I've numbed myself over and over again, forcing myself to forget all the hurt and pain again and again, just so that one day I could be different from others. But in the end, what did I get in return? Time after time, the result I got was… nothing. I can't even imagine what kind of ending I'm supposed to have. I've forced myself over and over again to be different from others, yet all it brought me was heartbreak, time and time again. Do you understand? Do you have any idea what it feels like when I pour my heart out, work harder than anyone else, and yet, behind my back, people stab me, betray me, over and over again? That despair, that pain deep in my heart—no one can truly understand it. That feeling is something I swear I'll never want to experience again in this lifetime.