Chapter 1: bestfriend vs crush
I am lyra. I am a highschool student in her senior year. I know at this crucial time everyone should focusing on their studies but i am facing a problem i know most of us go through or may only am going through it? It does not matter actually.To tell the truth i have a crush on someone for a long time. His name is Ben Smith. Though he doesn't have a alian watch like Omnitrix. He loves science and biology is his favorite subject. And i love to see him when he explains something excitedly to his friends .He is just too cute.You can say "why you not just talk with discuss with him to and become a part of his group?"because.... I started to stutter when ever he try to talk to me!,i can't think of anything it just feel my mind is going through a overloading problem i can't think of anything and can't even give a normal smile! It's really fu@king hard!!my face feels like lt has fully gone stiff!for some guys it's a thing that can only happen in Korean/Chinese darma. I will not lie i love watching dramas but its not the reason for my face to go stiff its.... It's just happen you know.... Though i am talking so much i am actually a very shy person with a lot of anxiety, so it gets really complicated.it just mess. It is the story of me,Lyra crushing her crush and trying to understand the world.
Highschool life is the time most of the student try different things in their life when some are following their Passion, some are also wasting time to enjoy their life to the level that someone might think they are living the last year of their life.And to be frank i am one of them. My asian mom always make me understand how much of a trash i am by senting me videos of children of are their own companys already. I don't even feel heart or jealous a bit cause i know i am different i am a trash! A not recycle able trash. So like others my parents send me to tutoring classes to become a future nine to five employee. They signed me to science and math classes and i always gets mocked by my teacher for being not as good as my topper Friend Rose. Rose is a girl everyone likes. I never understand how its possible, its not like we are inside a story and she is the main carector. With time i understand its possible because she is good at things that people care about good grades, looks, gentle demeanor, charming and energetic personality. I sometimes (most of the time actually) used to think that she is too much perfect but my has changed now.Before i use to admire her because everyone like her and was one of the stupid people that was care about her. But now i am jealous of her because my crush also likes her. Just imagine your crush liking your bestfriend who you care about more then anybody else and that my situation.Though i want to tell him but is afraid of rejection, though he can't have his crush nor can i..... all i can wish everyday is for him to love at me!
And only look at me!!!!