"What?" Felix's voice was low, almost teasing. His large hand brushed against Hiro's burning cheeks.
Hiro felt a wave of weakness over him at the sight of Felix's eager expression. He couldn't bring himself to refuse him and ruin it—not when he, too, had been yearning for his touch over the past month.
Taking a shaky breath, Hiro shook his head and wrapped his arms around Felix's neck. Slowly, he pulled him closer and pressed a gentle kiss to his lips.
"59 days," Hiro spoke softly, locking gaze with the man before him. "It's been 59 days."
"That's more like it," Felix murmured with a chuckle. Without hesitation, he pulled off his shirt, revealing his toned physique and six-pack abs glistening faintly under the light.
Hiro brushed his fingers on the firm body, a soft smile forming on his face.
At least… For tonight, he is mine.
He thought, his desires finally turning into reality.
"Let me—" Hiro was interrupted by another assertive peck while he tried to take off his shirt as well.
The man in front of him was clearly driven by his carnal desires and not feelings like Hiro but he didn't mind.
This alone was enough for him.
Felix pulled out of the kiss, his fingers brushing through Hiro's skin and stopping at his nipples. He pinched them softly and instinctively, the man below him flinched, a gasp escaping his mouth.
"Y-You have never done this," Hiro whispered, his voice shaky.
"It's good to experience new things," Felix whispered under his heavy breath, moving his mouth close to Hiro's peaks and giving a lick to each of them.
Hiro's hands caressed Felix's body, stopping on his crotch. He bit his bottom lip, his dick hardening.
"You're hard already?" he chuckled teasingly.
"Don't," Felix growled, his gaze locked onto Hiro's crystal blue eyes. "Let me do everything tonight," he whispered against his ear, biting his earlobe aggressively.
Hiro moaned softly, giving him a nod, his eyes focused on Felix. His heart raced rapidly. Finally, he could have the man he loved all to himself for another night.
Just as Felix reached for Hiro's pants, he stopped him.
"Let's move to the bedroom. It's a little uncomfortable on the couch…"
The hesitation in Hiro's voice was evident. However, unexpectedly to him, Felix didn't get mad. He surprisingly smiled at him and kissed his cheek.
"Alright." Picking Hiro into his arms, Felix carried him to the bedroom, shutting the door.
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The irritating beep of the alarm clock went off and Hiro opened his eyes, grabbing his phone.
He turned and snoozed the alarm, getting up abruptly. He let out a loud groan, the back in his pain still as strong as last night when he had sex with Felix.
"You're awake?" Felix grumbled, still half asleep, lying in bed. His body was barely covered with the white blanket.
Hiro's gaze softened at the sight of the half-asleep man in his bed. He gently reached for his shoulder, tapping him carefully.
In the bathroom, he limped slightly. The pain lingered—but not just in his body.
When he returned, Felix was already on his phone, eyes glued to the screen.
Jealousy burned low in Hiro's chest. He tried to ignore it.
"Bathroom's free."
Felix didn't even look at him.
Just murmured, "Okay."
After getting dressed, Hiro's gaze drifted to the phone on the nightstand.
Don't.
His entire being screamed, forbidding him. But his hand moved before he could stop it.
The screen lit up. A familiar face stared back at him—another young actor.
Handsome.
Smiling.
Hiro locked the screen and set the phone down quickly exactly where it was, heart pounding.
You did it again. You promised you wouldn't.
The last time he checked Felix's phone was the first time they slept together. Back when he still had pride.
But pride never stood a chance against love.
They weren't lovers—they were simple fuck-buddies.
"Because Felix doesn't love anyone," Hiro reminded himself.
These people were no different than toys to him. One would come, another would leave.
Hence, Hiro assumed it was better to be the person who stayed by his side, as a friend with benefits rather than being one of those Felix disposed of once he was done with his fun.
He constantly repeated so to himself, as if reassuring his already broken heart that it wouldn't shatter again.
"Why aren't you eating?" Felix grabbed Hiro's hand and took a bite of the food he was about to eat without permission.
The blonde-haired man's cheeks flushed a light pink, but he quickly pulled back his hair, trying to hide his complexion.
"Ah, damn it," the dark-haired man complained, staring at his phone.
"What is it?"
"Just some guy I met with recently. He keeps asking me to sleep with him already."
Hiro didn't reply. He simply continued his breakfast, as if he hadn't heard anything at all despite the irritating sensation in his stomach.
"Are you upset?" Felix teased. "Jealous?"
"Why would I be?"
"Right. And he isn't clean."
Clean…
Hiro scoffed inwardly.
"And I am?"
"Yes. Of course. You only sleep with me," Felix winked but Hiro didn't react to it. His heart felt too heavy to feel anything at all.
"Did you memorize your lines? It's the first shooting today," Hiro said, trying to change the subject.
"I-I will do it in the car!"
✻✻✻
"You should have come with your own car," Hiro sighed, stepping out of his car.
Then, he opened the door for Felix, who was focused on his script.
"My, isn't that Mr. Leroy, Mr. Auclair? I can't believe we are working together again!" A female voice spoke, approaching the two men.
"Miss Kim Ji-Ha!" Hiro put on a professional smile, extending his hand. "We are glad to work with you again."
"Mr. Auclair became quite popular after his first movie. But… why is it that only you came with him? Where are the rest of his team?"
"Well, he…"
"We are best friends, actually, apart from coworkers," Felix wrapped his arm around Hiro's shoulder.
"Oh! How did I forget?" Ji-Ha giggled. "You two should have been the leads!"
"Let's go inside," Hiro suggested, pushing Felix's arm away from his shoulder. He had told him countless times in the past that he shouldn't get physical with any of his coworkers as a star—not even him. Rumours travelled faster than anything after all.
But perhaps it was simply his way of asking him not to lay hands on anyone else the way Felix did to him. It twisted his stomach in a way even he couldn't understand.
Once he entered the set, Hiro promptly greeted the crew, familiarizing himself with the set.
Today, they were shooting inside a room, an intimate scene between the two leads. However, at the peak moment, the second male lead would enter the room, getting heartbroken to see his lover in bed with another.
"How pathetic. Just like my love story," Hiro scoffed inwardly, reading through the script.