the beach and began to rub his hands over his head, trying to calm himself.
"I can explain!" I was guilty, I couldn't stop helping curse myself.
"Explain?" He questioned me back with his laugh and then turned towards me. His clothes were messy, his buttoned shirt was open, and his tie was loose.
"Explain what?"
He began to step towards me.
"How every fucking lifetime you choose him?" He began to move his hands.
"Like how much I try, even in a previous life, I married you for Christ's sake, but even in that time, you walked near him!
"Why grace?
"Am I not good enough?
"I planned everything from the start, I impressed your parent, tried to play that soft boy card to grab your attention!
"Even if you were forced to dance, I made sure you enjoyed it and forgot about him!
When fate plays its card of you being born late and he is being elderly, like your uncle's age.
I was happy because the connection won't make it after all, grown-up men and teen girls, but nope.
This won't stop right, you guys are purposely getting or should I say that damn guy is casting his spell.
I came here purposely just to see if you guys would get along or not. Thought only I remembered this, but now that I can see you guys knew it!"
My blood boiled after I heard his long speech or maybe I should say his confession.
"Are you kidding me? For a second, I mean let's be honest right now!
I really thought you were an innocent and awesome kind of guy!"
I met my eyes and he was smiling like he was mocking my stance, but I didn't give a damn and continued.
"You knew everything from the start, and yet you played dumb.
Let's be honest, I was being guilty but now I think I was wrong.
I can't believe you could be so selfish. If you had been truthful, then things could have been different!"
"Ms Evans, do you like him?"
The sudden question stopped me for a second, but my quick reaction to replace it made me avoid it.
"Come to think of it, when you tried to kill him during the ball, that time it was your rage and jealousy" I know my words didn't make sense, but I wanted to avoid this topic as far as I could.
"It's obvious he was dancing with you, and this time too, it's like history is repeating, but think of the danger you have to pass when you are with him!" He was trying to warn me I guess.
"First of all, we are not together, and secondly, it's my life, I don't love you, I never did. It was my family and yours who wanted us to be together.
I was just following their orders like a daughter would do, and as for our engagement, it was meant to be broken!" I couldn't believe it I said it.
"Broken? Just because you found him doesn't mean that you can without even giving it a try!" I knew he was offended.
"Ethan, that's what the problem is, you think you are too perfect and for a second, I also felt that way until today.
Even though I dreamt about you killing, I still thought it was a complete lie, and now again you've proved me wrong by your words.
I can't understand what you guys are thinking of me!
I am just a 23-year-old girl who finally got her doors opened, and now you guys are dragging some historic events.
And now I am being tangled with my own identity, it's all that you guys want, and now it turns out my fiancé is the murderer of me and my past lover.
To be honest, I don't believe any of you, and do you think I don't know what you have done behind my back with all those boys like Ed and Li!"
I began to walk out and then his question stopped me.
"Why did you kiss him if it's not love?"
I turned towards him and gave him a side eye. "It's none of your business, to be honest, you are just my fiancée for the name's sake, and please don't forget to clear it."
I began to walk out of that beach, tired of everything. I saw River standing and leaning over the tree.
Definitely, he was listening to our conversations, and I didn't tend to ignore him, but I am really exhausted with the fact that I had to go through it, which made me question who I am.
He was until I reached, I saw him taking out a cigarette and taking a puff.
I knew he won't let me go off alone, and as expected, but not that deep.
"Why didn't you answer his questions?"
"We have a different life right now, we ain't the same, and it has only been a few days since I came to know about my past life.
Fate wants us together, but look at us right now. It doesn't matter, but right now, what matters is time and understanding.
You people are not giving me time to think about this situation. One random night I came to know so many things !" I told him and began to walk past him.
"Wait a second madam!" He stopped me.
I waited for him patiently, trying not to show the hurricane storming over my body.
He came forward and pressed the cigarette between his lips. He offered his blue coat and put it on my shoulders.
"Do you think this will change my ideology of thinking about you?"
I had to bring this question because right now I can see myself surrounded by selfish people, even though one came out just now, but still the man in front of me claims to be my last lover and he found out a few days ago.
That was also so random.
"I cannot say something about that, as you said, your life and your decision!" He was closer to me just like the time we kissed before.
I took the cigarette from his mouth and threw it down. He didn't say anything, which is a good thing, but I am jealous of my own finger because of the softness I felt when I lightly brushed my fingers over him; it felt like it should be replaced with my lips.
I walked past him with a light smile and again I was stopped by him.
"I don't care grace but remember one thing.
If anyone lays a finger on you, his body will be burned alive."
I knew his soft voice is targeting Ethan or is he really being true.