Noxan walked home, dragging waves filled with pure rage with him.He kicked and smacked everything in his way and avoided all human contact.
At home he jumped into his bed,with the urge to scream.He tried to relax himself,he took out a pencil and started drawing.After some time he realized.
*Wait a minute?This is hispencil, I've been drawing peace with ignorance the whole time...*
He broke and pushed everything down from the table.Noxan pressed his teeth together before putting on his jacket and going outside.
He wanted to be alone and walked into the forest. He took the way which one of his friends once showed him.He passed roads and houses before entering the forest.
As he entered the forest, people walked in the opposite direction leaving the same Forest he trusted.He asked the people why they were leaving but he got no response.
Deep in the forest,when Noxan knew he was alone he stood still.He was completely silent,he heard the trees hush and the wind gliding through his ears,how the animals walked quietly beside him , hiding from humans.
Noxan took a deep breath,he didn't let it out but held it in.
Noxan screamed the loudest he was able to, letting all the air out.He started crying as the forest became silent.
He fell on his knees crying,he shouted multiple times in the air, waiting for a response no one could give
"Why do I love him"
"Why does the only person I like, have to be a Man"
His voice became quiet,like the wind changing his direction without any warning.
"Why can't I be normal"
"Why can't I be human"
He sobbed on the ground, covered in dirt.
A little bit later,it started to.He understood now why people were leaving.Noxan didn't move,he didn't stand up,he was aware that he was gonna be dirty and all soaked, that wasn't enough to make him move.
Noxan didn't have any hope left for him or Sylas so why should he have the hope of standing up and not getting dirty.He knew it wasn't gonna happen.
"Nothing was gonna work so why waste my last energy to live."
The rain stopped and Noxan had to walk home before the night spread its darkness.
At home he showered and changed his clothes before anyone could notice. He didn't want to disappoint his mother and show her that the clothes that she bought were dirty because of him.
He lay in bed, searching for the stars.The night he needed them the most was also the night that they would.
Shanox climbed on the bed spreading himself on Noxan, giving him one last shine before he fell asleep.