HAYAT POV:
Times flying really fast now. It's been three weeks since the commotion and three weeks since I haven't visited the place like before, I have been ignoring everyone these days, even Ahad too.
He sends voice messages of Peer-e-Kamil daily at night and does a Shabakhair (good night) and Subhabakhair (good morning) message to me daily and I haven't replied to him for weeks now.
I have completed the admission process, and I will soon join the university after marriage, but as the marriage date is approaching, I'm getting scared.
Scared of the reactions my family would give after seeing my wedding card, we had a small meeting, and from my side, only my uncle and auntie joined. I called Sana and told her to come, but she refused. My stepmother didn't have a phone, or else I would have called her, too. She did make my memories beautiful while I lived there, but let's forget it for now.
I'm getting a call from Ashar again. This idiot has been calling me for three weeks now. Daily, I get 5 to 10 calls from him, I need to ask him which package he does that he calls me every day now, and the call which I do not attend, obviously.....
It's Monday today, and I have changed my entire wardrobe after everything that has happened the last few weeks, I'm turning to my old self, the self I shared with Eira only, I want to change myself for the better now, I don't feel entitled to change myself for the marriage but I'm trying to find my old self.....
Wearing a blue kurta with a net dupatta on the side, and securing my hair in a bun, I applied moisturizer and lip balm, having acne on my face was one of the things I was most insecure about when I was young till I met Eira who made me love myself the way I am...
Coming out of my room, I looked for Auntie, finding a little note on the dining table I took it and read "My daughter, take as much time you want, no one is angry or upset with you, we will wait for our baby to come to us when she needs us. Oh, BTW I'm going with your mother-in-law to distribute cards" I took the notepad and wrote down a message for her, and went out...
Uncle has always spoiled me. My father did not give me a card to get myself anything I wanted any time, but my uncle did. My stepmother never cooked food for me, but my auntie did. Every time I remember the old memories, it's always with uncle auntie...
I went to join some cooking classes and took myself to get myself an abaya, when I had a chat with Ahad for the first time he said he didn't have a problem with me not wearing abaya but he'll love it if I wear it so I thought to give it a try...
Getting myself everything I wanted, I finally took my phone from the passenger seat and called Ahad directly...
The phone rang for some time and the call was cut from his side, I looked at my phone and thought to call Ashar when my phone rang again with his number...
"Asalam Mualaikum," He said...
"Walaikum Asalam, how are you?" I replied and waited for his reply...
"I'm good Alhamdulillah, how are you?" I hummed in response and didn't say anything again, I didn't know what to say to him, I wanted to talk to him but what should I say? I thought to myself and waited...
We were silent for some minutes when I heard someone from behind "Bhai meeting has started already, come now" I heard Ahad "Shush, I'm talking to your sis-to-be, you attended the meeting on my behave today."
"You can go and attend the meeting, I'll call later," I said, whispering slowly...
"No, you talk to me, Hayat," I heard him saying calmly...
"I wanted to talk, but I don't know what I should talk about," I said, finally not knowing how to start a conversation with him...
"Okay, then tell me, did you have your lunch?" He asked, to which I hummed.
"Did you get your admission done?" He asked, I hummed this time too.
"Hayat, I missed you." he said, I was shocked for some time, composing myself, "I'm sorry for ignoring you, Ahad," I spoke meowing like a little cat.
"My wild cat should not be sorry, if you want space, I'll give it to you, if you want to talk, I'll talk, if you want to go anywhere, I'll take you, I'll be there with you on each step you take, just hold my hand and led me the way, I'll go there" I smiled.....
"I'm scared of this marriage," I told to him truthfully...
"Why?" He asked
"I don't know, what if I won't be a good wife? What if I won't be able to manage everything? What if I won't be able to exceed the expectations you all have of me? What if-" I was cut off by him...
"Shush, why are you overthinking so much? You don't need to change yourself for anyone. Don't worry about others' expectations, let them think. You'll be a good wife for me, no need to stress. Everything will work out, and I'll be there for you. Don't worry, everything will be fine." He said and waited for me to answer...
I wanted to look at his face right now, his calm expression while him saying all this, but let's not forget I have been ignoring him.
"I'll ignore you in the future too like this, I'm really moody and I have a habit of spitting facts straight in the faces, I will fight and be childish too and I missed you too," I said and cut the call, taking a deep breath I drove to the Seaview to enjoy this cold weather a little bit...
Getting myself a cup of coffee, I took out my phone to see Ashar calling me, and this time, I picked it up.
"You dumb, idiot, crazy woman, you ignored me for three weeks straight, and now you are talking to Ahad bhai! Where the hell I'm on the list? When were you planning to call me and give me an explanation? You dumb." Hearing his loud voice, I kept my phone a little far away to save my poor ear.
"I'm sorry, I have been going through a lot these days" I whispered...
I heard him sighing, "You okay now? Do you want some company? I can get a day off from bhai, or I can send him to look after you?" I smiled at his concern.
Hyderabad to her my dream bangles and earrings for the wedding?" I asked, hoping to hear a yes.
"Oh, why won't I stupid, I'll talk to bhai, and we'll meet you at our place, wait a second, won't I be a third wheel?" Hearing him, I replied immediately.
"Ahh, no, I'll get to know you both better on our way there, I have asked uncle, and he doesn't have a problem" Hearing him say okay we cut the call and I made my way home to dress some comfortable clothes, packing some essentials and some snacks everything ready.
I hugged Uncle Auntie and got out of the house to drive away...
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