Alexandra..hmm, I still can't get her out of my head but our break up was for the best. I guess.. I stayed up on the phone with Ally for the night, she watched over me I guess you can say. I told her that I didn't want her pity, but she said "I'm not pitying you I'm just worrying about you." I looked at my phone, (since we were on face time) and sighed. She then told me to put my face into the camera, however I couldn't. Between the silent tears streaming down my cheeks and the constant pain that was in my chest, I don't know which was more hurtful to me.. the pain behind me tears? Or the hole in my heart? Or maybe it was the feeling of sadness? Either way I constantly found myself reading the messages we sent.
I don't want to go to school tomorrow, I just want lie down and think. I texted her good morning, and we both asked how we were doing. She doesn't know and neither do I, but I bet If somebody brings up what happened both of us will cry. We promised to be the best of friends, but honestly I can't imagine her being with another guy. I wouldn't know how to handle that, I wonder though..single on Valentine's Day...that means I'll have to suffer this heartache while watching other couples kiss and be lovey dovey.. life sucks ya know?