You ever wondered what it feels like to be a lonely person with people around you but you have no support like you have all the things you love and you feel like the world is collapsing and there's no exit well I'm Amanda Dlamini I'm 15 years old is just say I'm not rich not am I poor I was raised by both parents but dad had to stay at Johannesburg for work reasons and so I never knew a father's love every morning but he loves me well being a teen has taught me a lot actually and I've been almost too overwhelmed
Chapter 2
I'm that type of girl who is strong when she makes no one happy but becomes weak when I make everyone happy like not that i love making people sad it's just that when I'm good at something I become weak and only I can see that because it's something only I feel and if I no longer am good I become strong well enough chit chat I met a friend today well we've been friends for over 10 years now and then life happened and today I'm meeting with her
Naledi: long time no see Amanda (she looks fat but cuter)
I last saw her when she was just 10 years old
Me:hi girl (she looks at me like she is pissed)
Naledi:how has life been
Me: well where do I even start
Naledi:just tell me more.....
Me : okay well everything has been great I won't say much cause she scams people well let me tell you more about her Naledi used to be my closest and bestest friend but when her mom fell sick she changed I always visited her and one day her mom asked for a glass of water then when I came back Naledi was holding her mom crying her eyes out I did all I could to support her since her dad left her at an early age but instead all that was just making her turn against me well puberty hit me at an early age then one day I arrived at school and everyone was laughing at me I wondered why and Aphiwe one of my classmates showed me a post saying I poisoned people and killed them that's why I always act nice so I had to change schools I even wanted to end my life right there and then but I didn't cause I had a supportive mother
Chapter 3
Two years later I got to high School and I was the type of person who would fall In love quickly but I just didn't know how to love and with all that I never found a person who I can say I really loved cause even if it's a boy who plays with girls if he just says I love you oh god I become a tomato and the time I went to high School I was just a bit relaxed for my liking I knew I was a top student in my primary School but when I got there it showed me flames but I kept on going and there I met a guy who kinda claimed he liked me and in just two days I liked him back well I've had almost ten boyfriends okay then we never dated but there was this guy called Samkelo Buthelezi I don't know there was a funny thing about his walk and I made a friend in high school and as time went by he kept on looking at me and one day I left my bag in class and his friends locked the door forcing me to speak with him well time went by we started dating and he wasn't my type but I loved him and there wasn't a straight connection or something but we like loved each other and he had a friend called Bayanda Zwane and we chatted on WhatsApp with Bayanda it was really good.....
Bayanda:hi, I finally got ur number
Me:Uhm ,hi who is this
Bayanda:it's Bayanda Zwane
Me:oh hi (I was a bit happy)
We chatted for what seemed like hours and he was always there for me even when my parents went through a divorce he was the only one who knew when I was raped he was the only one who seemed like he cared and on the other hand my boyfriend never noticed that after my parents went through a divorce things were different I was left alone having to hustle on my own while mom had an irritating boss who wanted her to be 24/7 at work I never knew what work she was working at cause I had never seen her in like four years and dad met with a car accident which needed a lot of money for him to be treated and we didn't have that much
Chapter 4
In what seemed like a Crossroads of life and death Bayanda offered me a place to stay in we stayed together and we pretended to be lost brother and sister at school we dated for a very long time I didn't love him but I was happy and then things started changing he would always kiss me in unexpected places with people and they slowly started to suspect and I was absent for the whole week because mom was found dead near the crempsire road in town and dad had been in a come since two years ago
Chapter 5
I just lost my life purpose by the age of 14 I dropped out of school and made my way to Johannesburg and I was hoping for a better life with my uncle and JHB was just R15 away cause I lived in Pretoria and Bayanda was still there as a support system and things were going good between me and Samkelo.
Will continue please share đ