Noxans theet were clenching,his nails pressed against hsi writes making them bleed,his legs shaking,his head spinning.
He didn't know how to answer.
Everyone was seeing him in this states.
*Nobody will love a loser like me,he would never date some one this messed up...*
Noxan tried to think but the circle of people around them just became bigger and tighter,he had to think, think fast.
*Should I say, should I just fuckt it, should I?
But what if they judge,they don't understand.
But I will be free,I will be Noxan.*
The classmate spoke in a calm voice as if he was trying to spell a magic cast
"Why do you need this long to answer ,man don't be such a pussy!We already know it,we call you gay everyday,you just gotta admit it"
Noxan tried to crawl in his questions
*Fuck it,no wait, they shouldn't know, why am I like this*
Then,the moment hit.Everyone became silent,even the Ravens hold peace.The wind felt odd,the air cold.Noxans body felt unknown,a monster he was afraid to accept.
"Yes, I'm gay...."
The silence kept going, ever second felt like a decade of history we should learn from.Noxan was the first teenager from his school to come out, nobody outed themselves before since today where the first open Queer kid walked into school, with a different hair style some jewellery and a basic outfit.
He was normal,but thinks don't last forever.He became what his destiny was,not like the others,not popular,not a teenager lover but a weird kid who waited but his silence got thrown apart for a simple feeling.A feeling that nobody could resist on.
His whole world just fell apart,he never felt so alone in his whole life,he felt naked standing there as a monster,a betrayer, every second he spend with boys wasn't seen as casual now , it's core got twisted into romantic.
It was like a death,you see every moment with that person but with an other perspective.With the same eye,the same thoughs,the same feeling,the same memories but different view.
The silence didn't hold long and Noxan got bombarded with questions, nobody cared that he's gay, everybody cared about what gay he is.
They yelled, they all did
"ARE YOU TOP OR BOTTOM"
"DID YOU KISS A BOY"
"DID YOU TRADE"
"DO YOU FINGER YOURSELF"
"HOW DO YOU LIKE MEN"
"HOW DO YOU KNOW IT"
"IS IT JUST A PHASE"
"ARE YOU A GIRLY GAY"
"ARE YOU ZESTY"
"AREN'T YOU RELIGIOUS"
"DO YOU LIKE ME"
"WHO DO YOU LIKE"
"WHAT'S YOUR TYPE"
"PROVE IT"
"ARE YOU DOING IT FOR THE GAME"
Noxan felt disgusting, seeing these humans just complete brake his privacy.Nobody care if it was appropriate.