64. The Fall of a Holy Nun?
After confessing his feelings, is Gao Qi actually dating Aponia?
Well, to be honest, he has to admit that his current relationship with Aponia can't really be considered "dating."
At least at the beginning, after being charmed by Aponia and confessing, Aponia simply treated it as something Gao Qi said casually. She still tolerated his antics, like an older sister quietly enduring a mischievous child's pranks.
This situation frustrated Gao Qi. I've already made up my mind to stray! Even if it's just a simulation, can't you take it more seriously, Sis?
But there was no helping it. Gao Qi's "hardware" had inherent limitations—he really was just a little kid right now.
However, what annoyed Gao Qi the most was Aponia's personality: her absolute disregard, her unconditional tolerance, her willingness to endure all mischief, her desire to forgive everything, her hope to dissolve or bear the sins of others...
Pious yet obsessive. Gao Qi felt that if there were any gods in this world besides the Honkai, Aponia would undoubtedly qualify for sainthood.
But the problem was, she was almost too pious, more saintly than a saint herself.
If she were truly a powerless nun without her "persuasive" abilities, Gao Qi suspected Aponia would have become the protagonist of adult doujinshi years ago.
Even later, when she became a "human-specialized" MANTIS, her personality still led to numerous terrible consequences.
People under the influence of her "Vow" became obsessed and extreme, fulfilling the "commands" Aponia gave them in twisted ways.
The "Divine Hymns" created based on her abilities drove Fu Hua to utter madness over 50,000 years.
Warriors given the command "Do not abandon hope in the fight against the Honkai" ended up killing stabilized hosts, unleashing the 12th Herrscher.
In the end, they were all killed by Kevin, who had received the vow "Do not harm the innocent."
Ultimately, Aponia's simple, sincere hopes and wishful thinking, combined with her immense power, often resulted in tragedy. She underestimated her own strength and overestimated the baseline of human nature.
Gao Qi didn't want Aponia to become a "sinner," nor did he want her to later abandon her life and merge with the Elysian Realm—although Gao Qi liked roguelike games, that didn't mean he wanted his wife to become the setting for one.
And to be honest, Gao Qi actually found the Hyperion matrix more interesting, really, really interesting!
Therefore, during his time at the sanatorium, he had been pondering how to avert the future tragedies.
Finally, Gao Qi reached a conclusion... address both the symptoms and the root cause, internally and externally.
Externally, for this simulation, Gao Qi would play the role of humanity's traitor, delivering a heavy blow to the higher-ups of the MOTHs, excising the malignant elements, and preserving what was truly efficient and useful.
Internally... what he needed to do was rid Aponia of that meaningless martyr complex. He needed to make her understand that she too was imperfect, to deeply comprehend the complexity of human nature, and that it couldn't be controlled with simple dichotomies of good and evil, freedom and restraint.
In other words, Gao Qi decided to make Aponia cease being a Mother Mary who could sacrifice herself for the world. She could be a good person, but she didn't need to sacrifice everything about herself.
What Gao Qi wanted was for Aponia to "break her vows."
He wanted her to understand that even with such great talent, she was not some chosen one. Besides considering others, she also had her own selfish desires and personal feelings; she needed to think for herself.
She was not perfect, not holy, and did not need to devote everything to humanity.
Gao Qi wanted this saintly lady... to fall.
As the saying goes, forcing a respectable woman into debauchery and persuading a fallen woman to reform—these things have always been irresistibly compelling since ancient times, right?
Of course, Gao Qi couldn't deny that he did have some selfish motives—the kind involving lewd thoughts. Who doesn't like lewd Aponia, after all?
So, after confessing to Aponia, Gao Qi began his wicked plan.
If Aponia kept a diary, she would probably write this:
Day 1: In the confessional, got kissed.
Day 2: Went to the kitchen to serve food, got kissed by him while he was cooking.
Day 3: Just returned to the bedroom, got kissed by him after he made the bed, and was held sleeping all night.
Day 27: Aponia, oh Aponia, how can you indulge so deeply in the simple pleasures of physical contact? What about your ideal of changing others' fates and bringing them happiness? You must repent! You must feel shame!
Day 60: Kisses!
During these days, Aponia had been steadily subjected to Gao Qi's gentle yet skillful advances.
Gao Qi certainly wouldn't use the overly stimulating methods he employed with Mobius; they weren't suitable for the pure Aponia.
What he did was simply give Aponia a scheduled kiss every morning and night, occasionally massage her here and there, and praise her lavishly every day with all sorts of compliments.
Thinking about it carefully, if you removed the lewd elements, this wasn't much different from raising a child—though he himself was a child right now.
This time, after spending so much time with Aponia, Gao Qi planned to... verify the results of his work.
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Dragged away from Kalpas, Aponia, wearing a slightly troubled expression, was led by Gao Qi to a secluded corner.
"What, what are you doing? Even if no one sees, you can't sneak-attack me out here."
Looking at the quiet, deserted surroundings, Aponia's serene gaze, though her tone remained calm, involuntarily wavered slightly. She had been bullied by Gao Qi every day lately and was genuinely a bit afraid.
It wasn't that she disliked those intimate gestures, but whenever she thought about the feelings of "pleasure" and "desire" that arose from her very being during those moments of closeness, she felt fearful.
In those moments, she herself actually wanted to claim Ling for herself, to stay that intimate with him forever.
Such sacrilegious, rebellious thoughts appearing within her filled the ever-pious Aponia with self-reproach.
But there was no helping it. Every time she wanted to repent, that certain little rascal would pop up and do those embarrassing things to her.
Even though it seemed like just a child's coquettishness, coming from Gao Qi, Aponia always felt... it made her somewhat ashamed!
"Oh? I never said I was going to sneak-attack you, Sis Aponia. Could it be... you were looking forward to it?"
Squinting his eyes, Gao Qi looked at Aponia with a mischievous grin. Years of experience "raising" children, especially with Bronya and Fu Hua, had made Gao Qi adept at reading their micro-expressions.
Despite their later-acquired poker faces, they originally didn't have very rich expressions to begin with. Each keeping a straight little face, just waiting for Gao Qi to guess their thoughts.
Gao Qi could sense that over these days, the pious Sister Aponia was gradually sliding toward the abyss of desire.
If Gao Qi had once found joy in playing the role of a devil making deals with people, then this time, he was going to cosplay a succubus tempting an angel to fall—was there such a thing as a male incubus, he wondered?
Faced with Gao Qi's counter-question, Aponia, who had already braced herself to be bullied by this little troublemaker whose head only reached her chest, blushed once again.
"You... whenever you pull me aside, isn't it always to—mmph!"
Soon, Aponia realized she had become accustomed to what was usually done to her, even growing somewhat skilled at it and... anticipatory?
Beneath Aponia's nun habit, her plump thighs couldn't help but rub together lightly a couple of times. Her typically serene expression turned slightly flustered.
"I... I am merely the one who endures. As long as it brings you comfort, I am willing to accept any arrangement..."
Gazing at Gao Qi before her, Aponia hesitated for a long while, ultimately deflecting with this line as usual.
In the past, she had used this very phrase to convince herself. She possessed talents different from others, and in Aponia's view, this was inherently a form of mission.
Whether it was the "power of persuasion" or the "ability to glimpse fate," ultimately, they were missions bestowed by heaven—to have her bear the sins of others and strive to alter their destinies.
On this point, Aponia was exceptionally resolute.
Hearing this, Gao Qi let out a soft sigh, yet the mischievous grin on his face only deepened.
"Well, if you see it that way, then we'll skip today's kiss. If Sister Aponia considers such a thing a 'burden' to be endured, I can't bear to make you suffer. So, I won't do this kind of thing anymore from now on~~"
Shrugging, Gao Qi turned to leave without the slightest hesitation.
But Aponia, who had grown accustomed to their daily kisses and was already prepared for one, was utterly unable to accept this sudden announcement that it wouldn't happen!
In the next moment, this gentle, sacred, and maternal nun, who had always been serene and composed, directly grabbed Gao Qi's hand.
"Th-that... I... I don't really think of it as something that needs to be endured either. Even though I can't see clearly into your heart, I know Ling isn't someone with... strange ideas like that. It's just that..."
Holding Gao Qi's hand, her other hand waving nervously before her, Aponia tried to explain.
After all, the current Aponia was not yet the despairing, mature version from the Elysian Realm. She was just an ordinary young nun, still with room for change.
"Oh? But heaven never assigned you such a mission, did it? Could it be that this is something Sister wants to do herself? A selfish act purely for your own sake?"
Turning back, he smiled at Aponia, gently pulling her into an embrace. Gao Qi's tone was filled with temptation, as if he were guiding her step by step to make her own choice—that selfish choice made solely for herself.
"Say it, Sister Aponia. Tell me clearly what you want me to do. Be specific, and say it loudly~~"
Finally, the wicked boy had backed the pious, pure nun to the cliff edge of desire.
"You... you little... mmph..."
Feeling the all-too-familiar sensation in her embrace, looking at the cute face of the black-haired youth, Aponia finally couldn't hold back anymore—there was no helping it; Gao Qi had gradually "developed" her surface-level desires.
How to make her grow the most dependent on him with minimal physical contact—this was also one of Mobius's research projects, a rigorous experiment involving neural signal monitoring.
"I... I want... you... to... kiss me."
Finally, after a fierce internal struggle, the sacred scale in Aponia's heart tipped towards desire. After all... he isn't a bad kid, right?
In that instant, Aponia suddenly felt something within her heart lighten, as if freed from restraint... gaining a sense of liberty.
For the first time, Aponia knowingly committed a "bad deed."
"Hmph~~ Alright then, Sister Aponia. Congratulations, you've become a bad kid too!"
Looking at this beautiful woman yearning for greater intimacy with him, Gao Qi nodded in satisfaction. His plan was now half complete.
"Well then, Sister Aponia, this is a kiss for grown-ups. Mwah~~"
Without hesitation, Gao Qi rose on his tiptoes, borrowing a line from Sister Himeko, and shared a passionate kiss with Aponia—far more intense than their previous pecks.
After a long while, the two separated again.
"Haah... haah... haah—"
Aponia's face remained flushed, her breathing slightly ragged. But the corners of her mouth, which she always kept composed, couldn't help but curl upwards.
It was a feeling of nervousness and joy, like a child sneaking candy.
From childhood, always obedient and disciplined, using the power of her words to constrain others while also binding herself with a heavenly sense of mission—Aponia suddenly felt an illicit sense of pleasure.
She suddenly realized that she... might be a bad kid too.
But at the same time, intense guilt made her feel deeply conflicted and troubled.
"Hehe, Sister Aponia, you're a naughty kid now too."
Nodding with satisfaction, Gao Qi looked at her, his expression finally turning serious.
"Now, Sister Aponia, I hope... you can promise me one thing."
Gao Qi took a deep breath and slowly uttered what he most wanted to say.
"No matter what changes the future holds, Sister Aponia, I hope you understand that even you yourself might do bad things one day. And forcing someone to change... is a terrifying thing. Even if it's for their good, it can feel pretty awful, don't you think?"
Gao Qi didn't explicitly mention "the Edict" or "fate." The current Aponia wasn't very powerful yet and didn't know she would become a MANTIS. But these words would surely guide her to make the right choice.
He gently kissed Aponia's cheek once more, winked mischievously at her, then dashed towards the sanatorium exit.
"I'm going out to buy groceries, Sister Aponia. Wait for me to come back tonight."
Meanwhile, Aponia stood rooted to the spot, beginning to ponder Gao Qi's words carefully.
"Changing someone's heart... truly is a dangerous thing."
[Under your subtle guidance, Aponia seems to have realized that her "persuasion" ability might be even more terrifying than she imagined. She began to reduce the frequency of its use.]
[Similarly, the number of times she bothered Kalpas decreased significantly, which put him in a great mood, making him work with exceptional diligence.]
[However, once you start being a bad kid, it's hard to stop. Having crossed that initial boundary, Aponia seemed to become much more proactive. Although it was still just stealing kisses from you, for her, this was already exceptionally daring.]
[Yet, such days did not last long. Finally, Pardofelis sent you a message: a woman with long pink hair and rabbit ears had entered the Sundown Alley, apparently followed by several warriors.]
[You knew the final step of the plan was about to begin.]
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