Noxan woke up to a cold breeze making his body shiver.
He looked outside, seeing snow gently falling on the ground.
He changed his clothes wearing something cozy and warm for the day.
He left and shut the door while Shanox was still sleeping.
On the way to school he nearly fell on the ground,when he arrived he saw that the first lesson was math.In anger he screamed.
"It's Monday, it's cold,my knees hurt and I already have math!"
He opened the door.
He saw that Sylas was happyagain.He looked at him and bit his tongue gently before anyone could realize.
He sat down, facing into his direction.
Noxan noticed that something was odd,
he couldn't understand what but it maid him fell odd.
*Wait.
Now I know it,my seatpartner isn't here*
Noxan turned his look to the door waiting for his seatpartner.
He waited but nobody came except the teacher.
The teacher announced
"Today I will be busy that's why you're allowed to go on your phones"
The time passed and the 2 classes math flew like a plane.
The break started and Noxan remembered what happened on this ground on Friday,he tried to hold back and not crush over Sylas but his feelings were stronger than his control.
*It feels wrong to love him with the knowledge I have now*
He felt how the ocean drowned him deeper in the unknown, dragging the air out of him.
Pulling him from the truth, from the light that could save him but felt too warm to hold.
He knew Sylas was different, he was unreachable but the pounding of his love pulled him deeper.
It cost him everything just to touch the ground he felt safe on.
Dying alone for one sensation cut off from everyone.Laying in the unknown,where light was unseen.The warmth he scared was his only chance to fly.
My heart and mind dancing around me, laughing at me.
Noxan sat on the bench next to him, looking on the ground where one day he was gonna end up.
*I love him,not his opinion, even though he is built on hisopinion*
Noxan felt something heavy on his shoulder,it was him... Sylas,
leaning on his shoulder.
Noxan asked in confusion holding back his urge to hug him.
"What are you doing?"
Sylas responded
"My leg hurt but the bench is full"
Noxan looked on his left, confirming Sylas statement.
Noxan replied with
"Fine but only this one time"
He felt how his heart pounded stronger,his hands and chest getting warmer,his sight driving on his abs even though they were covered.
Nobody noticed it except Sylas but he didn't say anything,he was fine with it.He said he was homophobic but he didn't feel like his statement.
He already noticed how much Noxan looked at him,he wanted to shake him off with words.
He said in his mind
*That dumbass really thinks I didn't notice how often he looks at me, it's creepy but fine I guess I have to live with it.
He's lucky that I'm tired and there are no places to sit left.I won't do this ever again,just let me see this as a gift for him so maybe he backs off for some time at least just a while*
Sylas looked up again and leaned on Noxan till the break ended.While he was still leaning on Noxan he talked with his friends throwing one joke after another.Noxans glance became even more intense every time his abs flexed with his laughter.
Noxan felt how his hands didn't just become warm, they burned with all the love he couldn't hold.