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Chapter 74 - chapter 74

I wake up in the middle of the night and we're not in the same position that we fell asleep in. I'm currently laying on my side with Ryujin backhugging me.

I try to go back to sleep but that seems like an impossible task. I grab Ryujin's phone because I'm thinking about texting that Shelby girl.

I feel movement from behind me. Maybe she's waking up? But I was wrong. She pulls me closer to her and gives my back a kiss. I smile because even in her sleep. she does sweet things.

Once I feel like Ryujin is back to her deep slumber, I decide to actually text Shelby.

Ryu: Hey, you're probably sleeping but i really don't care but I would appreciate it if you stop texting my girlfriend, especially sending her pictures of your nipples.

I put the phone back, thinking it's the middle of the night so that girl is probably asleep so I was extremely surprised when I hear Ryujin's phone vibrate on the table. I close my eyes, hoping that it didn't wake up my sleeping girlfriend.

I grab her phone again to see a text from Shelby.

Shelby: I didn't know she had a girlfriend, my bad

Did she just lie to me? I clearly saw the message from before that Ryujin mentioned having a girlfriend,

Ryiw I know youre lying because I saw a text from while ago that she told you she has a girlfriend.

Shelby: a while ago. She could have broken up with them, I don't know

Ryu: hut you sent the picture without her getting agreeing to it? Yes I'm the one who saw your piercing

Shelby: what you're reading her texts now? You don't trust her?

I think she's mocking me. What the fuck?

Ryu: I trust her. I don't trust people like you

Shelby: you probably won't last anyways. I'm done talking to you

Ryu: you won't he talking to Ryujin either. I got permission from her to block you after texting you so bye

I immediately block her after that because I don't really care about what she has to say. The fact that she wasn't even sorry for doing that even after finding out were still together is just wrong.I feel Ryujin move again while I try to put her phone back on the table. This time she's the one that scoots closer to me then she places one hand on one of my boobs. I chuckle lightly because I don't want her to wake up. She sniffs me and gives my back another kiss before settling in. Is she always like this when we sleep together?

I get myself comfortable in her arms and fall asleep.

The next day, we were woken up by our alarms. We're not spooning anymore. I was laying on her chest when I woke up.

"We have to get up and get ready so we can check out" she says in her raspy voice.

"You know you're pretty clingy when you're asleep" I chuckle.

"I'm sorry. It helps me sleep better when you're there. When you're in Canada, I have a pillow that I hug when I go to sleep, thinking ir's you" She says shyly.

"Don't be sorry. I think it's cute" she sits up and causing me to sit up too.

"Why were you up though?" She ask me,

"I may or may not have texted Shelby last night I cautiously say, kind of afraid how she's gonna react. I know she gave me permission but I didn't know if that meant that she has to see the messages.

"How'd that go?" She ask then slowly get up, stretching her whole hody.

"She wasn't even sorry after finding out that we are still together. It made me mad so I just blocked her" I scoff.

She looks at me then laughs, "Why are you so annoyed? You blocked her already."

I honestly thought she would be upset or annoyed that I touched her phone while she was asleep but she isn't.

"Because she's annoying" I cross my arms.

She laughs even more, "My poor baby. Come on, let's get ready. I'm just gonna wear my sweats hecause it's gonna be a long drive hack."

She pulls me up from the bed and pushes me to the bathroom. I brush my teeth and wash my face. The thought of going home crosses my mind and I sigh. Can I handle being away from Ryujin without pushing her away? It's easy not to when were together but when we're apart, it's hard because so many other things crosses my mind.I finish up in the bathroom and I see Ryujin getting our luggage ready by the door.

"I'm done. You can go use the bathroom now" I say to her and she nods.

She gives me a hug before walking past me to the bathroom. I sit on the bed and let out another loud sigh. I tell myself I love Ryujin and it's gonna be okay. I need to trust her like how she's trusted me. She's doing everything she can to show her love for me so I need to do the same.

After some time, she finishes up in the bathroom. We walk out of the room and she carries our luggage down. I try to help her but she said no. We exit the elevator and everyone is already waiting for us in the lobby.

"Aren't you gonna check out?" I ask Ryujin when I notice that she's not going to the front desk.

"I already did when you were in the bathroom she says. Was I in the bathroom that long?

"So same arrangement. Kids and luggage are with Ryujin and adults are with me" Mr. Shin announces.

Everyone nods then one by one, we walk out of the hotel. Ryujin put our luggage in the car while I buckle up Eva and Gabe. Once that's done, she opens the door for me then she gets in the driver seat.

I notice that Ryujin doesn't say I love you a lot but she shows it. I'm having a hard time grasping that. I want to hear her say I love you to me but she's only done it a few times. I'm just not used to it. I've never really had anyone show their love for me through actions.

Being told they love me helps me feel reassure but then again, Dana said those words but I don't know if he truly loved me. I'm so confused. I look at Ryujin as she drives and my heart just goes crazy. I know she's an amazing person and I love her to the point that its driving me crazy but it's also so scary. A part of me wants to enjoy it and another part of me wants to end it before I truly get my heart broken.

"Did you two have fun?" I see Ryujin look through the rearview mirror to talk to the kids. They both happily say yes and Ryujin laughs at their cuteness.

"Ryujin?" I say and she looks at me.

"I love you" I continue.

"I love you too" she smiles at then takes my hand.

At that moment. I feel secure again. I won't let my insecurities ruin this relationship for me. I won't lose her because of it. I want to be happy with her. I amhappy with her.

"Are you okay?" Ryujin suddenly ask me, pulling me out of my head.

"Yes. I'm just thinking how much I love you and how happy I am with you" I answer.

She looks at me, waiting to see if I'm gonna say something else.

She kisses the top of my hand that she's been holding. "I'm sorry about last night. The crying thing" she says.

"Why are you sorry?" I stare at her confuse.

"I know you have a lot going on with yourself and I didn't want to add to that" she sighs.

"Ryujin, I'm here for you too. This relationship isn't just about me. It's about us. You should be able to express how you feel to me like how you expect me to express my feelings to you" I squeeze her hand.

I really need to get myself together. I don't want Ryujin to feel like she did last night. She actually has a valid reason to be scared because of how I am. I need to prove to her that nothing is gonna separate us.

"Are you scared when I go back to Canada?" I ask.

"Yea" she lowly answer.

"I will try my best okay? And my sister will be with me. just know that I love you and I want to be with you. I want forever with you. I'll continue to work on my insecurities" I say to her.

She smiles at me, "Yeji, you're perfect to me. Even with your insecurities. Every time I look at you, my heart does little flips because they're so happy to see you. When I see you smiling, I can't help but smile too. Holding your hard like this, is enough to make my day complete."

"So I hope that you can feel my sincerity. And how truly I want us to work. I dont ever want you to think that I'm playing with you or anything" she continues.

I smile back at her and give her a nod. She continues to hold my hand while driving and I look out the window. This is my chance to be happy. My sister said before that I make myself miserable with the decisions I make. I'm not gonna do that now. I can't be afraid to be happy forever.

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