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Chapter 6 - Chapter 6: Breaking Point

The phone calls started that evening.

Ava's mother first, her voice tight with a mixture of rage, grief and something that sounded almost like panic: "How could you do this? How could you shame us this way? Do you have any idea what you've done? Your father won't speak. He's locked himself in his study. The Mthembus left without a word. How am I supposed to face anyone at church? How am I supposed to hold my head up when my daughter has chosen this—this abomination?"

Ava sat on Liana's couch, phone pressed to her ear, listening to her mother's voice break and crack. Part of her wanted to apologize, to take it all back, to promise to come home and forget this ever happened. But a larger part —the part that had been dying slowly for two years— knew she couldn't. Not anymore.

"I'm sorry you're hurting, Mama. But I can't apologize for being who I am."

"Who are you? This isn't who you are! This is confusion, rebellion, sin—"

"This is me. The real me. And I'm done hiding her."

Her mother's sob cut through the line. "Then I don't know you anymore."

The call ended.

Twenty minutes later, her father called. His voice was cold, controlled, nothing like the warm father who'd taught her to ride a bike and helped with her homework.

"You are no longer welcome in this house," he said without preamble. "Your belongings will be packed and made available for pickup at a time of our choosing. We will not attend any events you may hold. We will not speak your name in our home. As far as this family is concerned, we have one less daughter."

Each word landed like a stone. Final. Irrevocable.

"Papa, I understand you're angry, but—"

"I am not angry, Ava. I am disappointed. I am heartbroken. I am devastated beyond measure. But most of all, I am done. You made your choice. Now live with it."

The line went dead.

Ava sat in silence, phone in her lap, feeling the full weight of what she'd lost. Her parents. Her family home. Sunday dinners. Holiday celebrations. The comfortable certainty of being someone's daughter.

All of it, gone.

Text messages began flooding in. Ava watched them pile up—some supportive, most not.

"Your poor parents. How could you do this to them?"

"Stay strong, Ava. Living your truth is worth it."

"This is what happens when young people reject God."

"I'm proud of you. My sister is gay, and I wish she had your courage."

"You've destroyed your family's reputation. I hope you're happy."

The messages blurred together until Ava couldn't read them anymore. She turned off her phone and just sat there, trying to process the enormity of what had happened.

Liana emerged from the bedroom where she'd been giving Ava privacy for the calls. She sat down beside Ava, not speaking, just present.

"They disowned me," Ava said, her voice hollow. "My father actually said the words. 'We have fewer daughters.'"

"I know. I'm so sorry."

"I knew they would. I knew this would happen. But knowing and experiencing are so different. "Ava looked at Liana, tears streaming down her face. "What have I done?"

"You chose yourself. You chose honesty. You chose freedom."

"I chose to destroy my family."

"No." Liana took Ava's hands firmly. "They chose to reject you for being honest. That's on them, not you. You didn't destroy anything—you just stopped maintaining a lie."

Ava wanted to believe her. But the guilt was crushing, suffocating. Her mother's sobs echoed in her head. Her father's cold dismissal played on repeat.

"Come on," Liana said, standing and pulling Ava up. "You need to eat something. When did you last eat?"

Ava couldn't remember. Breakfast? Yesterday? Time had become meaningless.

Liana ordered food while Ava sat on the couch in a daze. The apartment —Liana's apartment, though she'd offered to make it theirs— suddenly felt too small, too confining. Ava felt trapped between the life she'd left and a future she couldn't quite imagine.

"What am I supposed to do now?" Ava asked when Liana brought her a plate of food she couldn't eat. "Where am I supposed to go?"

"You stay here. With me. We make this your home too."

"Just like that? I blow you and my entire life, you just take me in?"

"I'm not taking you in like some charity case, Ava. I'm welcoming home the woman I love. The woman who finally found the courage to choose herself. "Liana sat beside her. "I know you're grieving. I know this hurts. But you did the right thing. The brave thing. And I'm so proud of you."

"Even though I waited two months? Even though I hurt you by choosing them first?"

"Even though. You got here eventually. That's what matters."

They sat in silence, Ava leaning against Liana, trying to absorb the reality of her new situation. Homeless. Parentless. But not alone. Never alone, as long as Liana was here.

"I should call work," Ava said eventually. "Let them know—something. In case word spreads."

"Tomorrow. Tonight, you just exist. You breathe. You process. Tomorrow we deal with logistics."

---

The next few days passed in a blur.

Ava went to her apartment to pack, moving mechanically through rooms that had never felt like home anyway. Everything fit into boxes surprisingly easily—her life reduced to cardboard and tape.

She'd half-expected her parents to show up, to stage an intervention, to try one last time to change her mind. But they didn't. The silence was its own kind of rejection.

At work on Monday, word had clearly spread. Some colleagues met her eyes with sympathy. Others looked away. Dr. Themba called her into his office.

"I heard about what happened," he said carefully. "I wanted to check in. See how you're doing."

"I'm managing," Ava said, which was both true and completely false.

"For what it's worth—what you did took tremendous courage. Living authentically, standing up for yourself, refusing to be pushed into a life that wasn't yours. That's exactly the kind of ethical decision-making we try to teach our students about."

"Thank you. That means a lot."

"If you need time off, or if you need any support—"

"I'm okay. Really. I think work might actually help. Give me something to focus on besides—everything else."

---

Wednesday evening, Ava's phone buzzed. An unknown number.

She almost didn't answer. But something made her pick up.

"Ava? It's Thabo."

"Thabo. Hi."

"I heard what happened. My mother called yours. There was—a lot of drama. A lot of crying and praying and talk of spiritual warfare."

"I'm sorry you got dragged into this."

"Don't be. You did what I couldn't. "He paused, "I told my mother I'm withdrawing from the courtship. That I have no interest in marrying you or anyone else she picks for me. She asked why and I just—I couldn't tell her. Not yet. But maybe someday. Because of you. Because you showed me it's possible to survive this."

"Thabo—"

"I mean it. You're the bravest person I know. And watching you stand up for yourself—it's changing me. Making me think I could do it too, when I'm ready."

After they hung up, Ava felt a strange sense of validation. She'd hurt people, yes. She'd disappointed her parents, devastated her mother, failed to meet everyone's expectations. But she'd also freed herself. And maybe, by extension, she'd freed Thabo too. Had to show him that it was possible to say no, to choose yourself, to survive your family's rejection.

Maybe her courage would ripple outward. Maybe her story would help others find theirs.

---

By the end of the week, Ava was fully moved into Liana's apartment. Their apartment now, as Liana kept insisting. Her clothes in the closet. Her books on the shelves. Her name added to the lease.

They established routines—coffee together in the mornings, texts throughout the day, dinner side by side in the evening. It was domestic and ordinary and absolutely perfect.

But Ava couldn't shake the grief. It hit her at unexpected moments—seeing a mother and daughter shopping together, hearing a song her father used to sing, passing the street her parents lived on. She'd lost something fundamental, and no amount of freedom could completely fill that hole.

"It's okay to be sad," Liana said one evening, finding Ava crying in the bathroom. "You didn't just lose your parents—you lost your whole world. That's worth grieving."

"But I chose this. I wanted this."

"You can want freedom and still grieve what it cost. Those things aren't mutually exclusive. "Liana held her while she cried. "You're allowed to be sad even though you made the right choice. Actually, you should be sad. It would be weird if you weren't."

Ava clung to that permission—to grieve, to mourn, to feel the full weight of her loss while also knowing she'd made the right decision.

---

Three weeks after the disownment, Ava received an unexpected text.

From her mother.

"I saw a photo of you on Janet's Facebook. You were at a café' with that woman. You looked happy. Happier than I've seen you in years. I don't understand your choices, but you're still my daughter. When you're ready to talk—really talk—I'll be here."

Ava stared at the message for a long time, reading it over and over, looking for the trap, the conditional clause, the "but only if you change."

But it wasn't there.

It wasn't acceptance. It wasn't approval. But it was acknowledgment. Her mother had seen her, had recognized her happiness, and was reaching out despite her disapproval.

It was more than Ava had dared to hope for.

She showed the message to Liana, her hands shaking.

"That's something," Liana said carefully, reading over Ava's shoulder. "Not acceptance, but—acknowledgment. She's leaving the door open."

"Should I respond?"

"Only if you want to. Only when you're ready. You don't owe her an immediate response just because she finally reached out."

Ava thought about it all evening, composing and deleting responses, trying to find the right words. Finally, she settled on: "Thank you for reaching out, Mama. I need time, but I want to talk eventually. When we're both ready."

The response came an hour later: "Take all the time you need. I'm not going anywhere."

It wasn't reconciliation. It wasn't the relationship they'd had before. But it was a thread, thin and fragile, connecting Ava to the family she'd lost.

And for now, that thread was enough.

---

That night, lying in bed with Liana, Ava felt something shift inside her. The grief was still there—it would probably always be there, in some form. But underneath it was something else.

Relief. Freedom. The sense that she was finally, for the first time in her life, living as herself.

"I'm proud of you," Liana whispered in the darkness. "I know I keep saying it, but I am. You're so brave."

"I don't feel brave. I feel terrified."

"Bravery isn't the absence of fear. It's acting despite fear. And you did that. You're doing that."

Ava thought about that as she drifted off to sleep. Maybe Liana was right. Maybe courage wasn't about not being afraid—it was about being afraid and choosing yourself anyway.

She'd lost her parents. But she'd gained herself.

And that trade, painful as it was, had been necessary.

Worth it.

Right.

 

 

 

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