I keep getting stressed and it keeps swirling in my head, so I can't go on.
I will discontinue the Fate route. Since I've progressed the Fate route to this point, I'll stop here, and later during the Apocrypha part, I'll end it in a way like 'this happened' as an interlude. After this, I think I'll be treated as writing hate material in scenes where Saber or Emiya fight, so I can't do it. I'd rather go cleanly only up to the Gilgamesh battle and not write beyond that. Actually, it's self-satisfaction and a hobby, but I'm tired of constantly playing with settings and explaining to readers.
It's true that my writing skills are lacking, and the problem of not properly explaining it in the work is big.
To write more, I kept thinking about how to satisfy myself, but since it's utterly impossible, I'll just stop. In the first place, since the anime adaptation was done by Studio Deen and it's the ruined true ending route, doing the Fate route seems to have been a mistake.
I'll release it as an interlude later, so I'll come to the next chapter, the ubw route. At least while building the narrative of the work, I'll go to the true FGO part, so I'll have to partially modify the story parts of the ubw route that I conceived.
I feel doubtful about myself. I started writing just for self-satisfaction and as a hobby, but since I started to engage in debates with readers while playing with settings, I also feel self-loathing. The part with Shirou and Saber yas that I included as a gag also seems like I put it in for no reason. In the original FGO, there are many gags making fun of Emiya, and gags like Lancer dying, etc., and since everyone naturally likes them and it's fundamentally an adult game, I included them, but now I regret all of it. I'll put it away.
Please consider the Fate part as a failure, and come to the next chapter. It's because the author is timid and has a lot of affection for the work. Please don't insult specific people, and it's my mistake for causing misunderstanding from the start with my lacking writing skills. I'll see you in the next episode.