I can't believe I'm saying this..But the time that we spent was awesome, and we did our best. However I guess we have to end things here.. the bracelet I gave you I want you to have. I think it suits you .. ya know? I don't wanna end things on this note and tbh I'm starting to tear up.. but maybe it's for the best, I don't want to hurt you because I care but I guess things have to end here..I'm sorry..
After I sent my girlfriend that text she responded with "I wanna be the best of friends Nicholas". Ok yes I promise was all I managed to say, though the pain in my chest sorta made it hard to breathe. I was able to receive some oxygen to keep me alive, however no lie my girlfriend she wasn't able to communicate her feelings well but I know she loved me. I also loved her.. it's hard letting go. I was crying and my chest was hurting, it was hard to breathe.
Some how though I managed to keep ushering air into my lungs, but it hurt as I did. My stomach was bubbling and my body was shaking, head confused and emotions leaking. I want this day to end, I want this night to end, I want it to be the next day and most importantly..I want to breathe again. I'm on the phone with Ally and she's tryna cheer me up.. I flash her a (fake) smile and act as if I'm ok , she see through my actions but I keep up the show. She then believes me, I think.. and leaves alone about it. However after awhile she starts asking me about it. I want this to end.