Jay 's POV
After keifer left ..I stormed off to my door and locked it without giving it a second thought... offcourse my head guessed it ... keifer is planning to sleep with me ... and my damn brain which melted just sometime ago and wanted to kiss him shamelessly....gave me warning....
" Jay ..you are melting too fast ...get a grip on yourself,,"
I sighed and went to take my medicine...but my eyes landed on the sleeping pills just beside it ...one part of me wanted to recover from the weakness but another part of me wanted to take those pills...not because of frustration... not because of guilty but ...the only reason was ..
" I was tired "
I was tired of everything....the responsibilities....the expectations...the fake smiles ...the hurt ....the pretending...this 18 years off my life went into a sink ...I realised that I never expected anything for me ...I was too focused on others that even humiliation... ignores... Harsh words stopped bothering me ...I tried to take care of everything but neglected my happiness..and look where are we ,... still in the last I am the one who got Hurt...
I wanted keifer to confront me ...to ask me why I am angry...I wanted him to console me ...I really like this things...it may sound stupid but to a girl who is tough to everyone outside.... also need comfort....needs adoration ....I just wanted one thing in my life ,. which is trust...I just wanted to be loved ...but it seems like I am a broken girl and nobody wants me ....
I can't understand one thing...was the care from section E... keifer.. Jennie all pity ? Or they are genuine from heart ....
Tears were rolling constantly... instead of taking the medicine ...I took the sleeping pills... because...I have stopped caring for myself... nobody will care if I live or die...as keifer said ..he would have lots of girls... Jennie has yuri ... nobody actually needs me ,..I am just a puppet tossed in the air like abandoned things...I was really being used by everyone...maybe if I die no body would even mourn for me ....
Nowadays... I don't feel like doing anything.....I don't want to live but I don't want to die too ..I don't want to talk to anyone but I feel lonely when no-one talks ...I wake up every morning and simply wait for the night to comes ...it seems like my life has lost its purpose to live ... before drifting into sleep I murmured...
" it would be so good ..if death could be controlled by ourselves....I would have given my life to the people who wanted to live ... because I don't feel like staying anymore"💔💔
Keifer's POV
After feeding Jay Jay or should I say..after tasting her lips I went down to clear the kitchen..I saw section E... Jennie already eating while the maids had cleared everything...Mia and Arthur went to their house ... finally...a big relief....as I sat down something struck me ...I don't know why but my mind drifted to jay Jay everytime...I just saw her ..but ..am I missing her too much ...I was smiling at my thought when section E started teasing....
" Ohhhh ... someone had a quality time"
" Keifer you are glowing "
" Keifer ...did you steal a lot of kisses?"
" Bro look at him ...he seems like he had committed a crime "
I glared at them but nobody stopped teasing... typical section E behaviour...but after all they were teasing me with jay so I didn't mind that ....
After eating my dinner I went up ...I got to know that this house is Jay Jay 's own ...she pays the maid a very high salary...we all were amazed but judging by her J6 gang...she must be billionaire..
Anyway I didn't care ... from now on my money is all Jay Jay 's....she can spend it all she want...I was happy because I was going to sleep with my Jay Jay....but then I realised that she locked her door..I stood there shocked.. trying to process everything...I told her that I will join her in sleep..still she closed the door...
But then my mind struck with a thought....Jay have every right to do so ...how can she believe someone who has hurt her while she loved him unconditionally...I sat by the closed door...the cold of the floor or the air didn't bother me ... because the coldness of jay shattered my heart...i didn't fear about getting tantrums from her or getting punched..I just fear about lossing her ...after my mother she is the only warmth I got ..and I don't want to loose it ..I want to hold fast it ...I love you jay ..I love you so much that I can't imagine my future without you ..you are the uncut part of my life ...I know that I humiliated you ..but I hurt myself as well.. because you are the only one to see through my real face ...to care for me in my sadness ...
" Jay ... please don't give up on me .. please don't stop loving me .. because I can fight everyone if you stay beside me .."
The next morning
Jay's POV
I woke up when sunlight crept on my face...my head was thudding like a drum...side effects of sleeping pills... ignoring everything i went to washroom....after doing my morning routine I opened my door to go outside...but I got a sudden shock on opening it ... I saw keifer lying there shivering in cold and hugging my teady....wait ....did he wait for me whole night outside...my eyes went wide ....is he out of his mind ...I bend down to wake him up ...but his sleepy face got me ...god how can someone look so handsome even while sleeping....I was bending shamelessly to kiss him but then my brain struck me ... Jay Jay get your grip ...I was pulling myself away when a strong hand embraced my neck and pulled me down to a long soft lingering kiss ...
Wait ... keifer is awake???? Gosh !!!!! I tried to pull away but he deepened it ....I didn't respond him back but still he didn't let me go ...
After some time we were breathless and he rested his forehead on me ....
Jay : keifer... what the fuck you kissed me ???
Keifer: baby ...you want to be kissed more right ?? Tss !!! Using profanity in Early morning...you are literally something my wifey ...
Before he could pull me into another kiss I pulled back and saaid firmly coldly...
Jay: keifer... don't act like we are fine ... nothing happened between us .. remember..we are not in a relationship..you can't kiss me as you want ...
Keifer flinched at my every word ...he seemed like someone has stabbed him brutally.... but I didn't care or I pretended like I didn't care ...I pretended that I didn't got hurt when saying those ...
He became sad for a second but soon keeping his composure...he said to me directly looking into my eyes ...in a low .. dangerous.... seductive voice ....
" We are not in a relationship...but Jay...you are mine"❤️❤️