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When he confessed, I was shocked… and confused about my own feelings.
I mean—maybe it was what I wanted. Maybe it wasn't.
I thought I should reject him, but then he would get hurt.
Wait. What if he was just making fun of me again, like he used to? After all, who would love a girl like me? I'm not even pretty.
So I replied,
"lol bro, nice joke."
I still remember how last year he used to make fun of me with his so-called friends. And now he was proposing to me? How was I supposed to believe this?
He replied,
"I'm not joking. It may be a joke for you, but for me, this is what I'm feeling right now."
Was it really true… or was I dreaming?
Brhhh.
I replied,
"Hey, let me tell you already—I have trust issues."
He said,
"I have them too. We're so similar."
I asked,
"Then how can I trust you?"
He replied,
"Neither will I leave you, nor will I let you leave me. I don't know about you, but my feelings for you won't change."
Arhhh. I can't fall for this again, I thought—just as he messaged again.
"So what's your answer?"
I replied,
"Umm… I need time."
He said gently,
"Okay. I'll wait for your answer. By the way, don't tell your friends that I confessed."
"Why?" I asked.
He replied,
"There are some reasons. I'll tell you later—just keep it private."
I said,
"Arhh… can I at least tell my best friend, Ava?"
He refused.
"You'll tell her that Max is your boyfriend, and then she'll tell others, and soon everyone in school will know."
So now I couldn't even tell her—someone I trusted, someone who hated gossip. How was I supposed to hide this from her?
Then he said,
"By the way, good night. I'll wait for your answer."
"Okay, good night," I replied.
Then he said,
"I love you."
Gosh.
I think I had already fallen for him. Why was I feeling this way?
I didn't want to reply, so I just liked his message and sent "hehe."
He liked my message too.
The next day.
I woke up, remembered everything from last night, and opened Instagram immediately. He had messaged me.
"Good morning."
"Umm… good morning, hehe," I replied.
He asked,
"So, may I know your answer?"
"Umm… I'm sorry, I'm still confused."
"It's okay. Take your time."
Then he sent me his photo.
"By the way, this is how I look."
Gosh.
He looked so damn handsome.
I didn't want things between us to get too serious, so I joked,
"Oh really? Thanks for telling me—I didn't know."
He played along.
"Okay, now that you know what I look like… what's your plan?"
What was he talking about? Yesterday? Arhhh.
"Umm… what do you mean?" I asked.
He said,
"Do you want to accept me as your life partner?"
I couldn't deny it anymore. I knew I had already fallen for him. Maybe I should just give him a chance.
So I said,
"Ummm… just know that I didn't reject you."
"Wait… are you accepting my proposal?"
"Hehe… yup."
He got so happy and sent a voice note:
"Gosh, I wasn't expecting this. I'm really happy right now. But there's a problem. I need some time. We don't really know each other yet, so I think we should talk as friends for now, and then get into a relationship."
What he said made sense, so I agreed.
Then I asked,
"Umm… sorry to ask, but why did you and Kate break up?"
"Her mother saw us together."
"So that's why she broke up?"
"Umm… you know that's the problem."
He sent another voice note:
"Actually, her mother saw us together, and after that we stopped talking. One day she asked me if being in a relationship is important. I said no. I thought we broke up because she started flirting with other boys, but she never let me talk to other girls. That's why I asked you for time—so I can break up properly."
I said,
"I think you should talk to her clearly."
He sent another voice note:
"I can't hurt her. I think I still love her… or maybe I don't. I love you too. I can't hurt her, and I can't hurt you."
But his words had already hurt me.
"Umm… okay. I'll wait for you then," I said.
"Thanks," he replied.
I was hurt by the fact that he was the one who proposed first, yet I was the one waiting.
And he admitted that he still loved her.
How can someone love two people at the same time?
To be continued…