Namtan Pov
"They are really beautiful."
She's beautiful and she's the star I've been looking at every night and the one I always draw in my latest paintings. She's the one I've thought about in all those shit situations when everyone was about to die... it's her I thought about. I hold her hand and I know it's probably going to be the last time I do it because... I can't let this happen, she can't be with me and she knows that. I'll just ruin your life Film, I'm sorry.
She gets so close that I can feel her hot breath on my lips "I think I should go upstairs" I try to get up and leave but she drags me back and kisses me straight on the lips. I close my eyes for a moment but then quickly push her away "what the hell are you doing?" Her expression changes at my words and she slightly backs off "What do you mean? I thought you..."
I move away from her "Well you thought wrong. You're here to be my bodyguard not to do this!" I get up as I'm holding all to whatever the hell is in me right now that's keeping me from running back to her and kissing her again. I can't put her in danger like this, I know she'll live a better life without me. "Why are you doing this?!" She talks at me as she gets up and grabs my arm making me turn around to face her. "I'm not doing anything." I look down at my shoes as I'm not able to look into her eyes or I know I'll stay crying. "You love me like i love you and you know that! Why are you running away from me?! What did I do so wrong for you to push me away like this?!" She screams at me as she cries and holds on to my wrist tightly. It hurts me so much but I know it's for the best. She changed my life in so many ways and made it better even if we didn't spend a lot of time together I saw in her what I didn't see in a million of woman on this earth. "Answer me!" She cups my cheeks and makes me look into her eyes.
"You're just a child. You don't know what you want in life." I'm so sorry, I love you.
"What? If that's the problem- then it's not true! I know what I want. I want you, isn't that enough for you? I want to be with you!"
I look at her beautiful face and the more I see her crying the more I think that I was the reason for her tears in the past months and I'm glad to know this is the last time she's crying because of me. "You're not worthy of me, no one is."
my voice is shaking and I think I'll break down soon... please don't make me hurt you again... just leave please... I'm so sorry...
"How can you say that?! I a was the one who loved you even if you gave me a thousand reasons not to! You almost killed my fucking sister and got me in this damn situation but- but I still love you dammit!"
I take her hands and place them away from my cheeks.
"That's the reason this can't happen. It's not normal for you to be with someone like me, someone who destroyed your life." I quickly turn around and a low of tears start dropping down my cheeks. I hope she'll find her happiness with a woman that can actually protect her and take care of her... not with someone like me...
She deserves the best and I'm the worst this world could give her. "Don't leave me!" She hugs me from behind and I try to push her away but I feel like I have no power left in me, my hands are shaking and i can't even see from how much I'm crying. "I know what you did I'm not stupid. That wasn't what hurt me the most... what's hiring me the most right now is that you're not fighting to keep me." I think my heart just shattered into little peaces at her words. I push her away and run upstairs, where I see my brother Non "Nam... come here" i hug him tightly and let go, I just cry it all out until I can't shed one more tear.
"Why did you do that? Why would you hurt her like that? But most importantly why would you do that to yourself?" Nanon asks me as he sits on the bed next to me and Milk.
"You know why."
Milk turns on the side to face me before speaking:
"No I don't know why. Me and Non are in the same situation, but did we broke up with our partners? No, because that's not the solution. You guys should talk it out."
"It's not that easy guys. We weren't even together and she's so young... I feel like I'm violating her."
Nanon clearly judged me just with a look "Violating- what?!" He gets closer to me "Don't forget that Ohm is also just eighteen and I don't think I violated him. And neither did you, she's legally allowed to me with you AND she's in love with you, what more do you want?"
"You guys don't understand."
"Yes we do" they say at the same time.
"Do you think this is easy? You have to fight for her especially now, in the situation we're in. I know it all seems chill and calm but they could come after us anytime and being distant won't be good for anyone."
Milk says.
"I was thinking about sending the back home... her and Ohm."
"What? Why Ohm too? He's okay with being here with me." Non reassures me but I don't care about what he says. They are both going home and end of story,
Children can't be exposed to stuff like this.
"I don't care. He's going home with Film or she'll be worried about him."
Non gets up "So? He's not a puppet that exists just for your little Film girl. He doesn't want to leave so he won't. You can't always control everything."
He leaves the room and Milk goes after him but he shuts the door in her face. "This little homo is really something." She says a bit annoyed and then sits back on the bed next to me. "But he's right, you can't do that."
"Why not-"
"Are you hearing yourself? It's dangerous for them to leave now and you know we can't move from here or we'll be fucked. This house is away from the city so it's the only place we can stay in and you know damn well that they both don't wanna leave." They think life is so easy? Ohm and Love are not like Film... she's fragile and could break at any time. Even if she tries to act though I can see trough her.
"I was like you when I first met Love, that's why we told you about us just four years later."
Milk Pov [ 16th of June 2017] - Friends for all children, Bangkok -
"Class is dismissed. Get your homework done at page 167"
The English teacher leaves and everyone leaves the class.
"Pansa Vosbein?"
"Yes?"
"Come out for a moment, I have to talk to you."
I walk out of the class and go to the teacher.
"You remember when I told you that someone was disponibile to adopt you?"
She asks and nod but I don't really care. I don't need parents I just can't wait until I turn eighteen and get the hell out of here.
"Yes but you told me this about six months ago."
"Dear, you know this type of procedure takes long."
"Well, just tell the i don't want to go with them."
I say and walk away but she grabs my arm "Don't do this." She holds on to me tightly literally stabbing me with her nails. "Let go bitch!" I grab her arm and throw her agains the wall, then I start running but a group of man, all dressed in black suits stop me and pick me up. What the fuck? Who are these fuckers how? "Let go!" I kick them and punch them but these bastards are too strong " I said fucking let me go!"
"Calm down dear. Why are you so afraid of? I won't hurt you." I hear the voice of a man and when they put me down I see him.
A tall man that's wearing a white suit and black pants. He smells and looks extremely expensive, and judging by how he looks he's probably in his 40s
"I'm Khan."
He takes my hand in his
"And I'll be your father."
He says with a warm smile but I don't really buy this... mh... but he's rich.
"Are you the guy from Tv? I've seen you before you have tons of money." I say and he smiles at me "Well I guess I have a reputation. Yes it's me, and all that money will be yours to if you come with me." He says.
He's probably a bastard but I'm poor as hell and to be realistic this is the best I could ever get.
I hold his hand back
"Alright."
[ Two months later]
Life is going fucking great except from the fact that Khan's an asshole. I discovered that back at my new home I had other two siblings:
Nanon and Namtan.
We get along well and our life his fucking awesome! We own bars, clubs and hotels all gifted by that bastard and we also get to be homeschooled.
Now I'm on the party catamaran, it's a yacht that I bought about two weeks ago. It's so damn cool and it can hold about 50 people in it... so that's what I did.
"You always know best when it comes to parties. All the waitresses are so hot."
Non says as a really cute girl serves him a drink. She doesn't look like she should be here, she's really petite and has long brown hair but indeed he's right, she is hot.
"Get your hands off what's mine. There are plenty of dudes here too, why don't you go and flirt with them? Leave the girls to me." I say as I smile at the two naked women laying next to me. They are probably a bit older, around eighteen or twenty but they still hang around me so it's good.
"Ohh don't be so rude to Non." The girl on my left says with a whiny voice as she places her chin on my shoulder and kisses my cheek. I pat her head and then get up "Where's Namtan?" I ask Non while looking around.
"Dunno she's probably studying somewhere."
That girl only knows how to draw and read chemistry books, I've never seen her have a bit of fun or have a drink since I met her.
"She's probably inside. I'll go look for her." He nods and as I leave I can hear the girls in the back calling for me with a damn annoying voice, I hate that pick me shit. I open the door and look in but I don't see anyone "Nam? Nam are you around here? Come on out its not the time to study noww" I hear a nose from the other room "Found you"
I slam the door open and see the little girl that served the drink to Nanon earlier, but she's half naked, with not top on and the first thing I look at are her breasts and then I realize what the hell I'm doing so I look away immediately "Fuck! I'm sorry!" I close the door as fast as I ca and it's on the couch. Shit! She looks a lot younger than me what the hell did I just do? I'll feel guilty for the rest of my life. She comes out a few seconds later and she looks really uncomfortable. I look up at her "I'm so sorry. I really didn't mean to i know i might look like a pervert but-" she smiles at me "it's ok. I was a bit shocked cuz you walked on me but I'm fine." She says with a sweet smile on her face. "Oh... ok. I'm Milk by the way." I try to change the subject "I'm Love." She looks right at me and in that moment something changes in my mood. "Wanna come outside and get to know my friends?" she nods and I get up but our hands are still tight together after shaking hands.
Namtan Pov
I couldn't sleep all night. All I could think about was Film and the things I said to her.
I have to cover my damn ears just to not listen to Ohm and Nanon banging in the other room. I knock on the wall "It's 6 in the morning you fuckers! Get a hotel room!" I trow myself on the bed annoyed. I flip in and out of the covers and try to fall asleep but is useless. I have to talk to her and fix this. I get up and run to her room but notice that the door is open and that she's not there. "Film?" I look around the house and in her room but no one's there, something's up. I take my gun out and run downstairs and when I arrive...
I see Film going out on the beach. I thought something bad happened...
I place the gun on the table and walk to her.
She sits down on the sand so I do the same "I thought about what I said to you all night." She doesn't answer me and I'm afraid that now she won't want to see me ever again. "And you came here to tell me more?" She says as she looks at me.
"No. I came to apologize to you" she gets up to leave but I drag her back and she falls close to my face. I just want to tell her I wanna be with her, but I'm really scared.
"No... I'm here to say that I was stupid, and that I didn't mean any of it."
She shakes me off and sits back down "I'm not worthy of you."
"No- that's not... I said that just to get you away from be but now I realized that I should just listen to my feelings."
She gets up and runs to the house but I immediately tu after her and hug her.
"You clearly told me that you don't want me then why would I believe you now?"
She tries to push me away but I don't move and keep the contact between us. I can't let her go now because I feel like if I let go now I'll lose her forever.
"Don't go."
"So is there any reason why I have to stay longer?" Her voice is shaking as she asks me this.
"When you were gone, I realized how important you are to me. I want to have you next to me." I hold both of her hands and hug her even tighter.
"I really want to go on a real date with you... I want to me with you when you're sick, when you're fine, when you're happy, when you are sad. I know this might sound unrealistic but I want to be with you even after we die." my tears fall on her shoulder as I'm hugging her too tight right now.
"And I wish I could hate you." She kisses me and I kiss back. The best feeling in the world is this... the feeling of kissing someone for the first time when you wanted to kiss them for a long time.
"GUYS RUN"
Milk steams from the top balcony of the house and I immediately look around us and see that Ohm and Non are fighting with a group of about twenty man and Love is running to help. "You have to run, go and hide"
She shakes her head "Stop pushing me aside. I'm your bodyguard." She takes my hand and we start running to the house. A man points a gun at us as he to me "Fuck! I left the gun in the house." I hold her hand tightly ready to skip the bullets somehow. She gets in front of me and pulls out a gun "stay back" the guy shoots twas us but she is able to make us skip the bullet and then shoots him in the hand he's holding the gun with. I run to him and punch him in the face knowing him out, then I take the gun and we get in the house. On the way there I shoot tree people in the face killing them instantly.
"Take Ohm out of here he's to hurt to fight!" Non nods and runs out with him but some guys go after them so Milk goes to help. In the main time some bitch attacked me and punched me straight in the face making me fall on the ground. "Nam!" Film screams as another man holds her back.
He points the gun at me and I hear a gun shot. "NO!" I see that Film Killed the dude. I thought she was the one who got shot, I almost lost it. The guy on top of me shoots her but misses and fucks up his last bullet so I punch him in the stomach and shoot him in the neck. We run to the van but notice that not all of the guys are dead. It's impossible to take that many people down si we just get in the van and Lobe starts driving. "Fuck! That was close I thought y'all died." Ohm says as he pats Film's shoulder.
"We should go back to the house, Milk, Non. A lot of our work is unfinished and our employees and bodyguards need a salary."
"We have to use the underground house if we wanna keep working in this situation." Nanon says as he unlocks his phone "Shit this is all over the news!"
Ohm Pov
"Are you sure you wanna do this?" He asks me as he places a hand on my shoulder.
"Yeah Non, I'm sure" I look down at his phone and read the news. It's all about us and there are images too... there is a photo of me and him kissing and Khan has been exposed after his death. I have to go home and see my parents, they don't know anything about the fact that I came here and they must be terrified.
"Non... do you, think they saw the news...?"
I'm worried about the picture of us kissing flying around all over the country... my parents are really conservative and if they know about this... I'm not sure what will happen.
"Even if they know about this, they will be happy to see you. You are their son and they will want you back home. It doesn't matter if you like man or woman or both in this situation, don't make it bigger than it is ok? I'll be here for you." He hugs me, and we stay like that for a while. I want him to be with me even if this makes me anxious.
"How are the others doing back at the house?"
"Namtan discovered a document signed by a racer from another company... its Freen, she decided to join and wanted to sabotage Nam."
We talk close to my house and he stops.
"Don't go in."
[There will be one last chapter bc this is too long. This was supposed to be the last one but I guess not 😑]