Life is chaotic... Nothing goes right the first time. You have to solve one problem only for another new trouble to arise.
Don't get me wrong, I am not complaining. I just feel there should be a better system instead of this organized chaos that we have integrated into our lifestyle.
Now who am I, rambling about life, better systems and what not. It's yours truly, AZRAEL, an average Joe who has first-hand experience of this organized chaos system.
In my 23 years of life, I have never been happy for a long period of time. It has always been a fleeting, momentary happiness, which you don't even remember if you look back in time.
It's 10:34 (p.m.) right now, on my way home from work.
This is the monotonous life I am living - from home to work, work to home - for the last three years.
Everyone has a general idea of how their life should go. I too have mine… getting married by 28 to a lovely wife and then two kids by 35... No, scratch that... NO kids... Just me and my lovely wife growing old together and dying peacefully.
But as I said, nothing goes right the first time. So with new equations and relations that I build, there will be new problems, which I'm not used to handling, and honestly this is not the excitement I want when I say I have a monotonous life.
Anyways, I have reached my home and am very tired to even think, about to pass out on my bed, so I will stop this inner monologue of mine halfway, because this contemplation that I was doing is just time-pass for my (1 hr.) long commute from work to home. Nothing is going to change no matter how much I ramble. I will wake up to the same life, so I will reschedule this reflection on my life for tomorrow night.
Or at least that's what I thought... Because as i said, Life is unexpected chaos.
I open my eyes to darkness, instead of my usual home ceiling. A kind of shapeless silent darkness surrounds me, it feels endless. A void so complete, where I can't see, hear, or smell anything. The only sensation I have is touch, and that too because I can feel my body. Other than that, there is no reaction to any of my senses. The very first logical explanation that my mind arrives at is that I am lucid dreaming.
But my instincts or gut feeling, if you say so, tell me otherwise. Something doesn't feel right with whatever I'm going through… Is this some supernatural thing?!
And then suddenly, just as I start to reason with this new place that I am in, as if on cue. I see something in the distance, and make out somewhat of a humanoid silhouette, and as I observe, it is getting closer to me as time passes.
Wait… it's not coming closer, I am moving towards it… Hold on... How am I moving..!?
What the f*ck?!
I am floating in this strange void with no medium, and I'm getting closer and closer to that humanoid silhouette.
After floating for a few minutes, not that I have any sense of time… it just feels like a few minutes have gone by. I have nothing else to understand this void except for this instinctive feeling.. ahh, I'm rambling again.
I am just a few feet away from this humanoid being. And I can clearly make out its structure, whatever it is.. It's human at least… or that's how it appeared at first glance.
The humanoid being is standing with its back to me. As I get closer to it, it slowly turns toward me, and I am scared shitless by what my eyes are witnessing. Apart from the humanoid structure, it has no features that even remotely resemble a human. Heck, It doesn't bear resemblance to anything.
Instead of having a face, it has nothing. It appears naked, but there's nothing on its body to hide. So I can't even consider it as naked. The existence in front of me looks blank, empty, ephemeral like, something which is not supposed to exist, but it's forcing itself upon reality and the only witness to this is me.
Yes, not only can I see him. But my auditory, olfactory senses and every other nerve in my body are forcing me to acknowledge its existence, or else I will cease to exist. I don't know how this is possible, but I will once again trust my instincts.
This is the thing that is making me not even consider the possibility of this being a dream. Just when I am thinking all of this… I hear a voice...
« How did you get into my space, human? »
BOOOM….
The sound cracks through the dark void like lightning, Just from hearing his voice a shock ripples through my entire body confirming the being's presence and compelling me to answer his question...
Mm okay... that seals the deal... This is real... oh fu*k... everything is real... Whatever this being - he/she/it - in front of me is, it is real...
« Answer me, Human..? »
"I... I don't know…"
« You don't know..? »
"Yes, I honestly don't know what I'm doing here. I don't even know what this place is... and about who you are..are..?!"
«I wanted to continue playing mysterious.»
« But.. Ahh! it's annoying to continue like this. I waited for you to sleep. So, that the transition is smoother, then waited for you to get adjusted to the void, and now you're acting.»
« You can drop the act, Azrael. I know you are not scared. »
« I am the one who summoned you here. »
"........ " SILENCE…!!
"How did you know? that I am acting scared?" Azrael looked straight at him and questioned. The change was so abrupt, that it was really creepy, but the entity continued without acknowledging the shift.
« Didn't I just say? I am the one who summoned you here Azrael, I know everything about you. »
« I know from the moment you woke up, you have been pretending. »
« I am aware of your simultaneously present dual personality. »
« So it is not exactly correct to say that you are acting, it's more like you are hiding one side of yourself. »
"......" SILENCE..!!
I go silent again. My darkest secret has been laid bare in front of me. I have no words to say to this being who knows me in and out.
After a while,
"Why have you summoned me..?"
« Oh, you're finally showing more of the other side. »
"......."
" I want to know why?! "
« Don't get impatient, Azrael. We're just getting started here. »
« As for the reason that you're here, well, it's to give you a chance to escape your monotonous life and the organized chaos system. »
"How can I escape?" Azrael was going through too much and was responding without any rationale.
« Again impatience, Azrael. You're thinking too much and losing your calm, hence forgetting the initial questions WHO and WHY ME? »
"........"
"Who are you?" The questions were changing without any consideration. He was reacting way too fast. But as if understanding Azrael's mind, the being continued to entertained him.
« You can say I am The Creator. »
« I am an entity out of the scope of existence and reality. »
« You would have never seen, heard or read about me. Because there is no ME. »
« I don't exist. »
"But you do, You're right here."
« I am just present here so it is easy for you to understand my existence, which is Non-existent. »
"Ahhh... But you exist right in front of me, yet you claim you're Non-existent. Are... you God..?!"
« You are losing yourself, Azrael. I can see the shifts in your personality happening frequently. »
« Don't worry, I am not here to harm you. »
« And to answer your question, no, I am not a God. I am way above what you consider to be GOD. »
GULP.
I take deep breaths to calm myself down and there is no choice but to believe in this being's words. I can't play with someone who calls himself above god, to back his claim, he pulled me into a goddamn void. How can I question his existence? So, I ready myself to not miss this so called opportunity that he is offering because of my foolishness.
"Then what is this chance you mentioned?"
« Well, to make it easier for you to understand. I will be reincarnating you into a new world with a personalized system. »
« It's not exactly a system, it is much more complicated than that... It involves a part of my... self... Azrael... Azrael, are you listening to what I am saying? »
Deafening silence. My mind went bonkers! when I heard the words REINCARNATION and SYSTEM...
It's a dream come true for every nerd, dweeb, and otaku out there. And I can't believe, that I am the one who will live the dream of millions of people.
« Azrael... Azrael... Are you paying attention to what I am saying?! »
"Ahem.Yes, yess... So, new world and system."
"And YES, I am ready to accept this chance in exchange for anything... anything." his voice was laced with desparation.
« Pfft... hahaha! Look at you. I feel like you're ready to bet everything, even your soul and life, just to experience this opportunity. »
« Hahaha! Like I said, don't worry. I am not here to harm you in any way. »
« Nor am I here to force you into some sort of contract or deal that takes away your freedom. »
« I am just here to offer you a chance, an opportunity! »
"I accept your offer."