I was surrounded by the sad cries of what was once a family. As if clearly visible, worry and tragedy covered them whole.
Everyone wore black suits. I guess black color is thought to be ominous. People often call crows a bad sign of omen.
Rain. Rain was yet again, pouring everywhere. The stupid sound of umbrellas opening, children dwelling in confusion, others screaming in sorrow was everywhere.
My family was crying as if the world ended.
Maybe for them, it did.
I stood beside the coffin, screeching and screaming and pulling out my hair. Their attempt of trying and holding me results in disappointment as I push them away, and away, and away.
Must've been one hell of a sight to see. Everyone could see the agony I was in.
After one after another, everyone gave her their final goodbye. Some didn't want to leave her alone, and said 'She will be sad, and scared all by herself.'
Depressing as it was, I was the main attraction for the people there. Well, that's a given considering I was practically going insane on her grave.
They said,
"You must've been close to your sister,"
"She… she deserved more time."
Not a lie.. She was just 14.
My father apologized, apologized, and apologized. For "not realizing how hard all this must be for me."
Shekai hovered in a corner, invisible to all. Otherwise her death would be the least of their concerns.
"You play them well," he said softly.
"I'm not playing," I whispered.
Later, everyone left me alone near the grave.
It seems, they are letting me grieve for her more than the others.. They are giving me time..
It was silent. Peacefully so. The rain has settled down, I got embraced by the refreshing cold breeze as I stood there.
I could hear something, someone, yet again..
It broke my peace apart.
Some loud footsteps approached me.
It was my father.
"I'm sorry. This was heavy on all of us. I-I can't begin to imagine how unbearable it must have been for you. You … you can take time off school," he said gently, eyes still swollen red because of all the crying. "We won't force anything. Just… try to heal."
Before I did this, I thought I'd regret it. But, really. I didn't. It was best decision to kill her off.