Love.
It is an intricate thing.
It brings us together.
It drives people apart.
It heals.
It harms.
Its ultimate outcome is based on whose hands it is in.
Beware of who you give your love to.
Beware of where you get your love from.
Humans are inherently selfish, and that is okay since it is perfectly normal.
It is not okay to be a selfish person.
Do for you first, but do for others as well.
People need people, but you need you first.
Want to know something, Kid?
Folks?
This is the last page of this old baby journal of mine...
That is a strange thing.
It is bittersweet.
It is cathartic.
It is a bit sad as well.
You all have been so accommodating.
So welcoming.
So silent, lmao.
That's okay.
You've been here with me and these weird journal entries for just over a year!
Can you believe that!?
Thank you for your time and energy.
I will see you soon, yeah?
(Slowly climbs into the cockpit of the Slappery-Slappish-Slappington 3000, wondering if this will be the last time I see all of these buttons, knobs, levers, switches, pullies, skrimmpers, slportles, lampertamps, and snipsnopsnorts again.)
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July 9th, 2021.
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So this is the last page.
I hope I am alive to read it with you, or have you read it to me.
I...don't know if you are a thing yet...
If you were ever born.
But if you are reading this, know that whatever type of human you turned out to be...I love you,
And I always will.
I hope you got the best traits from your mom and myself, so that your light may illuminate this often bleak world.
Be happy.
Be selfless.
But remember: It's okay to be selfish at times.
-Dad.
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(Softly pops back into this timeline for the last and final time while drying my eye of the single tear that had formed at its rim.)
Hmm.
That was simple enough, yeah?
But all of this...
It's been one hell of a trip.
The feelings and self-reflections that have been inspired week after week have been a lot less simple.
Kid...
It's 2025.
Today is December 9th, and you...
Well, you don't exist just yet.
Not to the best of my knowledge, anyway.
And you wanna know something?
That's okay.
It hurts, but it really is.
I have always been a firm believer in things happening for a reason, and everything happening when it's meant to, or simply not happening because it is not meant to.
That came out all rambly, lol.
But you know what I meant.
I'm sure you all know well enough how I word my words by now, lmao.
It's okay, Kid.
It's okay, Folks.
If you are never a thing, it's okay.
I can't miss what I've never had, yeah?
Don't cry for me,
LARRY! YOU PUT THE PHONE/TABLET DOWN, AND YOU GO DRY THOSE OCULAR NERVES THIS INSTANT!
*sends a digital hug to Larry specifically.
I can feel you, though.
Your light.
Your presence.
You may not be here in person, but you are real enough.
You live in the hearts of all the readers of this book.
(Especially Larry's)
That means the world to me, you know?
Hmm.
Maybe it's not too late, lol.
My birthday is the last day of this month, and I'll be turning 37!
We will see, yeah.
Hmm, indeed.
Thank you all kindly for sticking this out with me.
I hope that life treats you well, and that if you have children or a child of your own, you cherish them and love them beyond reason.
Give them an extra hug this holiday season for those who we have lost and those who never were.
Maybe even one for those who are yet to be.
I love you all.
Thank you for standing with me through this for the past year! Can you believe that it's been that long!?
I will try to get the next volume out in less time, but no promises!
I do a lot of writing, and this one slips into the crack every once in a while lol.
Thank you kindly for your patience.
I see you all back here in the next part.
Spoiler alert!
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I'm just kidding, it doesn't mean anything, lol.
Safe travels, Folks.
You as well, Kid.
If...
You know.
Till next time:
Stay safe.
Stay healthy.
Stay vigilant.
-Bluu.