Lunch break started and Noxan secretly walked behind Sylas, outside he stood next to Sylas acting as if he just stands there without a reason.
Sylas was pissed because the event earlier,
he looked Noxan deeply in the eyes with hate.What Sylas didn't know was that Noxan wanted him to be pissed at him,Noxan was bored of only seeing him happy or chilled,Noxan wanted more.Noxan wanted to see hate in his eyes.Noxan was satisfied as he saw how Sylas looked at him.
As Sylas looked him in the eyes with an aggressive posture,Noxan smiled in satisfaction.Noxans eyes became big his face red and his smile only grew in length.
Sylas was still filled with hate,Sylas didn't even noticed how Noxan enjoyed the moment.Sylas was focused on his eyes while imagining how he beats up Noxan.
Noxan thought to himself
*He probably thinks about how he can beat me, should I tell him that he can beat me somewhere else every time he wants.If he wants to he can also be the victim,like I would behave really good also as a leader.I wanna be his dog*
Later at home he asked himself
"Why was I so fruity,and I'm a top.
Why did I think about that!?"
Noxans head started spinning
*What am I thinking about...
I want him to be safe...
I'm starting to let my obsession win...*
Noxans breath started to become heavy as he realized that the ocean became thicker,he drowned slowly but the price was that he could never escape.
*Did I really just ... him*
Noxans eyes started shaking with fear.
*No I can't, I need to hold myself away from those thoughts.
I'm not a pervert...
Am I... ?*
Noxan started hitting his head with his hands, trying to "wake" himself up.
Noxan heavily spoke,as if he was bleeding through his mouth
"I'm not..."
"I can't be..."
Noxan started to sweat, realizing what he turned himself into.He suddenly painfully screamed.
"WHY DO I HAVE TO BE GAY.
WHY DOES LOVE COST SO MUCH
I'M NOT HUMAN.
I'M JUST A ..."
After Noxan realized what he said he started to panic even more,his body felt unfamiliar.
"Did I just scream and admit that I'm gay"
Noxan tried standing up without losing his balance,he opened the door finding no one home.
Noxan let out a breath of relief.
Noxan felt something crawling up his back.
As he turned in fear,he saw that it was Shanox.
He spoke
"It's you,I thought you were my death..."
Shanox was climbing up on his shoulder, rubbing his head against Noxans hair.
Noxan felt lighter but his body still hadn't relaxed.
Every step he took was shaking.
Every breath filled with regret.
His eyes nearly black.