Since you've been gone...man,
The world has really changed.
It's really strange
How morally weak people are.
It all seems a little deranged
And...
I really wish you could have stayed
And lived another day.
Another way...
I wish there was a way
That I could make you stay...
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But since you passed away
The world for me
Has been quite gray.
And even when I laugh
I frown a bit,
I have to look away...
But since you had to go
I have to know
What made you go
That day?
What were the final things
On your last thoughts?
The last words you would say...
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Hmmm...
The things you've missed...
No, I still don't have kids.
I'm not married,
Or dating.
No house and no business...
But fuck,
I've been trying.
As god is my witness...
It's gotten much harder
For me to barter
But dammit, I'll get this...
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Since you've been gone...man,
So many others have passed as well.
And COVID sent the world
Into some version of
A waking hell...
Now people don't visit,
And unless you see them,
Who knows who is doing well?
Maybe it's fear
That keeps us here...
There's no way i can really tell.
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But since you up and died...
I became so numb...
I've have hardly cried...
I disowned your son...
Yeah, he fucking lied...
He did all the shitty things
That I despise...
Since you had to leave
I lost a decent part of me...
A part of me
That I believe
Was really worth
The heart in me...
I really fucking hate it,
You'll just have to pardon me...
You died on my birthday,
For what?
One last slap
To harden me...
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Since illness took you
My worldview
Has just been different...
I'm less patient with all these people,
Especially when they act ignorant...
Especially when they're indifferent...
Intentions are just malignant...
Just trying to brave
The waves
With this burning sage
And my pendant...
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Since you've been gone...
I don't always know what to do...
I've gotten more indecisive.
More caught up here in my youth.
More caught up here in the truth.
Of what is tucked behind the booth.
Humanity just never flosses
But still fear the bloody tooth...
Since you've been gone...