Dinner was over and everyone retired to bed the alliance was already finalized there was nothing i could do no more, in two weeks i am getting married whether i liked it or not.
The next day, i requested my breakfast be brought to my room i didn't want to face anyone that would talk about a wedding.
A life of royalty seemed like a curse everyone expects so much from you, your desires are after the needs of the kingdom.
The palace was boring many might wish to see or enter a palace some think it was endless fun some will keep changing dresses which was fun to them but it was tiring mistakes weren't allowed the way you talk, eat speak and walk must be perfect.
The life of a villager would be better freedom from burdens and responsibilities bestowed upon you since the day you born. i would wish to leave the castle and see outside i only got a view from my window.
i went to meet my dad again he seemed to be packing for a trip but told me nothing about it. i asked him what it will take for the alliance to be called he seemed shocked that i still had hope on breaking the alliance.
''what ever you just don't embarrass your family'' he still seemed less concerned
''what will it take''
''i don't know what can you do''
'' if i attempt suicide'' he stopped as if caught offguard
'' no one has ever done such act in this castle and as my daughter i forbid you but if you decide on this do it right and if you don't i will personally kill you''
He seemed serious and he left. i was trying to threating him but he did. Dad was acting weird where was he going i am sure mum knew nothing about where dad was going or maybe she did but what difference did it make.
i kept on avoiding Rahan it looks like Rahan had changed his way towards me from holding me and making us meet gazes to peeking of cheeks he was just trying to provoke me like he wanted me to slap him.
Rahan wouldn't dare lay his hands on me cause it was a sign of disrespect to the king and the wedding will be cancelled one slap regardless how hurtful it could be, was a risk for Rahan i was willing to take it if it means my freedom later in the evening i heard Rahan and my uncle were having a party.
The day was exhausting i wish could just sleep wake up the next morning and everything should be a dream but it wasn't a dream but plain reality. It was almost dawn but dark i didnt feel like sleeping i was go to the get water to drink, i didnt send a miad cause i felt like stretching there i saw Rahan he seemed drunk and was saying rubbish. i took to his room and let him sleep on the floor.
when the day started properly i went to the indoor garden it was being demolished to put a pool which would be for my uncle the garden was losing its beauty having dead leafs instead of blooming flowers am sure when he is done renovating the space he would throw parties there. i rather a indoor garden than a pool.
Then Rahan walked in he was curious to know how he got to the floor so i was happy to explained how dumb he behaved he seemed less interested in what i was saying so i stopped talking or he felt ashamed.
Rahan moved closer breaching the gap between us his were fixated on the garden he acted like it was a subconscious movement i moved away but he once again breached the gap that was between us i wasn't comfortable he was to close and resting his weight on my shoulder i tried to use my hip to move him back to where he was seating but he was to heavy so i gave up.
i stood up after hours of seating down watching the dead garden i went to my room. i would have died if boredom was a disease dad made sure laura was busy so i wouldnt talk to her to him talking to a commoner casually was degrading.i wished i could reverse the day so i could speak to Laura it wasnt fair she also not allowed to call my name casually she couldnt say my name.
Being a normal girl mean live with people who call you by your name that aren't scared of you. one with a life like that would be happy , and if a villager had the opportunity to become royal they could kill for it.
Like they say you don't know what you got till you lose it, so i try my best to fit in, in a princess shoe, on the way to my room i saw mom going to dads chamber maybe he was going to tell her where he was going to when she walked by her necklace fell down and she wasn't aware of it. i tried to call her attention to it but she was too far to hear, i couldn't follow so i decided to give her later, i picked up the necklace, it was the necklace she always called home.
i woke up at the break of drawn it has been three days since Rahan had asked for my hand in marriage so it would be a week and 4 days before i get married i walked in the dining hall and saw everyone on sit except Rahan's father and my dad they all stared at me in a deadly way as if i was late to something important.
i quickly took my sit to avoid attention what were they planning i thought mum gaze were strong on me Rahan stood up made a toast and started a speech i was less concern about anything he was saying for he was talking about the wedding decoration till a statement got my attention
,.Rahan father and dad went for my aunt burial everyone gaze was on him mom seemed surprised dad didn't tell her and he didn't tell me when i asked him but he told Rahan at times i often wish to be a boy, if i were dad would have told me a aunt of mine was late.
. As he was speaking some of Rahan saliva fell in my mash potatoes during his speech. After a bit more sermon from Rahan, he sat down next to me eating, then for no reason Rahan scooped up some of my mashed potatoes next to my face expecting me to eat it why would i his saliva at that second i noticed mom eyes on me is it compulsory i eat it but mom eyes were deadly i almost ate it due to the deadliness in her eye .it was obvious Queen Elsa was enjoying the comedy curse her she must be enjoying life.