It was stormy with moonlight falling over us . The sound of rain falling was fading slowly .
The woman I love ,
The woman I proposed to ,
The woman for whom I gave everything was on her knees in front of me holding our daughter tightly .
With the thundering sound, her sweet voice I heard
" Don't come near us , please , please . If you love us , don't come near us .
Go away. "
The reason I was sane after going through everything was her .
As my foot moved , I could see my reflection on the knife she pointed at me .
And now all the voices were gone . All the noise rain was making or the words she was saying .
Only my eyes were working . I was staring at her and our eyes were locked .
I could see fear in her eyes and knew it's pointless now , so I stepped out of the room . Slowly . One foot after another and found myself thinking
" Where should I go "
And decided to go to my room first .
As we were in my house , my room was steps away .
Suddenly the sound of slow music filled the house.
Leaving our daughter behind, she walked out to check and saw me standing still in my room .staring at the speaker as I was taking my shirt off .
Our eyes locked and in that moment , I pointed my index and middle fingers at my head .
" BOOM "
The speaker stopped working for a moment.
The bedsheet was covered in crimson now , so was her face .
And my dead body was laying in the pool of blood with a hole in my skull .
Our eyes were still locked .
As I was falling to the ground , the fiace I saw was not scared of me but it was also not the one I loved the most .
She was not smiling .
When I was a kid , I was scared of ghosts.
As time passed away and I grew up, I was more scared of something else .
Something very vast , something very unpredictable and I was scared of that unpredictability.
I was scared of human emotions .
Loneliness, solitude , grief , regrets . They can kill a man even if he is not dead .
In my case , I am dead too .
The one thing that I didn't believe in punished me fir commiting suicide.
Destiny punished me .
My eyes opened and I woke up panting .
I saw my bedroom ceiling like every other day .
I heard someone running and in a few seconds , she was standing in front of my bedroom gate.
" Are you ok ? "
" Yeah , what happened ? "
I saw her puzzled face as I responded.
Slowly I stood up and walked towards her and hugged her .
" I don't know how you felt it , but thanks for coming here .
I guess I was having a nightmare but the good part is , I can't even remember it ."
I couldn't remember it .
I couldn't remember that I have been living the same day for the past 4 years .