Ten days have passed since Eigi and others came here.
And the Condo family is facing serious charges but Ichika is slipping past our fingers. She is indeed smart. But My and Max's plan will surely get her expelled by next month during the next exam. Plus using Miyuki and Condo against her is reassuring.
I cannot tell the changes in everybody but I can sense the loyalty they have for their friends. These people are really strange in my eyes. The loyalty to protect someone precious to you. Taking care, giving love like someone can't sue it against them. I wonder will I ever see them as just classmates or something more.
Around noon I started writing a love letters in a unique hand writing only a few people understand.
The love letter was directed to the school president. And though this is a love letter it wasn't for the student council president. But a bait to expel her, and he was all in the plan.
And around noon I was finished with the letter, writing it was something out of a horror movie. Because of the amount of pressure it came with. The pressure of pouring down your feeling. And yet there is still a chance you could be rejected. I have to say they really have the courage.
I woke up around 7 the next morning,
Then I did my morning routine and got ready for breakfast, which was tea and bread. After that I ironed my uniform. Cleaned the apartment and got out of there.
And as I got out into the freezing town, the slightest sense of guilt came on my face. Expelling someone seems to take something from you. It takes courage and the will to do so.
Then I made my way to the school, the president Nagumo was standing in the door.
Is the plan in motion.
Yeah,
Okay, looks like I have put on my serious face.
Yeah, I will give it to her, then she will give it to you but you have to put on an act. That is where the plan really starts.
Sure.
After 10 mins of waiting, she finally came to school. And to make it less suspicious I gave the letter to a girl in my class. Then she went to the student council president. But he acted serious and dropped the letter on the ground before waking off.
She read the letter and understood the secret meaning behind it. Then later all her victims walked in the room.
Condo: Yes president. She asked me to break them up.
Miyuki: And she introduced me to him
And while all this was going on the institution workers came and took her. She cried, mainly because she didn't achieve her goal. She read the letter, which was one of the main reasons why she got expelled. Then she started fighting and guards and injuring many of them. Shs spoke out of place and said I want to kill Max and Eigi. All this were states of attempted murder and slender. All this was planned by me and Max who made the plan and I did the actions. She was expelled but I have to say I felt guilty but still she had to go. She was too dangerous for the school. Plus Eigi's future was in the line here so I really had no choice. Or was there anything I would have done I wonder!
Ichika's perspective:
What is Jealousy? really, I wonder about the meaning sometimes.
For me, it is my emotional drive that pushes me forward. The feeling that pushes me to try my best. It helps me to try and push beyond my limits. So for me it's a drive that impels me to try my best. To try and surpass "him" the only one I fear.
But when I asked their's for their meaning it is an emotion that happens when someone feels afraid of losing something important- like a relationship, achievement, or trust. The feeling of fear, anxiety, trust issues all accompany this, so I wonder I do I feel Jealousy towards the person they call the god of the Nexus.
"Max Tsukasa"
I guess maybe I do.
But who could blame me, even though I try my hardest. It is always the same cold response that came from instructors.
"Max did so much better than you".
And maybe I guess this is where my hatred for him really started.
For what was a beautiful rivalry and competition, it quickly turned into a messy and dangerous hatred. Directed towards only him.
And now that he has finally chosen a different path forward. I wonder?
For all the things I threw away, all the things I could have got, I wonder were they worth it. And as deep as I think about it is and always will be the same answer.
"NO"
They were always worth more.
But when I realized that it was too late. I had thrown everything away for a selfish dream I could never accomplish. And as I look in my Rial's beep blue eyes.
I saw a change,
Maybe he wanted to help but he couldn't we both were alike.
We are all trying to escape a dark hole but we are fundamentally different people.
From the start he gained friends who helped him from his ups and downs. And though he doesn't understand friendship he really knows. How to keep them. And maybe that is why he could ignore the bullying they do.
I wonder, will I ever see the world as clear as him. Would I see the world as maturely as him.
And maybe this will be my speculation, but somehow I know we will see each other again. But this time in the outside world.
I just wish Eigi would forgive me one day. He was never the target and yet I caused him so much suffering. Please I am sorry, and from now on I will try my best to be a good citizen.