Subha ka waqt tha Hawa halke se tandi thi ,jaise raat ki thakaan abhi poori tarah gayi na ho . Main khidki ke paas khadi bahar ka asmaan dekh rahi thi halka glazing bilkul naya mujhe hamesha lagta tha ki har subha apne saath ek nayi umeed learning aati hai ek nayi shuruaat, shayad ek naya jawab .
Meri diary bed ke kinare par rakhi hoyi thi . Kal raat likhte likhte papa nhi kab aankh lag gayi .par diary ke panno par meri uljhanon ke nishaan abhi tak mere sapne , mera dar , aur woh baatein jo mai kisi se share nhi karti kisi ko nhi bol pativ. Ek dairy hi thi jo bina kuch bole , bina kisi sawaal ke meri saate baatein sonleti.. main dairy kholti hoon aur padhne lagti hon
"Zindagi kabhi seedhi nhi hotibpar shayad isi tedhe medhe raaste Main hum apne aap ko paate hain "
Shayad yeh line mere din ki shruvaat bane wali hai .... usi waqt mummy ki awaaz aayi
"Afisha ! Jaldi taiyaar ho jao , school nhi jana kya. School ka time horaha hai ! main ne dairy band ki ,ek lamha aur liya aur aaine mai khud ko dekha .ek choti si smile di pata nhi ye smile sacchi thi ya fir shooting.. par ye muskaan hi thi jo mujhe har din thoda alag banati aur aage badhane ki himaat deti .... thi
School jaate hua sab kuch waisa hi tha wahi galiyan,wahi log but... aaj mujhe sab kuch alag lag raha tha shayad main andhar se thodi alag thi , mere dimaag main itne sawal itne aara hai the , itne khayal chal rahe the ki mujhe samajh nhi aara tha kaun si baat pe dhayaan donn...
Classroom mein jate hi doston ki awaaz ne mere sare khayal tooth gaye
"Afisha aaj itni chup kyu ho " kya hua hai " ??
Moof off lagraha hai ??
Main ne sirf muskura kar kaha haan bas zara sonch rahi thi
Asal baat ye thi ki mai khud ko nhi samjha pa rahi thi mujhe khud ko samhaj ne ki koshish kar rahi thi kabhi kabhi hum duniya ko tho samhaj lete hai lekin kabhi khud ko samhaj nhi pate kuch aisa hi mere saath hora ha tha
Mai apni hi sonch ko nhi samjh pa rahi thi
Break ke waqt main apni notebook leker mere corner wale bench par baithi thi, mai apne thoughts ko distract karne doodles bana rahi thi ... aur tabhi meri classmonitor afreen mere paas aaye ,woh hamesha simple practical baat karti thi
Usne pucha :Afisha tumhne apni maths workbook complete karli ?
Usne casually pucha.. mai ne kaha haan almost bas ek last question bacha hai afreen ne apna bag bench par rakha aur boli accha hai ,waise agar kabhi koyi school work mai ya maths main help chahiye tho bata dena ..
Sab kuch ek saat manage karna tough ho jata hai uski baat bilkul normal thi na extra care is unnecessary sawaal .sirf ek last jaisa support mai ne halki si smile di
"Thanks kar lungi par accha laga tum ne pocha afreen ne" okay" gear chale gayi
Fir se apni worksheet complete karne
Ek chota ka pal mujhe yeh samjha diya kii
"Zindagi ko hamesha dramatic hone ki zuroorat nhi hoti kabhi kabhi ek simple, seedhi baat hi kaafi hoti hai ....
Ghar laut kar main dairy khoti hoon poora din chote thoughts se bhahar hua tha , par main ne sab ko ek hi line mai likha ki "aaj samjha ki main apni kahani ko akele nhi uthani padti ..kabhi kabhi normal baatein bhi dil ko halka kar dete hain
Main ne diary band ki aur mehsoos kiya ki mera safar ab thoda asaan lag raha hai shayad yehi chapter 2 ka sach tha
Khamoshi mein bhi chote chote pal kuch seekha jate the hai