Hello internet. I've come here to vent my frustration with my sister since I have no one in my life I can talk to about this stuff, so please give me some advice on what I should do to stop this.
For context, my name is Alex, I live with my parents and older sister, and since I was nine years old, she has been making me do things with her whenever our parents aren't here.
It started off as some harmless sibling fun. She came into my room one night and asked me if I wanted to play lovers. Being a young kid, I didn't know what she meant and just went along with what she asked. She got me to hold her hand at first, and we talked about our imaginary backstories and made up a meeting, nothing too strange, just playing imaginary games. But then she said we should practice kissing, which I thought was weird. Still, I went along with it even if I thought it was strange.
Since my sister was fourteen at the time, I looked up to her for help and guidance, so I trusted her fully. We both kissed for several minutes, my sister giving me instructions on what to do. But after a while, she had lain on top of me on my bed and had begun lightly humping my lower body as she started breathing more heavily and letting out small moans.
When she had pulled down my pants and started touching my peepee, I had tried to stop her, but she had said that this is what lovers do, and since it actually started feeling kind of good, I didn't try to stop her.
Before I knew it, she had put it in her mouth and started sucking it, the feeling making it swell a bit and making me feel weird. Once it was sticking upright, she had taken off her own pajamas and tried to sit on it, but it would just push my peepee down, so she put her fingers in her hole instead and stroked my peepee.
When we had heard mom walking around outside my room, my sister had panicked and put her pajamas back on, and threw the covers over me as she went back to her own room.
I didn't understand what had happened back then, but I knew that it had been something I would get in trouble for if my parents knew, so I didn't tell anyone. The next day, my sister pulled me aside and told me that it would make mom and dad very angry if they ever knew, so I swore never to tell.
For the next two years, she would occasionally sneak into my room and 'play lovers' with me. Usually, getting me to touch her naughty place while she would make my peepee get hard. Most of the time, she would leave after a while, but sometimes she would snuggle up in bed with me and sleep together.
These visits were infrequent and rarely more than once a week. But soon she had moved on from making me rub her naughty place to making me lick it.
That was the first thing about our games that I really didn't like. When she first told me to do it, I reluctantly licked it, but found the taste to be bitter and salty, so I tried to get her off of me, but she held me down and forced me to lick her, even pushing it on my face until I struggled to breathe.
When I told her I didn't like it, she said she wouldn't be able to make me feel good if I didn't also do the same for her. Since I had learned to like having her touch and suck my peepee, I reluctantly agreed to lick her, but she would often still push me down and crush me with her naughty bits while moving really fast over my head and breathing hard. She wouldn't even stop when I couldn't breathe, only letting me go when she made my face all wet from her strange-smelling pee.
And that became her routine with me until I turned twelve and became bigger down there. It was also by then that I began really enjoying it. I didn't even mind licking her anymore, as it made my peepee get really hard, and sometimes white stuff would come out when she sucked it really hard.
Since we both now really enjoyed our evenings together, we did it more and more frequently, my sister even trying to put my peepee inside her, but it was really tight and squeezed me a lot. Still, my sister kept going until it felt really good, and I peed the white stuff inside her. For some reason, she freaked out at that and tried pulling it out, and we didn't do that again. At least not all the way, as she would take it out and stroke it or suck it before the white stuff shot out.
But our nightly activities took a turn when she invited a friend over for a sleepover. My parents were both out for the evening, so I was home alone with them. They were arguing about who was the hottest celebrity and what they wanted to do with them when my sister told her friend that she had already had sex multiple times, but her friend didn't believe her. When she called me over, she asked me to tell her friend that we would please each other, and I confirmed it.
Since her friend didn't believe us, my sister pulled down my pants and started touching my peepee until it got stiff and began taking off her own pants. Her friend was really surprised by that and just laughed as she watched us doing it, saying she was so jealous that she didn't have any siblings, which was when my sister offered to make me play with her.
With a red face, I kissed my sister's friend and licked her like my sister taught me, the girl squealing as I did while my sister stroked my peepee and encouraged me.
After her naughty bit was all wet, I put my peepee in like with my sister and made her feel good, but remembered to pull out and go on her face to avoid her getting mad. The girl seemed like she would turn into a tomato from how red she had become as she ran off to the bathroom right after, but I heard her moaning in there for several minutes afterward.
Later in the night, the girl came into my room while I was asleep and started touching my private parts. I pretended to still be asleep when she put it in her mouth, doing my best to avoid letting her know I was awake, but it was really hard because she was pushing the entire thing into her mouth instead of just licking it and sucking the top like my sister usually did.
Eventually, I couldn't stop myself anymore and pushed her head all the way down, my balls touching her chin as she gagged and tried to pull away as I came down her throat.
I got really scared after that, so I quickly let her breathe before pushing her onto the bed and apologizing profusely. I really didn't want her telling my sister I did that because she would always hit me when I tried to make her do what made me feel good, like letting the white stuff go inside of her, so I did my best to lick and suck her naughty bits to also make her feel good.
She tried to get away at first, but when I started licking her, she started pushing my head even deeper between her legs, similar to what I did, so when all that strange pee came all over my face, I was glad we were even.
But instead of going back to her own room after that, she had fallen straight to sleep in my bed. Since my sister would sometimes do this, I didn't think anything of it and got into bed alongside her.
In the morning, my sister found us together and woke us up. The girl seemed even redder after waking up clutching me, but that only worsened when my sister teased her about being in love with me.
She would come around a lot more often after that, and both my sister and her friend would make me play with them, often at the same time, even after it didn't feel good for me anymore.
Before long, more people would come over to our house, and my sister made me play with all of them. Soon, four different girls would argue over who gets to sleep in my room during the sleepover, the girl who always seemed to have a red face, constantly sticking to me and barely even hanging out with my sister anymore, despite being her friend, always trying to get me to play with her again.
I don't know what to do anymore, my parents are getting suspicious about what's going on since my sister only ever invites them over when they are away, and I don't think I can keep playing with them all when they make me do it all night. I'm barely getting any sleep anymore, and my grades are worsening at school. Honestly, I don't even feel that good when doing it anymore. It only felt good when my peepee was hard, but after the first person, I shot out the white stuff, and I just want to sleep instead of doing it again with the others.
Since the red-faced girl is also in my school, she comes to find me whenever we have a break and makes me kiss her and hold hands, even touching my peepee whenever we're alone. She really doesn't seem to have recovered from that first time, unlike my sister, who always acts perfectly normal when my parents are around but becomes a completely different person when we're together.
Honestly, I'm not even sure what I'm supposed to do. I like my sister and her friend, but I don't want to keep licking them every night. Maybe I should tell her I don't want to do it every night and go back to doing it less often like before, but I also know that she never really cares what I say and will make me eat her naughty bits until I can't breathe if I do something wrong.
What do you think internet? What do you do when your sister keeps you up all night by making you play lovers together with her and her friends?