The taxi driver was talking about the weather.
Ryan heard him from a distance, the way you hear waves when you're already drowning. Rain on the windshield. Wipers doing their futile dance. Gangnam at 1:47 AM, neon bleeding into wet asphalt, the city refusing to sleep.
"Bad night for driving," the driver said. Korean, heavily accented English, expecting no reply.
Ryan gave none. He was looking at his phone—cracked screen, 23% battery, the photo he'd taken three hours ago. Crimson Velvet leaving the venue, Eilen in the center, surrounded by staff, by security, by the machinery that kept her untouchable. He'd stood in the rain for four hours. Hadn't gotten close enough for eye contact. Hadn't needed to. Just hearing her voice through the walls, muffled by concrete and distance, had been enough.
Five years of saving. Jakarta to Seoul. One week. This was night six.
"Where to?" the driver asked at a light.
Ryan looked up. The street sign meant nothing to him. He'd been walking aimlessly after the venue cleared, too wired to sleep, too empty to go back to the hostel.
"Anywhere. Just drive."
The driver shrugged, merged left, kept talking about the rain.
Ryan didn't see the van until it was already sliding.
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The sound was not cinematic. No slow motion. Just impact—metal on metal, the taxi spinning, his shoulder hitting the door, his phone flying into the dark. Then silence, or a ringing that replaced silence, high and constant.
He tasted blood. Felt glass in his palm, small and hot. The taxi had stopped against something solid, tilted, driver's side crushed. The driver was not moving.
Ryan crawled out through the window he'd broken with his elbow. The rain hit his face, cold and shocking, bringing him back to his body. He was on his knees in the street, glass cutting through his jeans, and he saw the van.
Black. Sima Entertainment logo. On its side. Smoke rising, not thick yet, but black, wrong.
He moved without thinking. Knees to palms, crawling, the way he'd crawled out of his own wreck. The van's windshield was starred, empty. The side window, the one facing up, was shattered.
A hand inside. Small. Still.
Ryan reached. Fingers finding glass, cutting, not caring. He pulled himself up, looked down, and saw her face.
Blood on her temple. Eyes closed. Then—opening.
Eilen.
Not on stage. Not in photographs. Real. Dying. Looking at him with confusion that cleared into something else. Recognition of a kind. Two people who should not be here. Two people who were.
"You," she whispered. Or he thought she whispered. The ringing was loud now, and there was heat behind him, and he was reaching for her hand, fingers brushing, almost touching—
The fire started, or the second car hit them, or his heart simply stopped from the effort. Ryan never knew. He felt her fingertips, cold and real, and then he felt nothing.
---
He woke to sunlight.
Wrong sunlight. Too bright, too direct, streaming through curtains he didn't own. Floral pattern. Faded. A crack in the ceiling that looked like Indonesia if you squinted.
Ryan's hands flew to his chest. No pain. No glass. Smooth skin, young skin, the body of someone who had not yet learned what dying felt like.
His phone buzzed on the desk. Nokia. Physical buttons, green pixelated screen.
March 14, 2014.
He sat up too fast. The room tilted—his old room, his university room near ITB, the boarding house he'd left at twenty-two and never thought of again. The smell of kopi tubruk from downstairs. The distant tet-tet-tet of angkots. Mountain air, cool and familiar, nothing like Seoul's humidity.
Ryan looked at his hands. Twenty-two. The joints didn't crack when he flexed them. The scar on his palm—from the van window, from reaching—was gone.
But he remembered.
The rain. The smoke. Her eyes opening. Her voice, or what he thought was her voice, saying you like a question she didn't finish.
He reached for the Nokia with hands that wouldn't stop shaking. The date glowed back at him, real and impossible. March 14, 2014. Twelve years before he would die in Gangnam. Twelve years before he would crawl through glass to reach a stranger who was already famous and already dying.
Ryan sat on the edge of the mattress, still wearing the clothes he'd died in—jeans, the faded hoodie he'd bought in Myeongdong, the sneakers with soles worn from standing in rain. They were clean now. New. The blood was gone.
The TV was on in the common room downstairs. He could hear it through the thin walls. Morning news, or music, or the kind of programming that filled empty hours. He didn't move to check. He sat with his phone in his lap, remembering the feel of her fingers, cold and almost touching, and tried to breathe.
She was alive.
In this time, in this impossible second chance, she was twenty-three and about to debut and had no memory of a taxi accident that wouldn't happen for twelve years. She was practicing choreography she already knew, singing songs she'd already performed, living a life she'd already lived once.
And somewhere, in the city that would eventually kill them both, she was waking up too. He was certain of it. The way she'd looked at him—not scared, not surprised to see a stranger, but expectant, as if she'd been waiting for someone to crawl through broken glass—
Ryan stood. His legs held him. The room was small, familiar, suffocating with memory. He walked to the window, pressed his palm against the glass, and looked out at Bandung.
The same chaos. The same everything-waiting-to-happen. The seblak vendor setting up. Students in ITB jackets. The mountain framing the northern horizon, hazy and blue.
He had twelve years.
Twelve years to become someone who could stand in her world without being invisible. Twelve years to build the money, the access, the presence that would make their second meeting—when it came, and it would come—something other than a stranger dying in the rain.
The Nokia buzzed. A text from his mother, probably. Or his sister. People who were alive in this timeline, who would worry when he disappeared, who he would have to face and lie to and eventually, somehow, explain.
Ryan didn't check it. He turned from the window and opened his laptop—the same cheap Acer he'd used for assignments, for Ragnarok, for searching flight prices he couldn't afford. The screen flickered to life.
He typed: "Seoul real estate prices 2014." Then "Bitcoin historical chart." Then "World Cup 2014 odds."
The knowledge was there, burning behind his eyes. Germany 7, Brazil 1. The scoreline that had made him, in another life, think if only I'd known. Now he did know. Now he would act.
But first, he opened a new tab and searched: "Crimson Velvet debut August 2014."
The results were sparse. Pre-debut articles. Speculation. A few photos of trainees, faces he didn't recognize except one. Eilen, younger, heavier in the face, not yet polished by the industry that would eventually consume her.
He looked at her photograph for a long time. The girl who didn't know she would die with him. The girl who, somewhere in Seoul this morning, might be waking up with blood on her temple that wasn't there, with memory of a stranger's fingers reaching, with the same impossible certainty that time had folded and given them both a second chance.
Ryan closed the laptop. His hands had stopped shaking, replaced by something harder. Resolve, or its cousin, obsession.
He would go to Seoul. Not today—he needed money first, capital, the resources to stand in her world as something other than a fan in the rain. But he would go. And when he did, he would find her.
Not to ask for anything. Not to explain what they couldn't explain. Just to see her eyes open, to see the recognition, to know that he hadn't imagined it—the moment when two strangers had almost touched, dying, and been given another chance to meet properly.
The Nokia buzzed again. He picked it up, finally, and read his mother's text: Breakfast is ready. Don't be late for campus.
Ryan typed back, thumbs finding the T9 layout with muscle memory he'd forgotten he had: I'll be down soon. And Ma—I might need to borrow some money. For an investment.
He didn't wait for her reply. He opened his closet, found the envelope where he kept his graduation savings, and counted. Not enough. Not nearly enough for what he needed to do.
But there was the X-Trail. His parents' gift. Three hundred million rupiah of collective sacrifice, sitting in the parking lot with less than ten thousand kilometers on the odometer.
Ryan looked at the keys on his desk. Then at the laptop, closed but still warm. Then at his hands, young and unmarked and full of knowledge that shouldn't exist.
He picked up the keys.
---
The X-Trail was gone by sunset.
Ricky, the dealer, counted the cash twice—three hundred and forty million, rubber-banded, smelling of coffee and the cigarettes he smoked while waiting for desperate sellers. He shook Ryan's hand with the gravity of a man who knew he'd made the easiest commission of his life.
"Something wrong?" Ricky asked. "You just got this, what, three months ago?"
"Nothing's wrong." Ryan took the paper bag, felt the weight of it against his side. "I just need to be somewhere else."
"Where?"
Ryan didn't answer. He was looking at the space where the X-Trail had been, the faint outline of his graduation tassel still hanging from the rearview mirror. He'd forgotten to remove it. A symbol of everything he was leaving behind—his parents' pride, his sister's faith, the normal life they expected him to live.
He would pay them back. Ten times over. Once the bets came through, once he built the empire that thirty-four-year-old Ryan had never managed, once he stood in front of her as something other than a stranger dying in the rain.
"Singapore," he said finally. "Then Zurich. Then Seoul."
Ricky laughed, not understanding. "Big plans for a college kid."
"Big plans," Ryan agreed.
He took the angkot to the train station, bought a ticket to Jakarta with cash, and sat by the window watching the mountains fade into darkness. The money sat in his backpack, pressed against his spine, heavier than it should have been.
In Jakarta, he checked into a cheap hotel near Gambir—no ID, extra payment for discretion—and spent the night staring at the ceiling, listening to the city breathe. The cash went into three separate envelopes. One for living expenses. One for the flight. One for Singapore.
He didn't sleep. Every time he closed his eyes, he saw the scoreline: 7-1. The numbers burned like neon in the dark. But behind them, always, was her face. Blood on her temple. Eyes opening. The almost-touch of fingers that had been cold and real and the last thing he felt before dying.
The Nokia sat on the nightstand, silent. No one knew where he was. In twelve hours, his parents would panic. In twenty-four, they would call the police. In three days, they would begin to believe he was dead.
Ryan didn't turn on the phone. He couldn't face them yet—not with the weight of what he knew, what he planned, what he was willing to sacrifice for a second chance at a moment that wouldn't come for years.
Instead, he opened his laptop and searched for flights. June 10, 2014. Singapore. One way.
Then he searched for something else: "Crimson Velvet Eilen pre-debut photos." "Bae Johyun 2013." "Sima Entertainment trainee rumors."
The results were sparse, carefully controlled, the machinery of a company that understood image. But he found one—an article from late 2013, speculating about the new girl group, mentioning a "visual trainee" with "unusual maturity."
He looked at the photograph attached. Not Eilen, not yet. Bae Johyun, twenty-two, face rounder than it would become, eyes carrying something the photographer hadn't noticed. The same look she'd given him in the van. Expectant. Waiting.
Ryan touched the screen. His finger left a smudge on her face.
"You're there," he whispered. "You're waiting too."
He closed the laptop. The room was dark, Jakarta humming outside, indifferent to his impossible mission. He lay back on the cheap mattress and let the tremors run through him—fear, grief, hope, the particular madness of being thirty-four in a twenty-two-year-old body, planning to find a woman who didn't know she was looking for him.
Tomorrow, Singapore. The betting. The first step toward becoming someone who could stand in her world.
But tonight, he allowed himself one weakness. He closed his eyes and remembered the rain. The glass. The moment when her fingers had almost touched his, and death had felt like a beginning instead of an end.
Twelve years.
He would use them all.
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The flight to Singapore took two hours and seventeen minutes.
Ryan sat in economy—his last economy flight, he promised himself—and couldn't sleep. The seat was cramped, the air dry, the cabin crew moving through with practiced efficiency. He watched the clouds below and thought of her, practicing choreography in a Seoul studio, unaware that a stranger was crossing the sea to build a bridge to her future.
In Singapore, he found Mr. Lim's hostel in Little India. Paid for a week. Asked careful questions about large wagers, about bookmakers who didn't ask questions, about the line between luck and something else.
"You're police?" Mr. Lim asked, watching cricket, not looking up.
"IT engineer. Just graduated." Ryan tried to sound harmless. "I have... theories about the World Cup."
"Theories."
"I think Germany will win. Big."
Mr. Lim muted the TV. Turned slowly. Looked at him with eyes that had seen too many young men with too much confidence and too little sense.
"You know what happened to the last man who had theories?"
Ryan met his gaze. "He died before he could use them."
Something shifted in Mr. Lim's expression. Not belief, but assessment. He reached under the counter, pulled out a card, slid it across.
"James. Australian. Used to work for Betfair. VIP clients only. He'll want to see your money before he sees your face."
Ryan picked up the card. Plain white, just a number.
"Thank you."
"Don't thank me." Mr. Lim turned the cricket back on. "James has buried clients. Actual burying. Be sure about your theories, IT boy."
Ryan went upstairs to his room. Small, functional, smelling of incense from the temple next door. He lay on the bed and held the card to the light, reading the number until he had it memorized.
Then he burned it. Flushed the ashes. The only record in his head, where it couldn't be found.
He would call tomorrow. Today, he needed to rest. To prepare. To let the future settle into place around him like a promise he intended to keep.
But sleep didn't come. He kept seeing her eyes. The blood. The way she'd said you like a question, or an answer, or a recognition of something she couldn't name.
Ryan reached for his Nokia—the same phone, the same number, the same life he'd left in Bandung. He typed a message he wouldn't send: I found you once. I will find you again.
He deleted it. Typed another: I'm sorry I didn't reach you in time.
Deleted that too.
Finally, the truth: I don't know if you remember. I don't know if you're looking. But I'm coming. Wait for me.
He saved it to drafts. A message for a future that might never arrive, to a woman who might not exist in the way he remembered, in a timeline that was already changing with every choice he made.
Outside, Singapore breathed. The city that would make him rich, or kill him, or both. Ryan closed his eyes and let the darkness take him, dreaming of rain and broken glass and fingers that almost touched.
Tomorrow, the bet.
Tomorrow, everything.
---
Seoul, same night.
Eilen woke at 3 AM with the taste of blood in her mouth — and the memory of a man dying in the rain.
She didn't remember falling asleep. Only the practice room, the choreography that wouldn't stick, the mirror reflecting a face that felt wrong. Then darkness. Then—
A hand reaching. Rain on her face. A stranger's fingers, cold, almost touching hers. Blood. Smoke. The word "you" caught in her throat, unfinished.
She sat up, pressed her palm against her chest, felt her heart beating too fast. Twenty-three. Healthy. Debut in five months.
But her hand remembered. The almost-touch. The cold.
Eilen walked to the window. The Sima Entertainment dorm was quiet, other trainees sleeping, the city outside humming with a life she hadn't learned yet. She looked at her reflection in the glass—Bae Johyun, visual trainee, future leader, perfect.
Her eyes looked back. Too old. Too aware.
You're out there, she thought. Not knowing who she meant. Only knowing, with certainty that shouldn't exist, that someone was looking for her. That someone had died trying to reach her. That time had folded and given them both a second chance.
She touched the window. Cold glass, not cold fingers.
"Wait for me," she whispered to the city, to the stranger, to the dream that felt like memory. "I'm not ready yet. But I'm coming."