The happy life always turns into happiness through pain again and again, how painful it is if you shed blood just to fulfill a long-cherished wish.
"Child, you have never experienced what it feels like to have death looming over you. I'm scared, do you know how I have endured these years? I don't want that feeling to suffocate me again. I've had enough of it. Maybe you think my thoughts are foolish and naive. If I had known this would be the ending, I wouldn't have chosen to live this way. But doesn't everyone make mistakes? Does a mistake I've made mean I'll never be forgiven and have to endure others' scolding and humiliation all my life?
I know you have a lot of resentment towards me in your heart, I understand, but please, considering I've worked so hard so I'm not just living an ordinary life, consider my feelings.
I don't really know how to talk to you about what I felt during that time. I can tell you all about my emotions from that day now."
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