Stephen and I were still laughing when we stepped into the house.
The sound of it followed us in — careless, unfiltered, almost too loud for the quiet hallway that greeted us.
He was teasing me about the way I had nearly tripped on the school steps earlier, exaggerating the stumble as if I had performed some dramatic fall in front of the entire student body. I told him to stop. He refused. The harder I tried to look offended, the worse he made it.
For a few seconds, it felt like nothing was wrong in the world.
For a few seconds, I wasn't the girl people whispered about in corridors.
I was just a sister walking home with her brother.
The laughter died the moment we saw Mom standing near the dining table.
She wasn't angry. That would've been easier. Anger has heat. It burns and disappears.
This was something else.
She looked like someone who had been waiting.
"Jane," she said carefully. "The principal called today."
The air shifted. I felt it before I processed the words.
I didn't even let her continue.
"It's nothing," I said quickly, dropping my bag on the chair. "It's not a big deal."
Her eyes narrowed slightly — not in suspicion, but in concern. The kind that weighs more than anger.
"If the principal calls, it usually is a big deal."
I didn't want to stand there. I didn't want to explain. I didn't want Zack's name echoing in this house like it was some kind of problem.
"I'm tired," I cut in, sharper than I meant to. "I'll talk about it later."
Without waiting for her reply, I walked past her and climbed the stairs.
Each step felt heavier than it should have.
The door to my room closed with a soft click, but it felt louder inside my chest.
I leaned against it for a moment, staring at nothing.
Why does everything have to become an interrogation?
Before Dad died, Mom used to trust me. She used to laugh when I made reckless decisions. She used to say, "You'll learn."
She let me learn.
Now it feels like she's afraid to let me breathe.
I crossed the room and picked up my headphones from my desk. Music has always been the safest place I know. No opinions. No comparisons. No past haunting the present.
I lay down on my bed and pressed play.
Soft piano filled my ears, gentle and steady. The rhythm was calm, predictable — unlike my thoughts.
The ceiling above me looked the same as it always had. Plain. Unchanged. Constant.
I wondered when things became this complicated.
I wondered why liking someone automatically feels like danger.
Zack didn't cause the whispers.
He didn't start the rumors. He just stood beside me when others decided I was an easy target. And somehow that makes him suspicious.
Luke says Zack is "just like him."
That sentence alone is enough to suffocate me.
He is not like him.
He is not.
I closed my eyes, but that only made the thoughts louder.
Maybe Mom isn't trying to control me.
Maybe she's scared.
Maybe losing Dad taught her that everything good can disappear without warning.
But why does her fear feel like a cage?
A knock interrupted my thoughts.
"Jane."
Stephen's voice.
I didn't answer immediately.
The door opened slowly, and he stepped inside without asking, like he always does. He sat on the edge of my bed, elbows resting on his knees.
"Dinner's ready," he said quietly. "They're waiting."
I stared at the ceiling.
"I'll come," I said finally. "But if she brings up the call again, I'm leaving."
He hesitated.
"She won't," he said.
I turned my head slightly. "Promise?"
He nodded.
That was enough for me to sit up.
The dining table felt unusually formal that night.
Grandma was already seated. Alex was scrolling through her phone. Mom was placing dishes in the center of the table with careful precision, like arranging fragile glass.
For a few minutes, it was normal.
We talked about small things.
Stephen mentioned something about his college project. Grandma complained about the rising price of vegetables. Alex laughed at something on her screen.
I almost allowed myself to relax.
Then Mom looked at me.
"So," she said gently, as if testing fragile ice, "how is this new boy? Zack, right?"
My fork paused mid-air.
"He's fine," I replied.
"I heard there was trouble today."
"He defended me," I said, my voice controlled.
Mom inhaled slowly. "Sometimes, Jane, being around certain people brings unnecessary attention."
There it was.
Stay away.
I felt the familiar tightening in my chest.
"I didn't do anything wrong."
"I know," she said. "But what if this becomes like before?"
The word before hovered between us.
Before.
My ex.
The mistakes.
The humiliation.
"He's not the same," I said, more firmly now.
"You don't know that yet."
Something snapped.
"I do," I insisted.
Grandma cleared her throat softly. "It's better to listen to your mother."
Stephen shifted beside me. "Mom, you said you wouldn't bring it up."
"I am her mother," she replied sharply. "I know what's best."
The room felt smaller.
"What if he turns out like your ex?" she added, almost pleading now.
That was it.
I pushed my chair back, the sound scraping loudly against the floor.
"Stop comparing him," I said, my voice shaking despite my effort to steady it. "Stop comparing everyone to him."
"Jane, sit down," Mom ordered.
But I was already walking away.
The hallway upstairs felt colder.
I didn't cry immediately. I was too angry for tears.
Why does everyone think I can't tell the difference?
Why does Luke get to decide who Zack is?
Why does my past have to follow me like a permanent shadow?
I entered my room and began pacing. My thoughts were chaotic, colliding with each other.
"I hate him," I muttered — meaning Luke. "I hate him."
My eyes landed on the photo frame sitting on my desk.
The picture of me and my ex.
We looked happy in it.
That's the cruelest part.
I walked toward it slowly and picked it up. My fingers tightened around the frame. For a second, I imagined letting it shatter against the wall. Watching the glass break. Watching that version of me disappear.
Before I could move, the door opened.
"Jane."
Alex.
She stepped inside quietly, as if entering a space filled with something fragile.
"Why does everyone compare him?"
I burst out. "Zack is not like him. Even Luke keeps saying he is. I hate Luke. I hate him so much."
My voice cracked.
Alex crossed the room and gently took the frame from my hands. She set it back on the desk without saying anything.
And then she pulled me into her arms.
That was when the anger dissolved.
The tears came quietly at first — slow, unwilling. Then heavier.
I wasn't just crying about dinner.
I was crying because I'm tired of being measured against my worst decision.
After a few minutes, she loosened her hold but didn't let go completely.
"Do you like him?" she asked softly.
I wiped my face with the back of my hand.
"Maybe," I admitted. "I like him as a friend. But… maybe more."
She smiled faintly. "Is he at least good-looking?"
A laugh escaped me unexpectedly.
"He's both pretty and hot."
"Show me."
I picked up my phone and opened his Instagram.
She leaned closer.
The moment she saw his picture, her eyebrows lifted.
"Oh."
"What?"
"Now I understand."
"Understand what?"
"Why girls are targeting you."
I looked at the screen again.
Maybe she wasn't wrong.
Alex handed my phone back.
"Mom isn't trying to hurt you," she said gently. "She's scared. But being scared doesn't mean you stop living."
I sat beside her on the bed, the storm inside me finally quieting.
"I don't want to repeat the past," I whispered.
"You won't," she said. "Not if you've learned."
For the first time that night, I felt understood.
Not judged.
Not compared.
Just understood.
And sometimes, that's enough.
Alex was still watching me when the silence stretched too long.
"Well, Jane," she said at last, her voice softer now, almost careful, "do you think he likes you?"
I let out a small breath and looked down at my hands. They were resting on my lap, fingers twisting together like they were trying to untangle something invisible.
"I don't think he dislikes me," I said slowly.
"Maybe he likes me."
Alex straightened immediately. "There is no maybe, Jane."
Her tone wasn't harsh. It was firm — like she was trying to push me out of the fog I was standing in.
"Life is short and long at the same time," she continued. "Tell me something honestly. Does he make you feel safe?"
The question caught me off guard.
Safe.
Not excited. Not nervous. Not impressed.
Safe.
"Yes," I answered without thinking.
"Does he protect you?"
"Yes."
"Is he different when he's around you?"
I hesitated, but only for a second. "Yes."
She gave a small nod, as if she had already known the answers before asking the questions.
"Then yes," she said quietly. "He likes you."
The certainty in her voice made my chest tighten.
But that wasn't the real weight pressing against me.
"No," I said, shaking my head slightly.
"That's not my problem, Alex."
Her eyebrows drew together. "Then what is it?"
I swallowed. My throat suddenly felt dry.
"Well… he asked me to go to dinner with him."
The words felt bigger once they were spoken aloud.
I looked up to see her reaction.
She froze.
"What do you mean he asked you?" she said, almost whispering.
"Yeah," I murmured. "He asked if I'd have dinner with him."
The room felt different after that. The air heavier. Like we had stepped into new territory without realizing it.
"Should I go?" I asked.
The question slipped out of me before I could stop it.
For a moment, Alex didn't answer. She was studying me again — not judging, not mocking — just thinking.
"I don't know, Jane," she said honestly. "It's your choice."
I let out a frustrated breath and looked away.
"Why is everyone telling me it's my choice?" I asked quietly. "Please… just give me a little guidance."
Because I was tired of being told I was strong enough to decide.
Sometimes strength feels like loneliness.
Alex moved from the wall and sat beside me on the bed. The mattress dipped slightly under her weight.
"Jane," she said gently, "people say it's your choice because you're the one who has to live with it. Not Mom. Not me."
I stared at the floor.
"What are you afraid of?" she asked.
I didn't answer immediately.
"I'm afraid," I whispered, "that if I say yes, something will go wrong. And if I say no, I'll regret it."
There it was.
Not fear of him.
Fear of repeating pain.
Alex was quiet for a moment before she spoke again.
"Then don't say yes because you're lonely," she said. "And don't say no because you're scared."
I slowly looked at her.
"Say yes if being with him feels peaceful. If you can sit across from him and still feel like yourself. And if it doesn't work out…" she shrugged gently, "…you're not the same girl you were before."
Her words settled somewhere deep inside me.
I wasn't the same girl.
I had learned.
I had survived.
"But what if Mom finds out?" I asked softly.
Alex smiled slightly. "We'll deal with Mom later."
Despite everything, a small laugh escaped me.
The tension in my chest eased just a little.
"Jane," she added, her voice softer now, "you deserve to experience things without constantly expecting them to break."
I didn't respond right away.
Instead, I leaned back against the headboard and stared at the ceiling again — the same ceiling I had stared at earlier when everything felt overwhelming.
But now it felt different.
Not lighter.
Just clearer.
Maybe this isn't about whether he likes me.
Maybe it's about whether I'm brave enough to step forward without dragging my past behind me.
"I'll think about it," I said finally.
Alex squeezed my hand once before standing up.
"Whatever you decide," she said as she walked toward the door, "make sure it's because you want to. Not because you're afraid."
When she left, the room was quiet again.
But this time, the silence didn't feel suffocating.
It felt like a pause before something new.
And for the first time that night, I wasn't sure whether that terrified me —
or made me hopeful.
Alex was halfway to the door when she suddenly stopped, like she had just remembered something.
"At least," she said, turning back to me with a grin that didn't match the seriousness from a minute ago, "your love life isn't as bad as Stephen's."
I blinked. "What?"
She laughed under her breath and leaned against the doorframe.
"Come on, Jane. That girl from his class? The one who keeps 'accidentally' texting him about assignments?"
Realization slowly dawned on me.
"Oh," I said, and then I couldn't stop the small smile forming on my face. "Yeah."
"I asked him the other day," I continued, sitting up straighter now. "I literally asked him whether she's falling for him."
Alex raised an eyebrow. "And?"
"He looked at me like I'd asked him a math question," I said. "He just went, 'No.'"
Alex burst out laughing.
"Exactly," she said. "Stephen is completely clueless."
I laughed too — properly this time. Not the forced kind I use at dinner tables. Not the brittle kind that hides something underneath. A real one.
For a moment, the heaviness in my chest loosened.
It felt strange how quickly emotions could shift. One minute I was crying into my sister's shoulder, convinced the world was against me.
The next, we were standing in my room joking about our brother's inability to read obvious signs.
"Poor girl," Alex added dramatically. "She's probably dropping hints like breadcrumbs and he's walking right past them."
"That sounds like him," I admitted.
There was something comforting about this — about the normalcy of sibling teasing. It reminded me that not everything in this house revolved around fear or caution or past mistakes.
Some things were still simple.
Alex studied me again, but this time her expression was lighter.
"See?" she said softly. "You're overthinking. At least you know there's something there. Stephen doesn't even know he's in a situation."
I shook my head, smiling.
"Maybe we're all clueless in our own ways."
"Maybe," she agreed.
She pushed herself off the doorframe and opened the door slightly.
"Think about the dinner," she said gently.
"But don't think so much that you scare yourself out of something good."
Before leaving, she added with a teasing look, "And if you go, at least tell me what you're wearing. I need details."
I rolled my eyes. "Get out."
She laughed and disappeared down the hallway.
When the door closed, the room felt warmer somehow.
Stephen — clueless.
Alex — confident.
Mom — afraid.
Me — somewhere in between.
I lay back against my pillow and stared at my phone on the bedside table.
Dinner.
The word didn't feel terrifying anymore.
It felt possible.
And that was new.
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